//Ð¯achell// Queen Fake [1.3]

About Me

1.3 A year and 3 months
I,Rachell Burgos, take you Jonathan Esposito, to be my husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part.
"A house divided against itself cannot stand"
Remember that. Listen baby swallow that pride,It wont help you at all here.Forgot about what you want to be seen as,just be you thats What I want .I dont want you to put on a mask,I value personality and difference I dont want to meet the same soul in every person I become friends with ,Im sick of that,We all claim to be different,But we arent.PLAIN and simple.I know that as kids we stress the NOWness of things.But none of this is going to make a difference.None of this will matter tommorow. Stop lying I think your starting to belive that shit yourself.
Im fake,but your infatuated with all that I am. .
You have no fucking Idea.
Take a step off of that silver bird from your planet
and you brought a little bit of that cold with you
ring me out like you would your bastarding father
and you're so quick to stick to that scum
hungry like a pirhana
Swallow a little of that sea
now taste a little bit of that salt in me
throw up a little of it on your knees
now doesn't that bring you back to the beginning
before you poured your elements away
now sing back to the bottom of it all
Seal your lips with the black stitch of a secret
parade with that speechless dryness of the desert
lay flat under the lime light and feed off of the
fiction
cold callus and boiled between the bleak deep of your dirty hands
Swallow a little of that sea
now taste a little bit of that salt in me
throw up a little of it on your knees
now doesn't that bring you back to the beginning
before you poured your elements away
now sing back to the bottom of it all
She dont reaally love me
Jon Cause Im in love with him.
Destiny Shes always gonna be my best friend.
Tahani Shes always fucking there.

Phil Because she will always let me abuse her.
Lupeee Because when no one wanted to teach me how to be mexican ,she did.

Madison Cause shes the sweetest myspace friend Ive ever made.

Maria Cause shes the only chick I trust with my BOO
Roger Because you cant pick your family.lol

Luis Cause hes my brother.

My Interests

I AM DOMINICAN and very prideful.I dont belive in Jesus[or any religion for that matter], and my Saira thinks Im satanist.[lmao].Makeup.Music.My Ipod.Mini skirts that no one else can pull off.World Peace.Money.Dreaming.School.Learning how to play the guitar and the piano at the same time.People using me.Being stared down.Shit talkers.Shows.Making up with him.Art that no one else sees.

I'd like to meet:

Heroes:

He is my teacher
My L o v e r
My B e s t f r i e n d
My I n s p i r a t i o n
My F l e a F l e a C a k e s
My D R E A M come true
I know what beauty is .
Im a jealous wreck. Because of this young man. I am an artist . Because of this young man. I am head strong . Because of this young man. I have survived because of this young man.
Nothings that bad anymore.I smile.I love .I need. My one excuse for everything.He comes before anything. He is my life.my heart,my lungs. Dont try to come between us. You'll fail.
And when I tell you its possible to hold the whole world I mean it .
I used to think friends were more important than love,but when your faced with it ,you realize that no ones going to love you like that one little person can.He's helped me find myself ,when I thought I knew who I was .I wish things would get better. I would love for my bestfriend to be there on my big day.But I guess that just wont happen, I hate the fact that I have to keep repeating that things happen for a reason.
When everything seems like it's about to end,when everything hurts really bad, he's the one thing that lifts me from the floor and tell me that I'll be ok. He is one of the very few postive things in my life at this moment and he is simply more than just an "escape" for me .
He's also a wake up call .
We can be little kids together.And its ok cause we have eachother .I fuck up a lot .. i say the wrong things and i dont treat him like i should. he's such a lovely person and i tend to take advantage of that..
i dont think he will ever know how much i love him.... not because hes blind.. but because i dont think its posssible to be able to express all this love
I dont ever want to see the day when this will have to end..
there is things that this being knows about me that no one else does.He always seems to save me from the floor right when i'm about to fall.
I dont want you to try to understand.Its ok aslong as he does .
When he looks at me i feel like the prettiest girl in the world.
This isnt one of those highschool skams .
If anything the love i have for him is the only real thing in my life I think about how things will feel when he graduates this year and leaves me alone in a school full of people that i hate.
it breaks my heart to know that i wont get to see him as much as i want to
I want to grow old with this boy.
The ONLY boy for me. honestly i can say that i'll choose him over anything . even over myself.
I dont know how he does it,i dont know how he loves me so intensly .i dont know why he puts up with me.but im thankful that god sent me someone to love.
he's the sweetest boy on the planet.when he comes over my house and we eat lucky charms , he saves me all the heart marshmellows and tells me i'll always have his heart.
you'll never take him away
I'll prove to you that you are the only thing that really matters.Some day when Im your wife I'll make you the happiest guy in the world.I cant wait till I get to watch you smile while you sleep. I hope I make you happy papito.

My Blog

2008

Its a new year! 2007 is out and Im realllllly excited. Last year was like the year of my like life. Everything that could happened did. And lots of things went wrong I do feel like I grew up. Not comp...
Posted by ///achell// Queen Fake [1.3] on Sat, 05 Jan 2008 01:26:00 PST

lol

you called me a cute fucking bitch. I love you more
Posted by ///achell// Queen Fake [1.3] on Tue, 11 Dec 2007 06:04:00 PST

We made a year yesterday.

112306 112307 Amazing is the only word I can only wish for more. This feeling is everlasting, I know this wont go to waste. I love you....
Posted by ///achell// Queen Fake [1.3] on Sat, 24 Nov 2007 10:30:00 PST

1838

Something happened recently that has kept me thinking about all the things Im going through right now. Im not going to complain about the things,because I know that they will only make me stronger. Ab...
Posted by ///achell// Queen Fake [1.3] on Sun, 11 Nov 2007 08:44:00 PST

5:45

I am completely in love with you. You are the only thing I have left. Please baby help me.
Posted by ///achell// Queen Fake [1.3] on Sun, 04 Nov 2007 02:46:00 PST

[extinct]

I didnt mean to stab her. I didnt mean to step into that puddle of blood. My ententions were to just walk right over it. But now my shoes are all stained and all I can do is look up at the sky. I can ...
Posted by ///achell// Queen Fake [1.3] on Mon, 15 Oct 2007 07:27:00 PST

Slide it in

Nothing on this earth means more to me than you. You suprised me today. When I saw you there at my school. My smile was unbareable. And my body felt weak. At the same time tho... I felt really ...
Posted by ///achell// Queen Fake [1.3] on Fri, 05 Oct 2007 04:14:00 PST

hgjgjghjk

I love you.
Posted by ///achell// Queen Fake [1.3] on Wed, 03 Oct 2007 12:59:00 PST

lol

You wanna know what I really hate. What I find most annoying about people ? When they complain about there life and always say "Ive been thru so much". Blah Blah. Why the fuck are you co...
Posted by ///achell// Queen Fake [1.3] on Thu, 20 Sep 2007 06:44:00 PST

Jon

Im stuck in a place where everythings an enigma. Where everythings only part of the whirpool. Where there is no normalcy. Nothings right, Everythings done and broken. Except. For him. That one thing. ...
Posted by ///achell// Queen Fake [1.3] on Sat, 15 Sep 2007 12:32:00 PST