capricorn kidd

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Myspace Layouts - Myspace Backgrounds - Myspace CodesI am 33 and I live with my cat henry in a small apartment in the unwashed location of K-town in L.A. where i write songs and read books listen to music. I listen almost exclusively to vinyl. I do alot of summing up my past and making poetry out of it and then channel it into jingle form.Sinister jingles for an advertising campaign that in another reality would be perfectly normal. As it is in this reality it is my own weirdness and is generally unheard of by the general populace. Of course that is my own fault and should be remedied fairly easily. THAT IS THE REAL STRUGGLE OF MY LIFE as I am realizing it. Everything else seems like just killing time lately.Wasting time is more like it. As I am sure you know it is extremely dificult to make any headway in life when you aren't doing what you feel you were put on this world for. And it is shocking how much encouragement we get to do just that.To do everything but the purpose for which you were born. For most of us it becomes apparent that we are hear to have children and raise a family and nourish and nurture those kids.I have thought alot about that and how good it must feel to do that and know that the circle of life is unbroken. I recently have begun relationships with some friends' children and have felt that goodness vicariously seeing my friends relate to their children. Having a child smile at me ranks among the greatest experiences in my life. It makes me think about the meaning of friendship and the contract of trust that two people enter into. It is funny to say that I feel like that toward my cat Henry. Of course he is my friend and not my child, but we communicate wordlessly and are partners in gentleness. Whenever I pick up my guitar and start to play he streches out and relaxes on the floor and seems to be listening and letting the music nourish him in a way. Sometimes he chimes in.He seems to love the wordless tonal gestures in music. As if it is some universal language-Which,of course,it is. This is me- I was put here to make music. That is the most universal form of communication I can put my fingers to. More or less that is me.