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Bryan

To understand is to transform what is.

About Me

My name is Bryan

It’s difficult to describe oneself, especially when evolution is a constant and the horizon is always ambiguous. This is my attempt at the moment:

I live in my own reality. Sometimes, I'll impose it on you. Brace yourself.
I am a hedonist.
Utilitarianism is kind of my thing.
The avant-garde is the place to be.
I am a walking contradiction.
I concern myself with things most would deem immaterial.
I strive to be better than you.

Literature is an addiction.
Reading is my heroine.
Writing is my weed.

Music is a must. Most kinds will do.
I play guitar, mostly acoustic at the moment.

I am just your typical kid in an existential funk, with the entire world ahead of me, and no clue how to approach it. I’m scared shitless of my own potential, and out of my mind trying to figure out why I’m alive.

My Interests


Simplicity, existentialism, knowledge, psychology, art, Pixie stix, cuddling, roof tops, lava lamps, incense, candles, poetry, getting naked, food, sleep, music, playing guitar, myspace, climbing trees, sunsets, the park, serenity, movies, aliens, blood, eyes, lips, landscapes, tragedy, FIRE, pogo sticks, jamba juice, chocolate covered cherries, laying down in the shower, explosives, and meditation.

I'd like to meet:

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Music:

Anything that inspires emotion.

Movies:

Movies that question reality.
Movies that challenge morality.
Movies with old school thugs.
Movies with flying Asians.
Movies that make girls say "aww."
Movies with red corn syrup.

Television:

South Park, Scrubs, Colbert Report, The Daily Show, Adult Swim, MSNBC, Discovery Channel, History Channel, and Fox News (for teh lulz).

Books:

All of your standard high school reading.My reading fetish requires a bit more though:Just finished: The Stranger - Albert Camus (again) Currently reading: Haunted - Chuck Palahniuk Next: Catch 22 - Joseph HellerI'm always looking for a good read, so recommend a book if you think it's worth my time.

Heroes:

A.S.I.W.S. & Andrew
You guys are the best friends a guy could ask for. Your my crutch to lean on when I can't get through things by myself, and I consider you all family.
ANDREW- You are one of the coolest guys I know. No matter what mood I'm in, I always cheer up with you around. You're always down to hang out, and just drive around, maybe get a slurpee, you know. Thanks for being there to give me a boost when I need it...just stop slapping my ass.
MATT- You're an awesome guy. I can always talk to you, and have some of the greatest conversations doing so. Our academic competitions keeps my head up in school, and for that I'm grateful. You're a good guy...just stop tickling my ass.
WILL- Even though we have our occasional disagreement, you're still an awesome friend. You've gotten me through a lot and I can always count on you to give your honest opinion. You're very opinionated, and I like that, because so am I. Point is, you're a good friend.
TYLER- I know we've had a couple "falling outs", but when it comes down to it, I can relate to you more than anyone else. We're really similar and if we hung out more often, I think we could become a lot better friends. But as it is, you're still a great friend.
JASON- Everything is more interesting with you in the mix. I can always count on you to speak your mind, and have the balls to do things most people would deem "inappropriate". For some reason, you're one of my favorite people to hang out with and talk to.
Nick- You're always in a good mood, and I can always count on you cheering me up. You're a funny guy, and fun to hang out with. Just stop sexually harrassing me, and things will be cool.

My Blog

Nothing matters...

Query: How to contrive not to waste one's time? Answer: By being fully aware of it all the while. Ways in which this can be done: By spending one's days on an uneasy chair in a dentist's waiting room;...
Posted by Bryan on Tue, 13 Nov 2007 08:50:00 PST

The Well

One Fall day, I was playing in a garden when I fell into a well. I was able to catch myself several feet from the surface. I remained there for quite some time befroe anyone realized I was gone. ...
Posted by Bryan on Fri, 28 Sep 2007 10:32:00 PST

Lyrical genius

Darkest Hour-With A Thousand Words to Say But OneAnd to reflect is to regretThrowing it all awayAnd apathy my one way streetIt took so much from meSeparated by this divide I created through my fearsAn...
Posted by Bryan on Sun, 04 Sep 2005 07:04:00 PST