My name is Anthony.
I'm a city boy with fond memories of a childhood in the country.
I'm the perfect corporate sellout raised by entrepreneours.
I belive in God and Science...
...and so many other things.
I'm an empath and a poet with delusions of propriety.
I push people away, even when I want nothing more than to hold them close.
I love science, but hate math.
I have a drawer full of gifts that I never gave.
I beleive in freedom for all people, but imprison myself in a cage of duty and obligation.
I love with all my heart, but have to appear like I have none.
I'm an academic and scholar, but love the feel of moonlight and the scent of wind...
...even in L.A.
I'm a romantic optimist and a jaded pragmatist.
I help people where and how I can, but harbor suspicion of others who try to help me.
I live in a world of dark, gothic beauty...
...and Angels fear to tread in it.
I am a knight sworn in service and bound by oaths of honor.
I am a Lord, entrusted by God with gifts and special talents to take care of other people and watch over this world.
I am but a common slave, seeking my opportunity for freedom.
I am a caretaker of Worlds, but have no World of my own.
I am but one man, but I am a community, a chorus, an army.
At times I've been nothing but a weapon, a sword for men and corporations to use against each other.
At times I've been on object to be possessed by powerful women.
(That was kind of cool.)
I am a Pisces, and I am a poet, and I am a lover, and I am a scholar, and I am a warden, and I am a martyr, and I am a caretaker, and I am a writer, and I am a builder, and I am a prophet, and I am student, and I am a dream.
Most of all, I am just Anthony...
...and nothing more.
And that's good, too.
"Only in Sleep" by Sarah Teasdale
Only in sleep I see their faces,
Children I played with when I was a child,
Louise comes back with her brown hair braided,
Annie with ringlets warm and wild.
Only in sleep Time is forgotten --
What may have come to them, who can know?
Yet we played last night as long ago,
And the doll-house stood at the turn of the stair.
The years had not sharpened their smooth round faces,
I met their eyes and found them mild --
Do they, too, dream of me, I wonder,
And for them am I too a child?
"Firefly"
"Grayson"
"Buffy & Angel"
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What is your name?: Anthony
Are you named after anyone?: Not sure.
What's your screename?: Zodiac
Would you name a child of yours after you?: No. I would give him/her a cooler name.
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: Evelyn.
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: I don't think I would.
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: Antony.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: No. Unless I became Emperor.
Basics
Your gender:: Male
Straight/Gay/Bi:: Straight
Single?: Single
If not, do you want to be?: I'd prefer to be with someone I love.
Birthdate:: March 1st, 1981. Pisces. :)
Your age:: 25.
Age you act:: 30 or 9, depending on who I'm with.
Age you wish you were:: 10,391.
Your height:: 5'10"
Eye color:: Brown
Happy with it?: No. I want yellow wolf's eyes.
Hair color:: Brown
Happy with it?: No. I want long streaks of snow-white hair.
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: Righty
Your living arrangement:: I live with my grandmother.
Your family:: Just my grandmother and uncle left now.
Have any pets?: Not anymore. :(
Whats your job?: Computer tech.
Piercings?: No.
Tattoos?: No.
Obsessions?: Honor. Chivalry. Destiny. Love.
Addictions?: Caffeine.
Do you speak another language?: Latin.
Have a favorite quote?: "What is to give light, must endure burning."
Do you have a webpage?: This is it. www.myspace.com/cetiah
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: No. I always plan for the future.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Very.
Do you have any secrets?: Many.
Do you hate yourself?: Often, yes.
Do you like your handwriting?: Eh. I don't really care.
Do you have any bad habits?: Yes, many. :)
What is the compliment you get from most people?: Girls tend to call me "sweet". Grrrr.
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: "To Dance With Jak o' The Shadows" :)
What's your biggest fear?: Pretty girls that sap my willpower. :)
Can you sing?: No.
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: No. I'm me.
Are you a loner?: Yes.
What are your #1 priorities in life?: Justice, Truth, Honor, Loyalty.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Probably not. I'm creepy. :)
Are you a daredevil?: No.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: Yes. I get jealous easy.
Are you passive or agressive?: Relatively passive. I get revenge, though.
Do you have a journal?: Just emails. Google keeps everything.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: My empathy is both.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: I would follow my heart more often.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: I think my emotions are stronger than most.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: Yes. I regret hesitating, mostly.
Do you think life has been good so far?: Yeah; it always has a way of working out.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Be true to who you really are.
What do you like the most about your body?: I like that I keep a girl warm on a cold night.
And least?: I need faster reflexes.
Do you think you are good looking?: Sure.
Are you confident?: I'm usually extreme one way or the other.
What is the fictional character you are most like?: Rand al'Thor. :)
Are you perceived wrongly?: Yeah, but that's intentional.
Do You...
Smoke?: No.
Do drugs?: No.
Read the newspaper?: Sometimes.
Pray?: Yes.
Go to church?: Yes.
Talk to strangers who IM you?: Yes and no. If it's genuine and honest.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: No.
Take walks in the rain?: As often as possible!!
Talk to people even though you hate them?: Sometimes its necessary for the Grand Design.
Drive?: Yes, but I don't have my car anymore. :(
Like to drive fast?: I'm comfortable around 80 mph.
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: Never really thought about it.
Hurt yourself?: Sure. Pain helps focus stray thoughts.
Been out of the country?: Just to Mexico and back for shopping.
Eaten something that made other people sick?: No, I use friends as food-tasters.
Been in love?: Yes.
Done drugs?: No. Just caffeine.
Gone skinny dipping?: No.
Had a medical emergency?: Yes. I stopped breathing.
Had surgery?: Yes.
Ran away from home?: Yes.
Played strip poker?: Not exactly.
Gotten beaten up?: No. Always have an exit strategy.
Beaten someone up?: Yeah, sort of.
Been picked on?: Yes. .
Been on stage?: Yes. Acting, public speaking, debate.
Slept outdoors?: Yes.
Thought about suicide?: Yes.
Pulled an all nighter?: Yes.
If yes, what is your record?: Almost a week.
Gone one day without food?: Yes.
Talked on the phone all night?: Yes.
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: Yes.
Slept all day?: Yes.
Killed someone?: Not directly, no.
Made out with a stranger?: No.
Had sex with a stranger?: Eww. No.
Thought you're going crazy?: Frequently.
Kissed the same sex?: No.
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: No.
Been betrayed?: Yes. By people I trusted. And I don't learn.
Had a dream that came true?: Many times.
Broken the law?: Laws are fuzzy intangible things.
Met a famous person?: Some of them will become famous soon. :)
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: No. but I failed to save them. Just as bad.
On purpose?: No.
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: Never. Well, yes. But I swore to myself.
Stolen anything?: Yes.
Been on radio/tv?: No.
Been in a mosh-pit?: That thing was scary and I tried to get away.
Had a nervous breakdown?: Twice
Bungee jumped?: No.
Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yes. Frequently.
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: Yes.
Miracles?: Yes.
Astrology?: Yes.
Magic?: Yes.
God?: Yes.
Satan?: No.
Santa?: No.
Ghosts?: Yes.
Luck?: Karma.
Love at first sight?: Yes.
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: Yes and no.
Witches?: Yes.
Easter bunny?: No.
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: Of course.
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: It's worth checking, isn't it? :)
Do you wish on stars?: Yes.
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: Yes and no.
Do you think God has a gender?: No.
Do you believe in organized religion?: Yes.
Where do you think we go when we die?: This is a conversation. Death is complex.
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: I have bi friends. Does that count?
Who is your best friend?: Helen, Tomerson, Edgar
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: Helen
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: "Don't anger the Helen." But I didn't listen.
Your favourite inside joke?: 42.
Thing you're picked on most about?: Being shy and stoic.
Who's your longest known friend?: Tomerson
Newest?: Nadia
Shyest?: Edgar
Funniest?: Edgar
Sweetest?: Nadia
Closest?: Helen
Weirdest?: Definitely Helen.
Smartest?: Jackie
Ditziest?: Nicole
Friends you miss being close to the most?: Tomerson, Helen, and occasionally Nicole
Last person you talked to online?: Tara
Who do you talk to most online?: Nadia
Who are you on the phone with most?: Helen
Who do you trust most?: Tomerson
Who listens to your problems?: Edgar
Who do you fight most with?: Helen
Who's the nicest?: Jackie
Who's the most outgoing?: Helen
Who's the best singer?: We should do a competition...
Who's on your shit-list?: None
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: Yes. I prefer starting relationships as friends
Who's your second family?: Tomerson, Helen, Jackie
Do you always feel understood?: Only when I'm around Helen or Tomerson
Who's the loudest friend?: Tomerson. Especially after the marines. :)
Do you trust others easily?: Yes, I trust my empathy to tell me who.
Who's house were you last at?: Edgar
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: Helen
Do your friends know you?: As much as they want to, I think.
Friend that lives farthest away:: Jackie. She's at the OTHER ocean. :(
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: No, but I sometimes wish I didn't fall so easily.
What do you find romantic?: Smiles, kisses, hugs, sex, poetry, cuddling
Turn-on?: Kissing. And any way she uses her tongue.
Turn-off?: Swearing, malice, insensitivity, greed.
First kiss?: Was such a wonderful and cruel surprise.
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: I'd do whatever I could to avoid hurting her.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: Yes. I prefer to be friends and get closer.
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: Girls do ask me out. I tend to go for that. :)
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv: I can't ever find a love interest unattractive.
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: Sure. With my boyish smile? :)
What is best about the opposite sex?: They tend to be smarter and sexier.
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: They tend to be too smart and too sexy :)
What's the last present someone gave you?: Pretty sure it was Children of Dune, on DVD.
Are you in love?: Yes.
Do you consider your significant other hot?: Of course. :)
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: Judith. She kept killing my neighbors plants.
You wanted to kill?: Alex. Still have to plan that one out.
That you laughed at?: One of Edgar's jokes.
That laughed at you?: Helen. She always laughs at me.
That turned you on?: Helen. She seems to enjoy it a lot.
You went shopping with?: Edgar. For books.
That broke your heart?: Helen
To disappoint you?: The ticker-passer-out guy downstairs.
To ask you out?: Karla. Well, she demanded to be asked.
To make you cry?: Helen
To brighten up your day?: Helen and her crazy chats.
That you thought about?: Helen and her crazy chats. :)
You saw a movie with?: Karla. She watched. I massaged her legs.
You talked to on the phone?: Edgar to make plans to hang out
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: Lucy, regarding her plans for being Empress.
You saw?: Last friend I saw was Edgar.
You lost?: Helen. She hasn't come back yet...
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: No.
Will it be with your significant other?: I don't have a significant other.
Or some random person?: I don't go out with random people.
What are you wearing right now?: Shirt and jeans. Rather casual.
Body part you're touching right now:: Are you kidding me?
What are you worried about right now?: Financial stuff and how to stay in school.
What book are you reading?: Wheel of Time by Robert Jordon.
What's on your mousepad?: A kitten
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: I want to use six words. :)
Are you bored?: A little.
Are you tired?: No, not really. Sleep is good.
Are you talking to anyone online?: Not at the moment.
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: No. Cellphone went bye-bye.
Are you lonely or content?: Lonely
Are you listening to music?: I have Alanis Morrisette playing in my head.
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Name: Anthony
Birthday: March 1
Birthplace: Las Vegas
Current Location: California
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 5'8"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: Hispanic
The Shoes You Wore Today: Tennis shoes
Your Weakness: Introvert
Your Fears: People... they're scary, man!
Your Perfect Pizza: Pinaple and canadian bacon, yum!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Graduate PCC, or come close to it.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: Greetings.
Thoughts First Waking Up: Where am I and how the hell did I get here?!
Your Best Physical Feature: My pretty brown eyes
Your Bedtime: 11pm, usually.input type='hidden' name='question19' value='Your+Bedtime%3A'&
