ruthie

I am all the ages I have ever been, every day. When I wake up in the morning I am a baby. I want to eat a breakfast my mother made, watch cartoons, wear clothes she has picked out, and have her drive me around. By lunchtime I am 15 and rebellious. I skip classes and smoke cigarettes. I make out on my parents couch while they are at work. If someone is unkind I am 8 years old in the sandbox and I want to pull their hair and kick them. 4 o'clock makes me more mature. I want a job, my own place, and a car. By happy hour I am 21, naturally. After a few beers, I am 18 and carefree, naive and stupid. Dancing with my friends, laughter and summertime will last forever. Around 9 pm I am 25, my head hurts, I have bills to pay, men who have tried to ruin my life, and so many unanswered questions. By 11 o'clock I feel my age, and then some. I think everyone is like this. It can't just be me.