it was only quarter to one, on another normal humid saturday night in jersey, a man sits alone, although considered this by law at the age of 22, a man is not quite what he felt like. While still living with his parents and not being there for anyone, he let his responsibility fall straight to the floor. He was forced to give up most of his friends, while they spent they re time out at the bar he sat in self reflection. The mind numbing adventure he had carried out today is what others would just call work. The amount of imagination and creativity that goes into this one day through the mind of this man is more than some can dream. He doesn't know where he is going and this scares him. After spending almost 50 dollars on a keyboard his only plan for the night was to come home and go on the computer. Always slouched it seems that he sits, u can watch him correct this by arching his back and appearing completely erect, but still completely uncomfortable. His small white cat searches the room, pouncing on shadows and bouncing back and forth. This for some reason strangely reminds him of his childhood and a smile grows upon his face. Although never having worked a "real" job he had many that he had worked hard to establish a good name at. It seems his whole life he has struggled to establish his own reputation only to be put back in another place where he must rise to the occasion to prove once again what is inside him. How sick of this he has become. Telling people doesn't make them think anything of u either he knows. Besides the fact that u have a big mouth and a big ego. Never was he allowed to be boisterous or suffer conceit and now he spends time destroying himself to never be happy with what he has achieved. Although it sounds so good he wants to cry tears of joy despair and then just dissapear. He knows that much more awaits him in the life that he has not yet seen in the crystal ball he holds. His throat slightly sore, always looking for another ciggarette or other poison to fill this empty void in him. Whenever he looks past nicotine another noose awaits. The depression of not being high after being high, or the lack of socialization that it brings with strangers. The greatness of the alcohol that befriended him like a large knife in the back. Hiding his smile and his ideas all cooped up in his head. And others wonder why he studders when he gets excited about what hes talking about like its the first time he has tried to speak. He wonders where the quiet self he used to be has gone and why those nights lieing awake didn't seem to bother him like the ones do now. Never wanting always doing, is this what a life of partying has done to a young "man"...... File save, File save, he clicks away and adds and adds and maybe the list of imperfections will make him feel complete and allow sleep for this night or sending randoms a message of what he truly is, while cringing in the dark wondering how crazy this must all seem to someone who has never even seen him. He is lost again and glad he grew out his hair and wished he had a beard to match to hide from the world that has now become so cruel and unforgiving.And who is this man, well of course he is the protagonist of our story.. the man on a mission to better himself, trying not to go crazy, and winning the hearts of others while cutting off pieces of his own to hand out to the undeserving crowd. He just smiles and says i didn't really need it anyway. So lets start at the beginning while it might jump around like his mind often does it will all end up somewhere.
Your Five Factor Personality Profile
Extroversion:
You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"
Conscientiousness:
You have medium conscientiousness.
You're generally good at balancing work and play.
When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.
But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.
Agreeableness:
You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.
Neuroticism:
You have medium neuroticism.
You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.
Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.
Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything. The Five Factor Personality Test
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