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About Me

I am an extremely loyal person. sometimes i have too many loyalties and they are too strong, and they get me in trouble, or lead me down the wrong path. but i figure the truth about people's intentions comes out in the end and they will not be able to escape it, and at that point, my loyalties change, morph, or let go, dissipate into the atmosphere like a cherry blossom falling from a tree. I love my friends and if I have accepted you as part of me, I will defend you to the end and love you forever. I have a somewhat interdependent view of life, a little uncommon in this western society. I try to see the world as a giant whole, all the puzzle pieces fitting together, exactly the way they are, and nothing more. I have a darker side. I am a scorpio. some fun facts: i am a chef/kitchen manager, I usually develop a special voice for everybody I know, and usually only use it when im talking to them (i do this unconsciously mostly and it usually is quite comedic)
"A true lover of truth will not entertain any proposition with more confidence than the proofs it is built upon shall warrant."
~John Locke
^^^ that quote has helped me a lot. if you want to see reality for what it actually is, you must truly only try to see things for exactly as they are and not let any other emotions fuel them. live free, ask questions, and dont let guilt keep you from doing the things you need to do~~~ that one is for you dad, if you are reading this.
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My Blog

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I want to see the difference between a world that's red and a world that's green where creatures dwell (soft and safe) in worlds of dream (so soft and safe) I'll keep the theme   its a place wher...
Posted by on Thu, 31 May 2007 13:34:00 GMT

staple man

i feel different. not as in, from before. from everyone else. people don't know me. time doesn't know me. " a thousand different versions of yourself." i have music anxiety. the sound makes me fee...
Posted by on Fri, 09 Mar 2007 20:00:00 GMT

a sensual frustration & gratitude for my life off a river bank in Tibet

The creativity it would take for me to make something beautiful for you to read is too much right now. brain is washed like a dirty dishrag and im blinking rawly. use both hands, remember to use both ...
Posted by on Tue, 16 Jan 2007 23:33:00 GMT

distasteful lullaby

and this is what i tell--is it right? this is what i ask myself lying awake at night. would it be fair that i could be born with the steady confidence of those around me? all this self hatred has me...
Posted by on Thu, 02 Nov 2006 18:41:00 GMT

wide varieties

yeah there's so many people and they've all got the same perception of normal. they're picking their teeth and dressing formal yeah you know they've got it down. you know they never frown. there's s...
Posted by on Tue, 19 Sep 2006 22:47:00 GMT

5 a dime bin

here i am againfishing out words from the 5 a dime binif i could just meet someone who could tell me what's wrongsomeone who could tell me why i always have this goddamn songstuck in my mind, its a bi...
Posted by on Sat, 09 Sep 2006 17:44:00 GMT

Ms. Sinister Self-Inflicted

hands shaking. you're alone when you're hiding in a stall bleeding at the nose, staring at the walls rolling bills and shaping lines picking scabs and telling lies you're alone when you have to turn o...
Posted by on Wed, 30 Aug 2006 21:23:00 GMT

Ode To Geometry Class

Setting. "An overwhelming feeling of boredom, uselessness...i see the dust on my borrowed calculator, and think briefly about brushing it off. Everything is silent, save for the breath of three dozen ...
Posted by on Sat, 22 Apr 2006 13:52:00 GMT