j'dore rachel.
what i'm up to:
me && jay are currently looking for bandmates. message me or jay if you're interested. here's an idea of what we're going to sound like:
bob marley, kurt cobain, and blink 182(old stuff) jammed one night then they all had sex with birdman. birdman was too drunk to remember this and then passed on AIDS to the kottonmouthkings, hed pe, and bullet for my valentine. bullet for my valentine has a threesome with social distortion and old U2... then the bone thugs eat them all and out poops our band.
koala bean ♥
so, there's this boy.
a very beautiful boy.
i loved him very very much.
then he broke my heart into a million little pieces.
months later, he apologized.
and kept at me.
but i resisted him for a long time, because i was so angry.
then i played a drinking game with some friends.
and from there, that's where we started all over again.
my heart is still hurting some, but actions from him are proving that he's changing.
out with the old, and in with the new. that's what they all say.
i'm his lil animal, and he wouldn't change that for the world.
yes, what he did will always stay in the back of my brain, but there's something called forgiveness.
we are all capable of it.
don't get mad at me, because i'm not giving him all my trust quite yet. i have very little faith in him right now... and i'll only TRULY believe it when i see it.
also, don't put me down for loving someone so much it almost killed me- because i'll never change. the reason i am this way is because i once lost someone that was close to me. i didn't show him how much i really cared, and i took him for granted too often. my heart and soul was crushed and robbed of happiness when he and i went our separate ways. he was my first love, and i'm lucky that he and i are now just starting to build a friendship. he'll always be in my heart.
my love is pure and true, anyone is lucky to experience it; whether it be a close friend, family member, or lover of mine.
i have thought i've loved, but i found out later it wasn't real. it was just lust.
but with this boy, it's true.
just wait and see. you'll know why i care about him so much. in fact, you'll love him too. he's a good person, but was an idiot at the time.
he's made me laugh, cry, smile, and scream...
but he's worth EVERY bit of chaos- good or bad.
now he's got one last chance; he knows this.
let's hope he doesn't blow it.
currently i like;; fiest,
bat for lashes,
cat power,
regina spektor,
the expendables,
pepper,
frou frou,
sublime,
kottonmouth kings,
kingspade,
the wallflowers,
the muffs,
the co-dependents,
BUSH,
dr. explosion,
the staggers,
say anything,
hellogoodbye,
the coffin shakers,
fiona apple,
ani difranco,
the shins,
the beatles,
the doors,
bob marley,
peter tosh,
the kooks,
silversun pickups,
hardcore, metal, underground rap,
punk rock,
classical music- bach, mozzart, bethoven, etc.,
techno,
I LOVE ALL MUSIC.
across the universe.
the green mile.
aquamarine.
lilo and stitch.
juno.
grandma's boy.
40 year old virgin.
donnie darko.
run's house.
degrassi.
family guy.
futurama.
aqua teen hunger force.
love is a dog from hell (poetry)
dante's series about his ideas of heaven, hell, and purgatory.
the lovely bones.
jesus ♥
anyone who has always stayed by my side.
koala bean, best friend, crunk, crush, tasha, and rolle.