.lisa.maria. [sleepless again]

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Lisa Maria
I'll never be satisfied with who I am.
I'm from Bavaria, Germany, and I live in South Carolina, USA. My life pretty much revolves around planing the next trip to Germany and seeing my friends, going to concerts, parties etc. and after that trip, I'll start planing the next one. I miss home and my friends like crazy.
Art is my past, present, and future. Or at least I try to convince myself that this is still true. I used to see myself as a becoming artist, I used to believe I had just a glimpse of the raw talent that I need, but where has my dream gone?
I took a chance that most of you will never even get the opportunity to take. I don't know if that is a good or a bad thing, but I'm pretty sure I'll find out sooner or later.
People tell me that I look like Anne Hathaway, but let's face it, I could never be that skinny, my hips are three times as wide as hers.
I try to constantly read between the lines. I'm kind of nerdy and dorky a lot. My mom is one of my closest friends. I have 4 pets <33
I'm a hard worker, and if something needs to get done, then I'll just do it. Please don't pity me. I hate it. I try to be strong, sometimes I just fall apart, but we all do.
I can be soo hard on myself. I push myself to the limit every single day. Sometimes I lose all hope and strength, but I live for the moments that are filled with love and friendship.
I <3 my family and friends!
I love looking at the stars and wondering about what else is really out there. I don't really know what kind of girl I am. I'm single, and not looking. School is pretty much my life right now, and I find myself lost on weekends and I don't even want to think about the next break. When I'm at school I actually feel like I have a purpose.
I'm invisible to you.

It's hard to wait around
for something you know may never happen.
But it's even harder,
when you know it's everything you want .
my fall will be for you...