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Me who am I...I am still trying to find the person in me that has been locked up for so long still trying to let her out and rediscouver who I am...it's been a rough few years being sick and coming abck from that falling in love on the net...not sure where it will take me......i have learnt alot about me through others learning to be open and honest isnt as easy for some as it is for me...I am a mother of 4 great kids 3 girls 21 19 16 and a son 13 they are all great although trying to find their paths in life isnt always easy either...they are strong like me and will be fine one day , they might not see it but life will happen...I am single...going to school for nursing and loving it.... i'm not afraid to die i'm afraid to live i'm not afriad to be in love i'm afraid to love you i'm not afraid of being honest i'm afraid of being lied to i'm not afraid of trusting i'm afraid of being deceived i'm not afraid of my sexuality i'm afraid of not sharing it i'm not afraid of being alone i'm afraid of being lonely i'm not afraid of not having money i'm afraid of not giving i'm not afraid of the distance between us i'm afraid of the closeness we have i'm not afraid of whats in my heart or yours i'm afraid of you not holding it safe i'm not afraid to say i love you i'm afraid of you not saying it back i'm not afriad to spend my life with u i'm afraid of not having enough of life left with u i'm not afraid of an open hand i'm afraid of not having it in yours I AM NOT AFRAID OF MY SOUL AND ITS MATE
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Id like to meet anyone in the world who can be real who can share and help me discouver me and the world around me...i'm like a sponge i love learning
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just thoughts

well here i am another day and as confused as ever with life not to sure what to believe in any more not sure i trust my own judgement on who is playing games and who is not but i can tell u i wont ev...
Posted by on Wed, 04 Jun 2008 11:36:00 GMT

love

you know love is a very funny thing...what one person does for love and gives for love is so different from another...the way one woman shows her love to her man is so differenet from what another wou...
Posted by on Wed, 15 Nov 2006 03:45:00 GMT

Ian is back

I can not explain how he makes me feel. I just need to know y we cant be one...i need to understand more cause right now ifeel so ripped up inside. I need to know if i am all that if i am a princess a...
Posted by on Tue, 14 Nov 2006 08:04:00 GMT

just some thoughts for today

The beginning of another week ...kinda nervous where it will go and what will happen this week...have been trying to concentrate on my schooling and getting some new daycare going...i love the kids......
Posted by on Mon, 13 Nov 2006 05:21:00 GMT

house hold chores

why is it that nobody wants to work for anythiing y is that everyone wants a free ride....it takes everyone in a household to make it run smooth just like it does a business or an office...so in a hom...
Posted by on Mon, 06 Nov 2006 14:59:00 GMT

nikki

Nikki i know today our talk was hard there is alot of hurt alot of pain built up over the last few years ...bad choices can be over come....choose your path find things in your life that can make you ...
Posted by on Sun, 05 Nov 2006 15:29:00 GMT

my Ian

i am sitting here missing u thats y im in here making this space a differnt place its not lava lol...just can't concentrate on my psychology right now and i know i have to have a test on monday...i wa...
Posted by on Sat, 04 Nov 2006 20:30:00 GMT

just me

i dont know im trying to understand life and its not easy to figure out..i think some how i need to get past what i want and desire and and just let it happen...confused u bet...trying to keep my kids...
Posted by on Sat, 04 Nov 2006 00:30:00 GMT