perfectly content

***Difficult times have helped me to understand better than before, how infinitely rich and beautiful life is in every way, and that so many things that one goes on worrying about are of no importance whatsoever***I like to think of myself as a very weathered person…if that makes any sense to you... I am a woman who has been through a lot. I have been through the worst of storms…laid beneath the warmest sun…and also froze from some of the coldest winds. And through this I feel like I have learned a lot. Problem is a big fraction of the things I’ve absorbed are the things that ultimately are not going to help me become a better human being. Because of this I have redirected my life altogether. So here we go…this is about me…about who and where I am now.Recently I have been learning to take complete and full responsibility of all my actions…both good and bad. I find that by doing this I have been a happier person. No matter where I wake up… I have always been someone who is excited about life. I look at each morning (well afternoon) I wake up as a new beginning. A new chapter. I see my life as if it were the fourth of July and you see all the fireworks… some of them are amazing and you grasp every second that they are in the sky…taking in the colors…the lights the sounds. And as much as you enjoy each and every firework…you are perpetually waiting for the grand finale… which is beautiful in its own essence and makes the whole show all the more worth while. But you know that deep down the finale would not have been complete without each little light leading up to it. For it to be enjoyable you need to see the complete show. Just as in life…every firework (or step you take) is necessary…even the duds that only light up once in the sky. I have learned to take all the good with the bad. And all the bad with the good just the same.One thing in my life that makes it seem a little more fulfilling each day is my friends. My friends are really the roots that hold me to the ground. They make each day worthwhile. I am the kind of girl who has always become one of the guys… I guess in a sense I have always had trouble relating to other females. Really it is one of my down falls… I think that really I just stereotype females quicker then males. But anyway… to the point of this paragraph. (Sorry for the confusion that may see when reading this..part of this had to be taken out...and i havn't quite had time to edit.---muchlove) My most cherished aspect in my life is my new fround friendships… it is really amazing to have the one person who you know you can tell anything too. The one friend who you know will not ever judge you for mistakes you have made…or even the mistakes you will make down the road. I am excited to see how our friendship impacts one another and our surroundings.As for my love life. Well at the moment I am single. I was in a relationship for a very large portion of my teenage years. And I have nothing more to say than it was one of the hardest most honest lessons I have ever learned in life so far. I have only been in love once. And I used to see this love as being my only… I was chalking it off as “well I am glad I had the chance to love once…even if it did not last” But really I see now that it was just a taste of the future…just the beginning of an untapped emotion. I’m truly excited to see where my heart takes me in the future. But for now… I am remaining celibate until the right person comes along. I know the qualities that I hope for in a significant other and have decided not to sell myself short of what I deserve.Another part of me is my new found faith… I am still just novice in so many aspects of religion. But I have recently been taking time out of my days to pray. I find it more helpful than anything ever. It is a lifting feeling to know that out there is someone who cares about all your feelings, someone who wants to feel your hurt, your happiness and your fears with you. It keeps all my blessings in check for me, and makes me feel whole.***The important thing is this: To be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.***