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.. .. "I can feel my heart beating and I can feel the weight of my life beginning to drop and I realize now why dawn is called mourning." ------------------------------------------------------------ ----------------------------------- I used to long for love as a clear and steady state, though perhaps there is no love that does not hold the seed of something else - just as there is no steady state of the body, and no state at all without some inconsistency, some internal contradiction, some trace of weather patterns, the possibility of migration or other turbulence. Perhaps the question is simply whether love enfolds an ambivalence you can live with, or one you can't. ------------------------------------------------------------ ----------------------------------- Some days loss, pure loss, and the longing for what's lost... for what I failed to do, grows nearly toxic in my blood. ------------------------------------------------------------ ----------------------------------- "And we will be like 8th grade track class when they make you jump those hurdles. We'll have to crawl under, because God knows we'll never get over each other." ----------------------------------------------------------- "When we remember that we are all mad, the mysteries disappear and life stands explained.".

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after the sunshine came the rain, it helps my love live and grow, on days lost to certainty, feeding on the dark, abundant, through rocks and moon clay, i need not to love the woman i love, would break from beauty, before i might break, but never, neither; intravening on dreams, weary of both and more and on, i will be what i am, awake, in cells of past and future, where the woman I love, loves.

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U-Turn; Gia; Traffic; Spun; Party Monster; Lost and Delerious; Dolores Claiborne; Exorcist; Requiem For a Dream; Kill Bill; Layer Cake; Boys Don't Cry; Sugar; Saving Grace; Bridges of Madison County; Basic Instinct; The Client; Goodfellas; Blow; Femme Fatale; Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind; What Dreams May Come;

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A Million Little Pieces; My Friend Leonard; Demons & Angels; Da Vinci's Code; Celestine Prophecies; Stone Butch Blues; Claire's Head; The Rules of Engagement; Already Dead: A California Gothic; A Fractured Mind; End of Story; Visiting Hours; Delicious; The Vintage Book of Contemporary American Poetry; Servants of Twilight

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My Blog

"Skin 3"

The night we metwas the first night I stopped making comparisonsleft the ghost of an ex-lovertap-tap-tapping on the windowas if a sheet of glass was enough to saynoyou can't come in tonightwe left the...
Posted by amber on Tue, 26 Dec 2006 11:31:00 PST

excerpt 1

"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully...
Posted by amber on Tue, 26 Dec 2006 11:13:00 PST

Thought Lines

you called them your thought linesthose little wrinkles that ran across your foreheadwhen you were deep in thoughtand i thought you should knowwhen you're sleepingthere are no trenchesrunning across y...
Posted by amber on Sun, 24 Dec 2006 12:08:00 PST

As June Walked Toward Me..

...As June walked towards me from the darkness of the garden into the light of the door, I saw for the first time the most beautiful woman on earth. A startling white face, burning dark eyes, a face s...
Posted by amber on Thu, 21 Dec 2006 09:14:00 PST

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Sheets are firmlyWrapped aroundHer bodyNestledIn wantingShe looksAppealingShe isIn waitingFor meShe wantsTo be touchedShe needsTo be wrestledWildlyHer body languageSpeaks constantlyFor me to touchFor ...
Posted by amber on Sat, 11 Nov 2006 02:18:00 PST

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Your warm moist beadsroll down my chest, enticeme to dive deeperinto you.Parched, the temptationOf unbridled taste ofcrushed lavender scent oozing fromyour throbbing skinfills me with a deafening awea...
Posted by amber on Sun, 05 Nov 2006 04:32:00 PST

-<3-

I'm really sorry - I am just in such a cheesy mood.   I am drunk-blogging. Oh god. It's like one step lower than drunk-dialing my mom from New Orleans.   I'm still cool........................
Posted by amber on Sun, 05 Nov 2006 04:25:00 PST

'quoted'

"I can feel my heart beating and I can feel the weight of my life beginning to drop.... and I now realize why dawn is called mourning." James Frey "In time, however, I came to understand that one can ...
Posted by amber on Sun, 05 Nov 2006 03:43:00 PST

Tantric

Lights are dim, the aroma Of the incense fills the room Roll the curtains, welcome inside Sandy outsides, lusty dune Slip my veil off, as our eyes lock Presence of electric thoughts Bashful motives, s...
Posted by amber on Sun, 29 Oct 2006 12:27:00 PST

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Unlike my trepidation,it came swiftly - without warning,malice,a forethought...It left me blindsided momentarily...I caught my breath. I was never one to question you,I needed to believe in,give ...
Posted by amber on Tue, 24 Oct 2006 02:48:00 PST