Friends new and old. Friends I haven't seen in a long time.
Our Love Story……………. It was the beginning of the school year, a new beginning for me. I had to forget about my past, erase every single memory. I wasn’t looking for love, but for some reason the god above, gave me something I had only dreamt of. He gave me you. A friend brought you to me. I not knowing that you would be, someone who’d take my breathe away, that very first day. I was so shy I must say, so that friend led you my way. When we were finally together, I never imagined we’d last forever, but as our love grew and days passed by, my heart was filled with happiness cause you were my guy. We got so close, our love grew so strong, when we were together, it seemed nothing could go wrong. Then just when we were as happy as could be, a little boy began growing inside of me. The love we both shared so deeply, got tough and too hard so suddenly, But we stuck together and had the most beautiful baby. The first time we both heard his cries, brought tears of love and joy to our eyes. I’ll never forget how it felt so warm as you held the both of us in your arms. I thought from that day on, we’d be happy. Together as one, we were a family. Then slowly as each day passed, I started feeling that you didn’t want this to last. I had too many questions, too much I had asked. Then you were gone, you left me so fast. I didn’t realize what I had till you were gone. I kept wondering what it was I did wrong. I had been loving you for so long, I thought that nothing could stop us from moving on. I was missing you and needing you so, so much that I wasn’t watching our son grow. I was going out too much, I began hating you. I couldn’t believe the shit you were putting me through. It got too hard, what was I supposed do? So I found someone new. His heart I can never hold, though he keeps me warm when I get cold. I just need his comfort, you’re all I think of. He’s just a friend, someone I will never love. Then I saw you with a new “HONEY.†My heart started skipping and my stomach felt funny. I thought I couldn’t live any more, there was nothing else to live for. But you said, she’s just your friend that none of your love, to her, you send. There’s something I see it in your eyes. I hear it. She means more to you, you’re just telling me lies. Why are we doing this to each other, though in our hearts, we love one another? When I see you, I long for your kiss. Your lips against mine, that’s what I miss. Now you’re leaving, moving far away and I know I’ll be missing you every day. I love you so much. What can I say? Please don’t leave, come with me, please stay. But I know that you must go, far from me, that’s good I know. Maybe when you’re gone, you’ll miss me cause I know, I’ll be missing you. I know you won’t forget about Bee-Jay. You’ll be missing him more and more each day. Just please, don’t forget about me, whether or not our love was meant to be. Only time can heal my heart. It hurts to know, you’re happier now that we’re apart. Will you start missing me eventually? Will we have another chance, maybe? I will just have to wait and see, but just remember that if we weren’t meant to be, I won’t have to wait forever.~July 1999 ~ ~ ~ I didn’t have to wait too long before I started to see that our separation was wrong and you still wanted me. But I was afraid to love you once again, so I acted as though you wanted to be just friends. I asked you many times before, to give me one more try. I thought that if I weren’t with you, I’d be living a lie. You wouldn’t answer me, or give me a sign, so I held on to someone who wanted to be mine. In my heart, he was no more than a friend and I knew that someday this lie would have to end. But how could I let go, I was afraid to be alone. I didn’t want to, until I was sure you’d come back home. Then you showed that you wanted me again. I’d cry when I read the messages you would send. Still afraid, I took the chance and went to see you. When I saw your face again, I didn’t know what to do. That night I spent back in your embrace, brought joy to my heart and a smile on my face. The same love that left me with a broken heart, came back to give us a fresh new start. Together again, it was you and I, but now it’s harder. The more we have to try. Even if I’m holding you and you are holding me, it’s hard for us to forget the memories. Your past frightens me, mine, it make you mad, but we must remember, It doesn’t matter what we once had. Now we have each other, to love, hold, and kiss. There is nothing in the world better than this. It’s makes me so happy to be with you. It’s like god heard my wish and made all my dreams come true. Sometimes I sit and wonder why, why we were stupid and said good-bye. Our love is special, it keeps us strong. Us being apart, would never last long. I try to show how much I love you with all my heart that no matter what we go through, nothing can take us apart. Here we are in each other’s arms holding the other tight And I know, nothing ever felt so right. I will love you for the rest of my life. I can’t wait til the day we become husband and wife. Together, hand in hand, we will walk down the road, Sharing our love until we grow old. Our love I will cherish for the rest of our days.Jeane and David…..together…..always.~November 1999