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Hmm... where to start. - my names Alyssa.- AKA pickle girl. -i live in floral park. -my friends are my life -i suck at spelling -i lie -i tell the truth, just like everyone else in the world. -i over think things a lot -i hate drama yet i am surrounded by it -im loved and im hated -im a bitch and im nice -im in love and im happy about it -i listen to everything -i hate labels -im sarcastic -I'm good with giving advise -i have an attitude with my parents every day -i smoke -i drink -im straight -i don't care what other people think of me (most of the time...) -im easy to talk to -i get depressed easily -im easygoing -i love moving around and seeing new things -i love meeting new people-anything else you want to know -message me comment me add meif you add me talk to me or you get deletedok well so far my life has had a pretty rocky start i have finally started to change and become what i actually feel is right. lately i have been realizing a lot of my mistakes. and regretting them as people usually do. i was immature and stupid and didn't know what i wanted in life. but know i finally feel like i have changed. im done with all this bullshit and drama that life throws at people im done with it all. its worthless and just a waste of time. its immature teen BS that know one needs. people are just throwing out drama to have something entertaining go on in there life. and no one cares anymore who they bring down with them life is a game you have to play. weather you play it by the rules is ur decision. im sick of hearing " o ppl say this " or "she did that" or any other crap that's flying around my town now a days. everyone has enough on there plate now a days no one needs to hear all this other bullshit on top of it all..... im done lying im done with drama im just staying out of it. i have more important shit to deal with in my life now its all getting way out of hand and UN-necessary.SOMETHING I WROTESometimes life gets harder and harder You eventually have to plan what you feel is right Learning to do whats right and whats wrong Its get more and more complicated as your life progresses Overcoming all addictions all problems Nothing can help you through Only yourself Advise from friends is only worth listening to If you know you will follow it. Your mind leads itself to do as it wants. You follow your owns morals and your own pride. Nothings going to change your mind Unless you apply yourself to do so Life is only as hard as you make it to be Friends can only be as close as you let them They want to know everything about you But are you going to sit there and trust them with it? Trust can always be found but... Apparently it can never be rebuilt. All your regrets hit you hard As if getting shot in the chest Everything from past memories all come back in a matter of time It is then you have to learn to deal with it. Learn to take every consequence. Every tear Every broken heart Every breath that pains you. You must do nothing but fix all your mistakes You try your hardest to change. To repair everything And still what happens?..... You are labeled as a lire.. A cheeter… All the things you know yourself not to be true. After everything, all you ever want to become Is someone that can be trusted. Someone that can make others happy. Even when you cant do so yourself. Just Knowing you put someones day onto a better track, but No one can trust you to do so. No one that will come to you for anything And all you did was change now to wait for it to all happen…..<3