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Multiple Personalities

When I was younger I thought I might have multiple personalities or at the very least I was highly disassociative.The anxiety and depression have been more and more oppressive this winter. Yesterday a...
Posted by on Wed, 21 Jan 2009 13:11:00 GMT

covered up by the boredom we've been trying to hide

it'll seem more like a songand less like its mathwhen you pull on my hair and bite me like thatThings are very boring in Montana.I wish there was something to report.I wake up. Shower. Do 'the work'. ...
Posted by on Mon, 12 Jan 2009 00:37:00 GMT

Poems from 2008

Theres alot here, pretty much all of it that I am going to post now is from one notebook, in no particular order. Enjoy. I did.Do not fight the noise but be mindfulof what noise you tune in onall the ...
Posted by on Mon, 01 Dec 2008 07:36:00 GMT

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I feel very grateful that I am learning how to properly relate with myself.
Posted by on Wed, 19 Nov 2008 01:44:00 GMT

personal advice

I was thinking of something I wanted to write and suddenly got an image in my head that seems to fit perfectly with it. Once, when Ruthie, Eli, and Myself were in the MCC working at the organic farm, ...
Posted by on Fri, 07 Nov 2008 17:19:00 GMT

Omega Pics

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Posted by on Wed, 29 Oct 2008 14:25:00 GMT

Conversations with God

J, what am I deleting?your only deleting yourself.I'm stoned and uncomfortableI have eraser burns in my eyes.Nothing Real can be attacked.Why do I use capital letters?Because the ego has nothing bette...
Posted by on Wed, 29 Oct 2008 00:56:00 GMT

lack

About a month ago while talking on the phone with my mom, I got inexplicably angry with her over the most ridiculous thing. I kept on saying, your not listening to me, even though I knew her idea made...
Posted by on Tue, 21 Oct 2008 15:45:00 GMT

why forgive?

there is so much baggage in each of our heartsI went to the city yesterday and spent the night with Michelle in New Jersey since I couldn't find a hostel that would take me without an I.D.and in gener...
Posted by on Wed, 15 Oct 2008 23:41:00 GMT

synchron-city

Everyday, more and more, I feel as if something is happening in me that defies all convenient rational explanation.And its like one long list of synchronistic events, that always seem to come together...
Posted by on Tue, 14 Oct 2008 01:05:00 GMT