~scientific equation to the universe:every action in the the universe creates an equal and opposing reaction....so if what was done to me is monstrous am i therefore a monster...and yet would i be this exact monster without the monstrosity i have faced in years past being as a monster in a family of angels am i not the protector expendable not to them but myself a bullet catcher the 'dysfunctional one' not to them but the world the one who hits the cop the psychotic kid who stabbed the jerk who called his babysister a slut the one who gets walked on not by his family but the world for his family being a monster do i have right to feel emotions..yes..and i do...show them...yes...and i do...willing to run to the location if my family is in need...i am a monster but the world doesnt see it until they push me then i am a psycho then too many people are dead~