nataliee

hello, my name is natalie, and i rather do love leah; no-one or nothing can make me change my mind on that. my mind works in a very simple way most of the times, but certain things make me turn complicated. sometimes, i'm a hopeless romantic.. i'm scared of people, and try my best to avoid the ones that could possibly hurt me in anyway. sometimes i am reclusive, other times i'm desperately trying to make plans. i tend to force myself into a bubble of happiness, which could easily be pierced by someone else. i think for other people; not for myself. i've changed so much over the past three years or so. i don't reveal anything about what's happened to me in the past, because to be fair, that's where it belongs. what matters to me, is what is happening now, not then. and who knows what the future holds? i love the noise that the rain makes against the windows, or when you're inside a tent you can watch it hit off the roof and listen at the same time. i love thunderstorms, and power-cuts which sometimes follow. i love it how, whenever you listen to certain songs you can relate precisely to the lyrics. i love it how whenever i'm out for a walk with someone, we can walk for ages without stopping and just take in the scenery around us. i love waking up in a dark room with the television on mute. i also love waking up on the floor to find that someone has adjusted the duvet so that you're covered. i love it how fizzy juice makes me hyper. i love it how people will sometimes do anything for you. i love it how the weirdest and yet most simple things get into the modern art museum. i love it how people i don't even know, and would've expected to be mean, can be nice to me in class and compliment me. i find it amusing how old people only talk about the weather. i love it when people give me cute gestures, drawings and notes. i love it when people give me flowers; stolen flowers are more interesting. i love it how old friends sometimes wish me back. i love it how some people talk of someone being made just for them, and how there's no changing that. i'd love for that to be the case. i love it how scary scary movies really are. i'm not afraid of catepillars but i'm afraid of losing you.
right now, there is one person in the world that means the most to me out of everyone and everything. that person is leah. no-one or nothing is ever going to change the way i feel about her. she's the most amazing person i've ever met, and is quite frankly the most amazing person in the whole wide world- and i know that for a fact. leah says the cutest things, and is just really super cute in general.. it's like wow. i'm really thankful that she takes time out from other things to come and see me at the weekend or whatever, it's so awesome, and she always makes my day. callander park with her is always so nice. i couldn't think of a better person to spend the day with. i would say she means the world to me, but she means so much more to me than just that. she is everything to me. i can't live without leah, i really, honestly can't. i constantly need her, and it's maybe extremely pathetic but i can't actually help it. she makes everything awesome and amazing, like, so much you wouldn't believe. she's forever making my day, whenever i get the chance to see her, and only seconds after she leaves i miss her again. i love her cuddles, they're so nice and i could cuddle her forever and never ever ever get bored. i can trust leah with any piece of information and not have to worry about it being passed round. i would do anything for her, she only needs to ask me if she ever needs anything. i have known leah for around six or seven months now, but i feel as though i've know her since like, forever. i love her with all my heart then lots and lots more. i love her to the moon pluto and back (pluto is further away than the moon, and is the most furthest away planet, fyi.) infact, i love her more than that. unexplainable amounts really, and leah doesn't actually realize how much i love her, i don't know whether it's because i maybe don't express it or not, but i wish she would know this. i really care for her: when she's down, i'm down, and i'll try my hardest to make her feel better, but sometimes it doesn't work, and sometimes i'm left with something i can't possibly manage or deal with, but i still try. i really feel dedicated to her. i just want her to understand exactly how much she means to me but it's way too complex. i really want this to last forever, and if i ever lost her, i would completely give up with everything. i want her to know that i wouldn't change a single thing with how things currently are and i hope things never change, and i realize that so far, i've made a lot of mistakes, but leah is someone that i can't afford to lose. ♥