"None of me is original. I am the combined efforts of everyone I've ever known." -- Invisible Monsters
body modification. sobriety. cockfights. sex with someone that deserves it (found him, keeping him, and loving every moment)-- Mattie the Chicken (lovelovelove). inspirational music that comes from the soul and not the radio. left handed phenomena. SHRIMP! vanilla soy latte extra shot. featherbeds. religion collectables. symmetry. sharpies. fwiens. football. CHEESE! Pittsburgh PA. cocky attitudes. sleeves. massive attack. ugly shoes. no-show-socks. dickies. sidekicks. movados. MY DUDES. snot-nosed hair products. wooden african sculptures. asian rice paper. pythons. bombs. roosters. cadavers. pearls. tomatoes. green tea. road trips. physical deformities. not-so-green eyes. onyx. hummus. football. dead birds. right handed white gloves. hand turkeys. mixed cds. throwback fashion. reading AIM "away messages." organization. bats. bookcases. never losing faith in God. fashion core. numbers. leashes. pedicures. all things deftones. restitution. liver disease. living my fucking life.
I'd like to meet:
I have long since come to believe that people never mean half of what they say, and that it is best to disregard their talk and judge only their actions.
Dorothy Day (1897 - 1980), The Long Loneliness, 1952
"There were thousands of days as we travelled down North Road and I remember my uncle on his last day, and how I would kill to shake his hand again. And on goes the battle of years upon years, my father's eyes bring me to solace, and his look of focus I try to instill. As my mother reads as an example of strength beyond strength, and with her I became me. There are two girls with whom I've known longer than anyone, and my debt to them is lifetime. The gathering of boys I rely on, know exactly who they are and I will build their protection with bloody hands. Some were dealt knuckles and some delivered kisses but intially my heart was in the right place. There are times when being engulfed by mountains are the only signs of safety I know. And I realize I think this way out of neglection and at the exact thought I reclaim those days of scenery. There are places that most of us will never forget. Those are the things I wanted to speak of. Those are the things that I dream about. Those are the things that I will definitely die with."
"... the greatest reminder is not anyone outside you, but the voice within you... You are not discovering yourself, but creating yourself anew. Seek, therefore, not to find out WHO YOU ARE, seek to determine WHO YOU WANT TO BE."
Conversations with God, Book 1
It's no shameful secret that folks these days check their MySpace accounts more than they check their e-mail (or even their voicemail). That being so, this form of communication is viable. The internet has enabled me to create an honest reflection of my personality-- what you see is what you get. Therefore, I'm eager to keep contact with those people that have chosen to include me in their lives (past and present). Let the networking begin.
However, I do deserve a little privacy in my life and will not approve friendship requests from anyone that I do not know. If you would like to befriend NicoleLee Suicide, please stop in your tracks. This profile is not synonymous with that alias, nor will it ever be.
Serve This Royalty Right.
We Kick Crowns, Kings, and Adidas.
Music:
I miss getting stoned and driving around whatever interstate I can quickly jump on to ease out with hip hop.
I've spent entirely too much time trying to find that certain musical genre that completely moves me, that makes me feel something so intense that I have seizures just thinking about it. Turned out, I ended up having a seizure from thinking too hard.
I probably sound like my parents, but today's music ain't got shit on say... what it was about a decade ago. Seriously, RAGE and WUTANG CLAN in ONE SHOW. We don't have shit like that anymore. Instead the closest collabo we've had was Jay-Z and those fucking asshole faggots in Linkin Park destroying Hov's shit. Give me a break.
I'm sticking to the same 5 CDs in rotation for the rest of my life.
However, my first concert was Michael Jackson in '88 and I am fucking proud of it.
Movies:
True Romance. Batman Begins. 25th Hour.
Television:
Roseanne. Nip/Tuck. Heroes. Six Feet Under. American Football.
Books:
invisible monsters. CWG. to kill a mocking bird. choke. girl, interrupted. fight club. of mice and men. haunted (GUTS, mostly). as i lay dying. night. animal farm.
Heroes:
Batman. Naomi Judd. Christopher Reeve (not Superman). Sees. The Never Rest.
