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have fun exploring the infinite abyss*that is life

you think you know, but you have no idea.

About Me

"...and if i love you with no reference to occassion, now would you run away, or would that be okay?"
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"how near, how far, how lost they are"
"i'm in love with illusions, so saw me in half, i'm in love with tricks so pull another rabbit out of your hat."
i write words on my inner arm, where it's most pale on my outward body that are messages to the world, but only i can read them.
a self summary:
let's fix this. well, that's hard to fix something that is broken into so many pieces. right? you know i'm right.
right now, at this moment, even though some of it will change in an hour, i love corin tucker, vinyl, feminism, my cat, deep red wine (yeah but i like cheap polish vodka, too), travelling the world (alone or with someone, it doesn't matter, i'll go no matter what), humanities on forward thinking topics, or learning about the past. i also make art. and clean!
"it's hard to believe your prophets, when they're asking you to CHANGE THINGS, but with their suspect lives we LOOK THE OTHER WAY."
You Are a Dreaming Soul
Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult
You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.
Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul What Kind of Soul Are You?
what I'm doing with my life:
studio art OR human rights (mainly gender focused) major (maybe both?!) at a junior college in san diego, with plans to transfer to mills women's college in oakland, california in spring of 2007.
I'm really good at:
well it's obviously not this.
in reality, i'm a very good writer (and editor), i try to sing (but only alone or when i feel like i'm alone if people are around), thinking forwardly, analyzing and taking things apart in my mind, loving, and sometimes being an artist (like with paint and brushes).
The first thing(s) people usually notice about me:
my eyes, i'm assuming. or, to be more general, my face. or even, MOST LIKELY, the color I'm wearing.
My favorite books, movies, music, and foods are:
the book called cunt by inga muscio. anything by david sedaris (he makes me laugh so). the book called
cigarettes and alcohol. (not the movie that sounds familiar, but the actual vices - 1)cigarettes and 2) alcohol.
loud, loud, loud beautiful music.
sushi and italian food.
The SIX things I could never do without:
books, music, friends, love, knowledge, and somewhere soft to sleep at night.
I spend a lot of time thinking about:
There is no one in the world.
On a typical Friday night I am:
finding something interesting to do, including, but not limited to: live music, alcohol, being around people, reading, dancing, talking, sleeping, art.
Something I'm trying to teach myself:
to have will in love.
THE END.
Advanced Global Personality Test Results #1
Extraversion |||||||||||| 46%
Stability |||||| 30%
Orderliness |||||| 30%
Accommodation |||||||||||||| 56%
Interdependence |||||||||||||||| 63%
Intellectual |||||||||| 36%
Mystical |||||||||||| 50%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Religious || 10%
Hedonism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Materialism |||||| 30%
Narcissism |||||||||| 36%
Adventurousness |||||||||||| 43%
Work ethic |||| 16%
Self absorbed |||||||||||||||| 63%
Conflict seeking |||||| 23%
Need to dominate |||||| 30%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Avoidant |||||| 23%
Anti-authority |||||||||||| 50%
Wealth |||| 16%
Dependency |||||||||||| 50%
Change averse |||||| 30%
Cautiousness |||||||||||| 50%
Individuality |||||| 30%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Peter pan complex |||||| 30%
Physical security |||||||||||||||| 63%
Physical Fitness |||| 17%
Histrionic |||||||||||| 50%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 63%
Vanity |||||||||||| 43%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Female cliche |||||||||||||||| 63% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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Advanced Global Personality Test Results #2
Extraversion |||||||||||| 46%
Stability |||||| 30%
Orderliness |||||||||| 33%
Accommodation |||||||||||| 50%
Interdependence |||||||||||||||| 63%
Intellectual |||||||||||| 43%
Mystical |||||||||||||||| 63%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Religious || 10%
Hedonism |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Materialism |||||| 30%
Narcissism |||||||||||| 43%
Adventurousness |||||||||||| 50%
Work ethic |||||||||| 36%
Self absorbed |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Conflict seeking |||||| 23%
Need to dominate |||||||||||||||| 70%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Avoidant |||||| 30%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 63%
Wealth |||||| 23%
Dependency |||||||||||| 50%
Change averse |||||||||||| 43%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Individuality |||||| 30%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Peter pan complex |||| 16%
Physical security |||||||||||| 50%
Physical Fitness |||||| 30%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 70%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Vanity |||||||||||| 43%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Female cliche |||||||||||||||| 70% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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My Interests

love, knowledge, peace, music, and art.

taking relaxing baths with dead sea salts, oils, and bubbles and relaxing lighting with a silly book in hand and my favorite stool next to the tub holding all my most trusted bath buddies... not getting injured anymore.... sleeping. a lot... hookah lounging.... coffee housing.... being an insomniac... avoiding rumor spreading immature people... finding attractive men to spend nights with... going to lunch with people.... shopping in target with my girl friends... plur...

being a compassionate, understanding, and loving human being who is genuine.

being the type of person i would want the world to be filled up with in the future.

"yeah, babe, i know i make about twice the money you make, and, of course, i'm never called a stupid whore or a fake and i don't structure my life around the fear of murder dismemberment or rape but i hardly see how that has to do with our relationship...." (le tigre, gone b4 yr home).

Your love is...
Your name is...
Your kiss is... mysterious
Your hugs are... gentle
Your eyes... twinkle in the moonlight
Your touch is... heart warming
Your smell is... exotic
Your smile is... entrancing
Your love is... one of a kind

I'd like to meet:

the best people in the world that are here and ever were here. there's no sense in waiting, but i'm gonna.

john lennon, your ex lovers, kathleen hanna, corin tucker, and all their families.

people who believe in P.L.U.R.

& people who believe that:

Music:

jenny lewis. le tigre. velvet underground. the faint. joy division. sleater-kinney. sonic youth. spoon. azure ray. franz ferdinand. the strokes. the bravery. whispertown2000. richard cheese. sneaker pimps. mike runion. belle & sebastian. radiohead. morrissey. bright eyes the doors. björk. m i a. bloc party. iron & wine. franz ferdinand. m ward. joy division. ben folds. good life. ben kweller. mogwai. desaparecidos. the mars volta. built to spill. smashing pumpkins.

i also listen to country music when i feel sad. it makes me feel better, and i can always sing along because it's what i grew up on. before i went to school and found out that country music "wasn't cool" and i was too stuck up to listen to it anymore. well i'm cool enough now.

You are The Hierophant

Divine Wisdom. Manifestation. Explanation. Teaching.

All things relating to education, patience, help from superiors.The Hierophant is often considered to be a Guardian Angel.

The Hierophant's purpose is to bring the spiritual down to Earth. Where the High Priestess between her two pillars deals with realms beyond this Earth, the Hierophant (or High Priest) deals with worldly problems. He is well suited to do this because he strives to create harmony and peace in the midst of a crisis. The Hierophant's only problem is that he can be stubborn and hidebound. At his best, he is wise and soothing, at his worst, he is an unbending traditionalist.

What Tarot Card are You?

Movies:

magdalene sisters, bound, pulp fiction, garden state, say anything, dirty dancing, chitty chitty bang bang, hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy, walk the line, anything with audrey hepburn, sin city, better than chocolate.

Television:

television is bad for you.
dont do it.
"Woman is the nigger of the world, Yes she is...think about it. Woman is the nigger of the world, Think about it...do something about it.We make her paint her face and dance, If she won't be a slave, we say that she don't love us, If she's real, we say she's trying to be a man While putting her down we pretend that she's above us,Woman is the nigger of the world, Yes she is If you don't believe me, Take a look at the one you're with Woman is the slave of the slaves Ah yeh...better scream about it.We make her bear and raise our children, And then we leave her flat for being a fat old mother hen We tell her home is the only place she should be, Then we complain that she's too unworldly to be our friend.Woman is the nigger of the world, Yes she is. If you don't believe me, take a look at the one you're with. Woman is the slave to the slaves Yeh(think about it)We insult her every day on TV And wonder why she has no guts or confidence When she's young we kill her will to be free, While telling her not to be so smart we put her down for being so dumb.Woman is the nigger of the world Yes she is If you don't believe me, take a look at the one you're with. Woman is the slave to the slaves. Yes she is, If you don't believe me, you better scream about it.We make her paint her face and dance..." (john lennon)

Books:

I used to read a lot. but something happened a year ago, or so, and i dont have the patience for it usually. I'm working on that though. for example, i've been using scum manifesto by valerie solanas as my mouse pad for the past couple days. Working on it. Yeah.

starting reading Naked by David Solaris (09/01/2006)

Heroes:

"NEVER BE GUIDED BY FEAR"

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My Blog

Fading Away

i transcribed the lyrics from this song by mostly sunny called fading away. I feel like right now, this song is talking to some of us. I think that you no longer love meit feelslike you no longer care...
Posted by i wear my sunglasses at night on Wed, 10 Jan 2007 10:57:00 PST

top 10 signs you are a fundamentalist christian...

If this offends you, I apoligize, but this is what I see, too:Top Ten Signs You're a Fundamentalist Christian...10 - You vigorously deny the existence of thousands of gods claimed by other religions, ...
Posted by i wear my sunglasses at night on Wed, 10 Jan 2007 01:58:00 PST

i slept from 8 pm to 8 am.

last night. i woke up around 1:50 am and i think i thought i was rested. but i felt it was too much energy to expel to wake up then... and i periodically woke up between that time and 8. finally deci...
Posted by i wear my sunglasses at night on Thu, 26 Oct 2006 08:33:00 PST

true or false

True or False?Appearance:I'm short: trueI have many scars: trueI tan easily: trueI burn easily: falseI wish my hair was a different color: is truthI have friends who have never seen my natural hair co...
Posted by i wear my sunglasses at night on Mon, 23 Oct 2006 07:38:00 PST

my last post

is the explanation of why it's gonna take forever for me to move out of my mother's living space.
Posted by i wear my sunglasses at night on Thu, 17 Aug 2006 12:41:00 PST

decisions, decisions....

i recieved a paycheck yesterday. it is rather small and meager, i have billz to pay, but it is so meager that i wonder whether i should pay billz or go use it in a bad way. like use it for buying musi...
Posted by i wear my sunglasses at night on Thu, 17 Aug 2006 12:37:00 PST

watching the fire as we grow.

i had a dream lastnight. it ended with me and a whole bunch of people i sort of knew, who sort of knew each other (but not well) finding ourselves somehow in poland. and then i told them where thjey s...
Posted by i wear my sunglasses at night on Mon, 31 Jul 2006 11:48:00 PST

i was going to be productive today

but the school doesnt let you take placement tests for this fall until july 10. and my mom's boss who was gonna give this cripple some work, has not been to the office yet today.... i will call again....
Posted by i wear my sunglasses at night on Thu, 29 Jun 2006 11:43:00 PST

you know what i fucking despise?

fucking bands coming to san diego only every now and then, as in never, and then showing up with some huge ass horrible band that makes the tickets go up by like $20 more than is even anywhere near re...
Posted by i wear my sunglasses at night on Wed, 21 Jun 2006 03:26:00 PST

jenny lewis show

I met Michael Runion! And Morgan Nagler!!!! (and the other members of Whispertown 2000 - Vanesa, Tod, and Colt!!) I acted so stupid. I was schocked/stunned/amazed/so happy. I was livin in a dream... h...
Posted by i wear my sunglasses at night on Sat, 04 Mar 2006 12:17:00 PST