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* ♥ Mel ♥ *

If only tonight we could sleep in a bed made of flowers, if only tonight we could fall in a deathles

About Me



|:.:|Insightul Questions You Might Not Have Been Asked Before|:.:|
|:.:|Imagination|:.:|
Did you ever have an imaginary friend?: haha lol nope
What games did you play as a child?: i wouldn't know anymore, oh my nintendo :)
What is your favourite book?: Het beest in Daisy
If you were a fairytale character, who, and why?: the little mermaid, because she searches for love and answers
What was the last dream you had, that you can remember?: something about buying stuff and i had too many things and not enough money XD
What do you think about when you are led in bed?: my girl and that i miss her so
|:.:|Reality|:.:|
Who was your best friend as a child?: Stephanie
What subjects did you like best in school?: history and english
What is your favourite TV show?: Doctor Who :)
Describe your personality in 5 words:: sarcastic, insecure, weird and ermmm can someone help me with this?
What are your goals?: i succeed in finding someone that loves me back now the work stuff and working on myself and my insecurities
How do you plan on achieving them?: searching, hoping and getting help
|:.:|Your Beliefs|:.:|
Do you believe in a higher power?: kinda
Do you consider yourself religious?: totally not
Are/were your parents religious?: no
Do you think that influenced you at all?: nope
Do you believe in aliens?: yes i do (there must be a higher life-form than us)
Fairies?: no :P
Jesus?: no again
Mermaids?: would be great if they would exist
Global Warming?: yes
Democracy?: not really, the government do what they want
|:.:|Music|:.:|
What style of music do you most often listen to?: rock, alternative, new wave
Is there any style of music you really dislike?: house, dance, rap + R&B (nowadays, because i used to like it)
What is your favourite song, currently?: The Cure - Just one kiss
Who is your favourite solo artist?: ermm Tori Amos
Favourite band?: Depeche Mode and The Cure (i can't choose)
Do you play an instrument?: nope
|:.:|Health|:.:|
Do you have any illnesses?: yeah
Have you ever been in hospital?: yes, but for minor things
Do you drink?: sometimes
Do you smoke?: not anymore
Take drugs?: sometimes, but seldom nowadays
Have you ever suffered any trauma?: not really
|:.:|Family Life|:.:|
Do you get on well with your parents?: sometimes, sometimes i don't
Are your parents together?: yes
Do you have any siblings?: nope, i'm all alone
What is "family", to you?: the people that support you through the good times and the bad
Do you ever want kids?: maybe, i can't decide that right now
Do you already have children?: nope
|:.:|Love|:.:|
Are you in a relationship?: yes i am, with a great girl :)
If yes, are you serious about this person?: very serious
If no, are you currently looking, or happy single?: after 5 months no i'm not :P
Do you need to be in a relationship to be fulfilled?: it has made me a different person, so maybe yes
Have you ever been in love?: i know what love is nowaydays
Do you still care for that person?: nope, not for the persons i just "liked"
How would you describe "love"?: something beautiful and mysterious, something that words can't really describe
Do you ever want to get married?: yes
Does anyone have feelings for you, that you don't reciprocate?: i wouldn't know
Have you ever broken someones heart?: as far as i know, no
Have you ever been heartbroken?: kinda i guess
Is love the most important thing to you?: it is
|:.:|What are your opinions on...|:.:|
Society?: society sucks
The government?: just a bunch of hypocrites
Abortion?: it's a good thing
Terrorism?: i don't really have a short opinion about that :P
Religion?: i don't believe in a god, but if other people do that's their choice
The Supernatural?: there's a lot of stuff going on that we can't understand
Science?: science is good, it can make us understand how everything works etc.
Atheism?: it's a good thing (we would have less war i guess)
The media?: can give us wrong ideas
Jazz music?: i like it :)
Divorce?: bad, too many people divorce nowadays.. just don't get married then
Third World countries?: they should get structural help
Vegetarianism?: i'm not a vegetarian, but hey if others want it's their choice
|:.:|Your Lasts|:.:|
Text message?: it was so sweet ;) and in dutch :P
IM?: MSN with my sweetheart
Person you spoke to face to face?: my mother
Person you kissed?: Joëlla ^^
Person you cuddled?: Joëlla again ;)
Time you cried?: 2 weeks ago
Movie you watched?: The Elephant Man
Song you listened to?: something i don't know on the radio
Thing you ate?: a cracker
|:.:|Personal|:.:|
Are you happy?: yes :)
What makes you sad?: that people always tend to judge me
Do you feel loved?: yes and i'm very grateful for that
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Your Taste in Music:
80's Alternative: High Influence
90's Alternative: High Influence
80's Pop: Medium Influence
80's R&B: Medium Influence
90's Pop: Medium Influence How's Your Taste in Music?
You Belong in Fall
Intelligent, introspective, and quite expressive at times...
You appreciate the changes in color, climate, and mood that fall brings
Whether you're carving wacky pumpkins or taking long drives, autumn is a favorite time of year for you What Season Are You?
You Are Surrealism
Dreamy and idealistic, you've created a world that is all your own.
It's very likely that you've either dabbled in drugs or are naturally trippy.
You are always trying to push beyond the boundaries of your culture and society.
You believe that art, love, and freedom can change the world. What Art Movement Are You?
What Your Soul Really Looks Like
You are quite expressive and thoughtful. You see the world in a way that others are blind to.
You are not a very grounded person. You prefer dreams to reality. For you, it's all about possibilities.
You believe that people see you as a bit small and insignificant. People pay more attention to you than you think.
Your near future is still unknown, and a little scary. You'll get through wild times - and you'll textually enjoy it.
For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust. Inside the Room of Your Soul
You Are 62% Indie
You're a very indie person, and admit it, you look down a little on people who strive to be normal.
You'll indulge in a little mainstream pop culture every now and then. But for you, anything not indie is a guilty pleasure! How Indie Are You?
How You Life Your Life
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down. How Do You Live Your Life?
Your Eyes Should Be Green
Your eyes reflect: Striking attractiveness and danger
What's hidden behind your eyes: A vivid inner world What Color Should Your Eyes Be?
Your 1996 Theme Song Is: Breakfast at Tiffany's by Deep Blue Something
And I said "What about Breakfast at Tiffany's?"
She said, "I think I remember the film,
And as I recall, I think, we both kinda liked it."
And I said, "Well, that's the one thing we've got." What's Your 1996 Theme Song?
Your Love Quote
Death can not stop true love, it can only delay it for a little while. What Love Quote Suits You?
Your Love Song Is
Thankyou by Dido
"And I want to thank you for giving me
The best day of my life
Oh, just to be with you is having
The best day of my life."
It's all good, as long as you're in love. What Love Song Are You?
You Are "Dizzy and Giddy"
What Japanese Smiley Are You?

Eysenck's Test Results
Extraversion (37%) moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and private.
Neuroticism (64%) moderately high which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Psychoticism (40%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense of your own individual development (martyr complex).
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Disorder Rating
Paranoid : High
Schizoid : Moderate
Schizotypal : High
Antisocial : Low
Borderline : Very High
Histrionic : High
Narcissistic : Low
Avoidant : Very High
Dependent : High
Obsessive-Compulsive : Moderate
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lyrics - Garbage Lyrics
Let the world know you're not a critical asshole.

My Interests

Wrtiting poetry, watching movies and tv, hanging with my friends, philosophy, art, music...

Faith and devotion
Our devotion follows an endless path
It lingers through the dark forests of our hearts
We’ve seen the light
Oh it’s glowing, so bright and warm
We run through the trees
To catch it and to never ever let it go
We’ll make our path clear, pave it through the darkness
Our faith will guide us
And we won’t get lost anymore in the dark
We’ll keep each other from losing our way
As long as we can hold each others hand,
We will shine for eternity

(A poem made by me)



We cling to music, to poems,
to quotes, to writing, to art
because we desperately do not want
to be alone. We want to know we aren't
going crazy & someone else out there
knows exactly how you're feeling. We want
someone to explain the things we can't.
We love everything tied up neatly, easy, simple,
& when we can't that, it scares the hell out of us.
To not know the next step, or where you're
headed, kills. Being unsure isn't in our plans.
But it’s those moments, the ones where you
risk it & step unknowingly into the future that
assures us life is larger than we'll ever know...



Unless you've lived my life,
don't judge me.
Don't think you're better then me.
Try to live one day in my shoes,
you'd fall on the first step.



to anyone who hides behind a smile,
to anyone who holds their pain inside,
to anyone who thinks they're not good enough,
to anyone who feels unworthy of love,
to anyone who ever closed the door,
closed their eyes
and locked themselves away,
you don't have to hide.



Best Friends.
You cry, i cry.
You hurt, i hurt.
You jump off a bridge...
I rent a paddleboat
& save your retarded ass.



you learn alot about people
when you listen to the songs
that mean something to them



& the best feeling in the world is knowing you have
someone you can go to when you're in a bad mood
knowing they'll make everything better.



I want something to make
me feel whole. I want something
to make me feel complete.
I want a reason to put on my
make up in the morning.
I want a reason to set 45 minutes
aside to do my hair. I want a reason
to not wear pj's all the time.
I want a reason to actually care...



This is the story of my life
And I write it everyday
And I hope you're by my side
When I'm writing the last page...



Life- 4 simple letters,
yet so complicated...
Love- 4 simple letters,
yet so confusing...
Destiny- 7 simple letters,
yet so unpredictable...
Feelings- 8 simple letters,
yet so unexplainable...
Words- 5 simple letters,
yet there aren't enough to express...
Regrets- 6 simple letters,
yet they never seem to disappear...
Silence- 7 simple letters,
yet it can be so loud...
Time- 4 simple letters,
yet there is never enough...
Sadness- 7 simple letters,
yet it lingers everywhere...
Pain- 4 simple letters,
yet it takes so long to heal...
Mistakes- 8 simple letters,
yet they can never be erased...
Beauty- 6 simple letters,
yet so hard to see...
Hope- 4 simple letters,
yet it's so unreachable...
You- 3 simple letters,
yet it means everything



Music:

Nirvana, Interpol, Madonna, The Gathering, Michael Jackson, The Cure, Depeche Mode, Tori Amos, PJ Harvey, Garbage, Spinvis, Morrissey, The Smiths, Pearl Jam, Marilyn Manson, Guano Apes, Siouxsie & the Banshees, Incubus, Placebo, Muse, Massive Attack, Nine Inch Nails, Radiohead, The Dresden Dolls, Dredg, Tears for fears, Editors, Joy Division, Smashing Pumpkins, Bush, N*E*R*D, Yann Tiersen, Silverchair...

Depeche Mode

- Depeche Mode Lyrics

Robert Smith (The Cure)

- The Cure Lyrics

Movies:

Mulholland Drive, Lost Highway, Donnie Darko, Scream, Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, Clerks, Rebel without a cause, Heathers, Empire Records, Ghost world, Back to the future, Hedwig and the angry inch, Kissing Jessica Stein, The first wives club, Lost in translation, My summer of love, Trainspotting, Der Krieger und die Kaiserin, Battle Royale, Harold and Maude, The little mermaid (yes the disney film)...


Donnie Darko


Trainspotting


Mulholland Drive


Lost Highway


Heathers


Der Krieger und die Kaiserin


Empire records


Harold and Maude

Which David Lynch movie are you?
you are: eraserhead
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Television:

ABFAB, Buffy, The X-files, One three hill, Golden girls, Saved by the bell, Carnivale, Daria, The L-word, South of nowhere, The Odyssey, Doctor Who, Torchwood, Twin Peaks

Doctor Who

Books:

Some of my favourite books: Everything is illuminated by Jonathan Safran Foer
Het beest in Daisy by Cindy Hoetmer
De Aanslag by Harry Mulisch
Fingersmith by Sarah Waters
My summer of love by Helen Cross
The little friend by Donna Tartt

Heroes:


James Dean

David Lynch

My Blog

In heaven everything is fine...

It's not news that I'm a huge David Lynch fan. That man is my hero for real. And I'm dying to see his latest movie Inland Empire.But back to my fandom :P I'm such a huge fan, because he knows how...
Posted by * ♥ Mel ♥ * on Mon, 03 Sep 2007 03:53:00 PST

Just a quote

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, wel...
Posted by * ♥ Mel ♥ * on Wed, 08 Aug 2007 02:38:00 PST

Poems again

And today some new poems again, just got some inspiration yesterday ehm night to write the first three :P Just very dramatic and with a meaning behind them...The bridges are burningI'm watch...
Posted by * ♥ Mel ♥ * on Mon, 09 Jul 2007 05:20:00 PST

Connected

Wow and finally another blog after errm a long while. Don't even know how long ago, so then it must be long. And in English for once :POn a day when the weather is like a day in the autumn (although t...
Posted by * ♥ Mel ♥ * on Fri, 06 Jul 2007 06:59:00 PST

New poems

My angelHow beautiful you are& Eyes with an indefinable colour, which one can drown inYour halo glowing like the moon,silver wings spreadYour smile that can light up a room A soul that can bring a cha...
Posted by * ♥ Mel ♥ * on Wed, 06 Jun 2007 12:11:00 PST

And I miss you - like the deserts miss the rain...

Iemand missen heeft tegenwoordig een hele andere definitie voor me gekregen. Een veel heftigere definitie. Misschien heb ik het "echte" missen nooit zo ervaren. Ik kan er niet zo goed tegen is sh...
Posted by * ♥ Mel ♥ * on Mon, 28 May 2007 08:23:00 PST

Subtle Movements

Today I remembered a song from a few years ago (to be exact a song from six years ago), by a dutch band named 16 Down. It had a strange videoclip but the song was beautiful. So I looked it up today, a...
Posted by * ♥ Mel ♥ * on Sat, 12 May 2007 08:13:00 PST

De moeite waard

Ik ben tegenwoordig weer eens serieus aan t lezen geslagen. Het gelukkige boek is: Alles is verlicht (of de originele titel Everything is illuminated) geschreven door Jonathan Safran Foer. Tot nu toe ...
Posted by * ♥ Mel ♥ * on Tue, 08 May 2007 12:47:00 PST

Don't let them bury the light

And today a new poem, not one of my best once again but it'll do... In a way it gives a pretty good perspective of my thoughts and feelings. Don't let them bury the lightThe curtains closedAll th...
Posted by * ♥ Mel ♥ * on Mon, 07 May 2007 07:53:00 PST

It's so much beauty

A poem that I made yesterday evening when I was thinking about what makes my life worth living, I mean really worth living ;) What makes it all good again when it's all bad... Emo much? lol. It's so m...
Posted by * ♥ Mel ♥ * on Mon, 16 Apr 2007 02:19:00 PST