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†Black†Roses†Fall†

If You Must Dance, Do It On Ecstasy.

About Me

HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG! (GET OVER IT YOU FUCKS!) I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman. I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights. We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time. I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room. I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me. I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again. I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear. We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one- bedroom for two men. I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me. I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman. I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman. I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male. I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men. I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that. I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual. I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn?t have to always deal with society hating me. I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind. I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love. I Take a deep breath and a good look around I Go lay alone in bed I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead I try and tell myself it'll be all right I just shouldn't think anymore tonight @----The truth that makes men free is for the most part the truth which men prefer not to hear.This Is Great..... I Cant Draw But I can Take Pictures!For The First Time In My Life Im Crying..I Wish I Could Handle This PlaceMy mother on the left and muh buddy on the right~!! I love this picture!! MyGen

My Interests

LIKES: Photography, Art, Music, Poetry, Movies, Mythology, Physchology, i like the 1800's, 80's music, corsets, platform boots, make up, goth, black, fetish, bondage, tattoos, peircings, magic, faries, Techno, Erotic Dreams, kissing!, posionious Drinks(bleach, draino, ect......), tombstones, cameras, fashion, Kitties, old cars, Manson, Black and white, Blacklights, Fire, Lighters, Flashing lights, Neon lights, Dancing, Parties, Friends, Girls (guys are cute but I dont date them), Hair color and EYES AND NECKS!!!!!, Lether, Beautiful girls who you can look at and tell the are a work of art!, Whips and chains,Peoples secrets, sex, Biting, Razors, Blood, Chokers and bracelts, Need for Speed (all of them), Racing, Fast CARS, Nice Cars, Everyone who can actually drive a car, Touching, Playing games! *wink*, RAin, temptations and seductions, the woods and night, Candy, Night Of The Living Dead, Horror Movies, Old Horror Movies, much much much much much more that you cant handle right now..! TAlk to me later.DISLIKES: Shallow Minded, homophobes, sterotypes,people who judge others, LIERS, FAKES,People who are really beautiful and then act like assholes. People who put them selves down, people who animal test, school, society today, disloyal people, distrustful people, (people who dont shower at lease once a day!)===I can stand them Im just into cleanness....lol, ummm what else? Athority,heat, bright places, sitting in the same spot tooo long or standing, People who cut for attention (if your gonna do it, dont show it off like its a fucking tattoo!), Strict people, stalkers, Men who act like boys, snobs, preps, slow people (move it or loose it!), Bad Horror movies, Laws, Cops, People who have no sense of humor(but dont take it to far), Being board, and im sure alot more, you just caught me on a good day. ;DAlex And I.Brianna And I!


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I'd like to meet:

Holly Marie CombsAlyssa MilanoJennifer TillyGina GershonFairuza BalkChristina RicciKatharine IsabelleCristina ScabbiaAmy LeeKathleen MoningPauley PerretteSophia BushPinkDrew BarrymoreDanielle HarrisMacaulay CulkinJimmi SimpsonVille ValoAnd So Im Still Here Heartless...This is me and my sister Sarah.

Music:



3eek, 30 Seconds to Mars, 36 Crazyfists, 69 eyes, A.F.I, After Forever, Alice in Chains, Alice Cooper, Amber, Azzido Da Bass, Atreyu, Avanged Sevenfold, Alanis Morissett, ACDC, AfterWorld, Asia, As I lay Dieing, ABK, Amber, Angel Dust, Adema, Arch Enemy, Ablaze my sorrow, Black Sabbath, Blondie, Bjork, Blank Theory, BB King, Bett Middler, Blaze Ya Dead Hommie, Blue Oyster Cult, Billy Idol, Beethoven, Bach, Breaking Benjamin, Children of Bodom, Combichrist, Corey Hart, Cher, Chimaira, Coal Chamber, Cyphilis, The Cranberries, Cold, Criss Angel, Cradel of Filth, Captin Jack, Dark Funeral, David Bowie, Deftones, Def Leppard, Deep Blue Something, Deep Purple, DJ Scandy, Dead or Alive, Debris, Darude, Dry Cell, Draft punk, DevilDriver, Dark New Day, DMX, Decay, Dream Child, Deicide, Dynabyte, Daddy Yankee, Dawn, Dismember, Disturbed, Drowning Pool, Eighteen Visions, Evanesance, Endless Hallway, Fear Factory, Fiona Apple, Felix Da Housecat, Flaw, From Autum to Ashes, Fuel, Godhead, Genesis, Guns~N~Roses, Hatebreed, HIM, HIMSA, Incubus, INXS, ICP, Icon of Coil, ILL Nino, In Flames, Janes Addiction, Joan Jett, Jewel, Jan Driver, Killswitch Engage, Kottonmouth Kings, KidneyThieves, Korn, Kansas, Lamb Of God, Ludacris, Led Zepplin, Lily Chou-Chou, Love Spirit Love, Lucana Coil, Marilyn Manson, Metallica, My Chemical Romance, Missy Eliot, Mind Riot, Motley Crue, Morbid Angel, Mindless Self Indulgence, My Dying Bride, Meredith Brooks, Mudvayne, Mr. Bungle, Mushroomhead, Madonna, Murderdolls, Mastodon, Nirvana, Nine Inch Nails, No Address, NightWish, Ozzy, Orgy, OverCast, One Minute Silence, Otep, O-Zone, Papa Roach, Panic At The Disco, Pat Benator, Pink Spiders, Placebo, Pink Floyd, Panzer AG, Pantera, PussyCat Dolls, Prodigy, P.O.D, Pentagram, Poison, Powerman 500, Queen, Quiet Riot, Quorthon, Razor, Rolling Stones, Rage Against the machine, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Rage Against. Rammstine, Rick Ross, Realm, Rebelliuim, Rancid, Rob Zombie, Sex Pistols, Steve Miller Band, Sworen Enemy, Sean Paul, Strapping Young Lad, Soul Asylum, Sepultra, Schwarz Stein, Styx, Staind, Seether, Sevendust, Skinny Puppy, Shadows Fall, Slipknot, Smile Empty Soul, Spice Girls, Static X, Skinny Puppy Smashing Pumpkins, System Of A down, Snoop Dog, Stone Sour, Superjoint Ritual, SwitchBlade Symphony, Sweet, Tapping the Vein, Type-o-negative, Tricky, The Cult, The Eagles, The Police, The Cars, The Used (are ok) The Beatles, The Blank Theory, The Birthday Party, The Birthday Massacre, The Pack, Teriyaki Boyz, Theature of Tradgey, Twizited, The Game, The killers, TATU, This mortal Coil, Tool, Veruca Salt, White Zombie, Warron Zevon, Watchtower, Warhead, Warrior Soul, Zonata, Pretty much anything that Has a good beat.. but I dont like alot of Country or blues/Jazz.

Movies:

An American Warewolf in london (and paris), Bad Moon, Bound, Carie 1-2, Corpse Bride, Creep Show 1-2, Child's Play (all of them!), Dawn of the Dead, Dolly Dearist, Dracula 2000, Dont be A Menace, Event Horizon, Euro Trip, From Dusk to Dawn, Freddy VS Jason, Final Destination 1-2, Ginger Snaps 1-2-3, God Send, Girl,Intrupted, Hook, Hellraiser (all of them!) House of a 1000 Corpses, House 1-2, Hocus Pocus, Hide and Seek, Halloween 1-2-4-5-6 Interview with a Vampire, It, James and The Giant Peach, Little Nicky, Labranth, Mikey, Mr. and Mrs. Smith, Nightmare on Elm Street (all of them!) Night of the living dead (old version and the rest of them!) Nos Feratu, Party Monster, Pet Cemetary 1-2, Prey For Rock And Roll, Queen of the Dammed, Resident Evil 1-2, Room 6, Shawn of the Dead, Seed Of chucky, Scary movie 1-2-3, Saw 1-2, SLC Punks, Thirteen, The Fast And The Furious 1,2,3, The Rocky Horror Picture Show, The Bride of chucky, The Shining, Tankgirl, The Devils Rejects, Twister, The Excorsist (sp), Tales From the Crypt (Demon Night), The Island, The Nightmare Before Christmas, The Craft, The Tommyknockers, The Good Son, The Crow 1-2, The Devils Rejects, Underworld 1-2, Wild Things 1-2, What Dreams May Come, Wrong Turn, -------*** I will pretty much watch anything horror and action, I do like drama and Comedy here and there.... Im a very wide range person I like alot of movies and Cant remeber them all! I just listed a bunch that i love!
Your Brain's Pattern
You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

Television:

Charmed, The L Word, Nip Tuck, Criminal Minds, Cold Case, NCSI, CSI,Close to Home,Criss Angel Mindfreak, Fosters home for imagnary (sp) friends, The grim adventures of billy and mandy! and maby some more I cant remember but I dont usually perfer to watch tv...

Books:

Poetry by pretty much anyone, Poetry is a big thing for me.Stephen King, Dean Kontz, Laurie Storizer , Anna Rice, Fiona Horne, and books on paranormal, ghosts and myths. I read pretty much anything.

Heroes:




















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My Blog

Maby Im not who I want to be....

You're getting closer to pushing me off of life's little edgeCause Im a loserand sooner or later you know I'll be deadYou're getting closer You're holding the rope and Im taking the fallThis is gettin...
Posted by †Black†Roses†Fall† on Tue, 26 Dec 2006 08:09:00 PST

Maybe Im Amazed..... :)

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you love me all the timeMaybe I'm amazed of the way I love youMaybe I'm amazed at the way you pulled me out of timeand hung me on a lineMaybe I'm amazed at the way I really...
Posted by †Black†Roses†Fall† on Sun, 24 Dec 2006 08:50:00 PST

Okie.....

One night to you Lasted 6 weeks for meI never thought about what would happenI just wanted itThere was no turning backAnd I was okie with thatIts almost christmasand all I was is a kiss on the cheek a...
Posted by †Black†Roses†Fall† on Sat, 23 Dec 2006 12:58:00 PST

*Eroused*

God Ive done it......It hurts so bad...and it just keeps goinghumm....but it does feel good. Pain feels goodPain = Pleasure...Am I emo? Nah.... I just love painso that is life I know. I wish you to bi...
Posted by †Black†Roses†Fall† on Sun, 17 Dec 2006 10:54:00 PST

Friends <3

Friends=people who leaveBest Friends=It is just worse when they leaveFriends=Why do you need them if they act like assesBest Friends=I wish I had oneFriends=Nighty awake cryingBest Friends=Are lovely....
Posted by †Black†Roses†Fall† on Sat, 09 Dec 2006 03:19:00 PST

AL [ONE]

Sometimes I think Something Is Wrong With MeI mean truly Wrong....I cant tell if things are real anymore...If things hurt or feel goodI just dont know why?................................................
Posted by †Black†Roses†Fall† on Fri, 08 Dec 2006 05:10:00 PST

I Just Don't Know What To Say....

....I dont know what to sayEverything just really sucked today.You never believe me,but you want me to believe you?ITs always GONNA BE THERE!STOP!Im sorry Im so sad todayNothing is going my wayEveryth...
Posted by †Black†Roses†Fall† on Fri, 01 Dec 2006 04:59:00 PST

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I Too Feel AloneA Bad Place In My MindIs That Space That You Call Mine...
Posted by †Black†Roses†Fall† on Fri, 24 Nov 2006 12:49:00 PST

A little Out-a touch, A little Insane.. Its just better then dealing with the PAIN

Do you ever feel like everyone around you is dieing?I do.......and sometimes I feel like I am tooSometimes people I think are my best friends, just leaveI thought that I could trust them...I was wron...
Posted by †Black†Roses†Fall† on Sat, 18 Nov 2006 04:00:00 PST

Lonely :(

Its a hush day, Im feeling kinda lonelyI can drownd out these words but not the thoughtsIts a hush dayEverything else fades awayNothing is to importantbecause its a hush kinda dayI dont like to speak ...
Posted by †Black†Roses†Fall† on Sat, 28 Oct 2006 04:15:00 PST