Allison

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I mirror my hearts desire and am never too busy to connect to those who trust, love and need me. "It's the thought that counts." Many can say "I would die for them" -- only I can live for them -- spoken with sincerity by a true "Drama Queen." I am empowered by embracing my emotions as a gift and unconditional love is my Holy Grail or gift. I'm intelligent, confident and equally insecure if u can fathom such, independent yet very submissive and dependent to my partner in a somewhat old-fashioned sense where man is king of castle with queen at his side kinda way, OVER talkative, outgoing, almost never understood if ever one has partially comprehended me, my methods and my madness as I struggle to define and better myself daily, I’m likely to be considered or someday clarified clinically insane, lol, just waitin on someone of note to take notice so I can stop guessing and, like, pop a card out my wallet when things go wrong that says, "Hey, Look, the bitch holdin the card is not completely at fault for, may be mostly aware of ur strifes or possibly not have a clue what the hell has just happened-either discovery u make, run, run like the wind, the bitch has definitely already been collectively found CRAZY!" LOL. A certified card of that nature could be very useful, profitable, and sometimes lifesaving for people like me, cept it could pose a problem if I ever finish my degree and attempt my practice, Muahhhh Hahahaha! I'm recently made self aware and post much life lesson and hard work, only slightly still afraid of spiders and snakes and about to tackle and overcome my ultimate fear of being alone, hopefully, just seem to have misplaced Ghostbusters number, if you, yea, you readin this NOW happen to have that number, do please send a mail and help a sick sista out!
I am a cancer and can seem all stuck and snug in my shell but that's not me, ALL the time, it's my protective nature preventing anyone yet to deem themselves worthy near and dear to me or mine. I'm still having electrical problems with the gates tho, please be patient as the power company in these parts of my imaginative blog here tends to be in an unknown time zone and may be late with repairs, as in I am still struggling with bein naive and having faith in ALL mankind, and well, just as any slightly intelligent person knows where good exists, an equal and opposing amount of evil also must coexist to keep the balance and whatever other reasons those things just are, ya know, yet sometimes I still see good no one else can see in people that is or was never there or repetitiously allow misfortune to befall me at the hand of others, often mistaken as preventable stupidity or just the innate desire to be a doormat. There are some pretty cool ass, funny, cute, pretty doormats out there so I ain’t in complete opposition to such transformation if I can’t get the “power failures” repaired, lol. Still in theoretical developmental stages, will post results when and if a theorem becomes proved/disproved. But really, I love people, they fascinate me. Oh, and check this, the bad things, as others have said and I often agree at times, I'm "nosy", as the masses want to define my curious nature, cuz my mind is like a sponge that I cannot seem to soak enough up in. I'm a "drama queen" too cuz this is the simplest word most can place on the unorthodox principles that if I like u or u intrigue me, I wanna know EVERYTHING I can, even that crap u don’t even wanna know hidin in your head, plus all the naughty u wanna keep buried, and I even have tendencies to share my “dramatic” discoveries with others, which is where the majority get perturbed, as this is of course, invasion of privacy and then exploitation of oneself that most people adversely react to, yet, in my defense, to truly know someone, u have to know it all and yet u still can never quite KNOW it all, BUT as best to keep a correct log on an much analysis of u, me, and events surrounding as I am truly by nature absolutely fascinated and overcome by people and the study of our behaviours that it’s in this sense that I am faulted malicious and intrusive. Guilty of intrusion and only malice if it is decided that evil must appear to have been committed to attempt successful good bein done where others had not made connection or I mistakenly just made a huge ass mess trying to do that I said up there and well, yea, DRAMA!! Also, in humble confession I am yet only human, AND WOMAN, haha, so sure, uh-huh, yea, hormones or whatever mood sometimes strike and I just act a donkey and kick up a nasty lil storm. A girl needs occasional entertainment, ya know? Or maybe I just give in to temptation and go bitch for the hell of it on undeserving innocents. SORRY! Don’t worry, if I do so I come fully prepared for the unavoidable consequences…gotta keep myself in check now and then that what was this can become that but can always be returned to this, just a lot of detail, effort, exhaustion, and quite misunderstood intent and don’t forget DRAMA in the process. Yea, I do need a hobby, lol. Sure, if u DID get this far, I agree, I might need therapy, hehe!! And, well, I haven't yet finished school, nor am I always perfect or not just plain damn naughty here and there, I often fix things up, mess things up, pry too much, share what wasn't mine to share, etc...the usual dramatics, lol, since I have quite grown to love the whole process of hindsight analysis and well, unintentionally have conditioned myself to embrace the word, Drama, lol. Beware the Allison signs are subliminally posted all about me, u have been properly notified, proceed with caution and at own risk! Had enough yet? I've definitely left a few unconvinced, confused, would not rule out slightly disturbed, but I mostly never INTEND to cause harm...didn't they write the perfect slogan to follow here long ago, "Shit Happens!"...and well, sometimes I admittedly chose to brew a stinky pot and stir it....oops...country gals are born lovin to cook!
I love being in love! I feared early on in life that I fell in love with everything and everyone, or nothing at all and had no true understanding of the concept but I have been wrong before and was found wrong again when I found Scott. Upon first look into his gorgeous blue eyes I was overcome with instant intensity that I could not fathom what was wrong until I realized in that instant, love at first sight DOES exist as much as I have always been opposed to any such idiotic concept as “true” love lasting throughout time, upholding all attacks, and being invincible to any uproar as “true” love has been defined, to even consider love at first sight could exist. I’ve seen so many loves that were so perfect it seemed fall apart at the seams where all reason failed to exist as to why things ceased to work in the end from a perfect, infallible start. So I concluded that “love” as best I could guess was something that was always vulnerable, rare, and unlikely to be something I would ever pursue again after trial and error proved u never quite knew how things got fucked up, before, during or after, and just had to accept they sometimes just died. If I can’t lay it out and set a course and work towards a destination reachable without doubt I see no point so I said, hmph, to be in love is no point! Wrong! It’s absolutely insane and unexplainable, unbelievable maybe yet we know and cannot prove that what we know but knowing is all we need. Go forth and seek your adventures, don’t give up, the pursuit weighs heavy in the glory of success!! I, fortunately, have found what I think and feel will continue to blossom into a well balanced partnership leading to a lifelong journey of experience and life with Scott, my heart, whom seems to understand my “oddities” in equally “odd” and likewise challenging ways as well as compliment my curiosities, good will to all, and unquenched thirst for all imaginable fulfillment of life, the ocean in between. Did you get that? No matter, we do and honestly, it feels great to have finally found another that seems to be what completes me. Never thought I would be so lucky. I’m justa a girl, in tha world, undefined….
If u aren’t tormented thus far to see the obvious, I never shut up but don't doubt that I'm not observing, listening to your thoughts-if I can sneak in there undetected, hearing your whispers even tho some are never uttered and plucking at your imagination, while thinking about several others anomalies, comparisons, idiosyncrasies as well as mentally creating my to do list, grocery list, and outlining my goals, objectives, responsibilities, and more often than I can convince most, ALL at the same time if I concentrate hard enough….pretty cool every now and then, pretty mind boggling more often and pretty much still in experimental stages as to how the hell it happens…lol…or maybe I just forgot my medication, hmm?
Ok, by now, u should have guessed, I am a nerd. Yup, glasses, too. Oh and HAD braces, too, lol. I was tested several times in two states and finally placed in gifted school early in 3rd grade, for 5 yrs, StarReach, in MS. It has always been something I have been very thankful for it connected a lot of dots public school is still awaiting the memo about the possible existence of, lol. I'm from the country, East Brewton, AL. My family are mostly derivatives of simple small scale farmers. I’ve survived, emotionally and socially, 3 uproots just as I had become securely fastened in a home or school which I hated as a child yet embrace as an adult in that it left me with scars, yes, but also rewarded me with character by strengthening adaptation, as the true Cancerian Crab is a homebody and never likes change, I was forced to overcome this weakness early on and have now found myself having trouble meeting a stranger or embracing necessary change.
I believe in ghosts, God, and in a sense theorize reincarnation quite reasonably exists, and to define is most likely something like a recycling process of those spirits created and sent here again and again with a purpose each time, having upon creation the requirements, time and time again put to use, hence recycled life, that maintain the balance or are specifically assigned as guides, aids, or teachers to ensure further enhancement and existence of life. I have no choice but to imagine such possibilities as my experiences thus far in life leave me little choice, nor explanation other than imagination thru reason and logic and best educated guess. Seen, heard, smelt, felt quite a lot of freaky shit. Yet again, might be just a lack of medication, lol. This is where I say to each his own but don’t knock any or none for no one person has these answers, we can only believe or not. Except for some that see what few can see yet enough have seen likewise to know their sight isn’t a misconception, still having seen leaves u no better off than not as far as what and why and how….least for me, for now….lol.
I'm an Earth Horse according to the “Chinese” Zodiac. It’s a zodiac different from traditional Western Zodiac in that it assigns u a sign by the year you were born, regardless of month, as the western only refers to the 12 calendar months, regardless of year. I found this much more interesting research than western zodiac. Check yours out at chinese.astrology.com. I'm said to be most compatible with a Dog or a Tiger; so far, all dogs and tigers that I know I have met have fascinatingly enough to me been very dear friends or very easy to relate to. Although, my boyfriend is not one of the compatible signs yet, we seem to be fine, still, interesting research if you want to possibly understand things about yourself and others that share such likenesses by whatever strangeness the stars shower upon us?? LOL.
Still, even if he was the best sign for me or worst even, I'm a sucker for blue eyes, sarcasm, intelligence, strength (inside and out), and perverts who are respectful. My Scott meets and exceeds all my attractions and the best part is, together since mid 2006, and we're still stumbling daily upon new things to entice us…!! Gotta love it! My condolences to any who suffer thru and successfully read this in its entirety. I would love to hear any thoughts any may have yet I surely expect most to never complete the read much less feel obligation to further encourage my incessant blabber!! Still, THIS IS ME! LIKE ME, HATE ME OR LEAVE ME BE but hope you enjoy urself if u don’t enjoy me!!!! MUAHHHH!!!
You Are a Super Flirt
You love to flirt, so much so that it gets you in trouble.
In almost any situation, you find yourself flirting - even when it's inappropriate.
You tend to embrace all flirting styles too.. from coy to sexy to playful to serious.
And if someone flirts back, you'll crank it up even more! What Kind of Flirt Are You?
Your Seduction Style: Siren / Rake
You possess an unbridled sensuality that appeals to many.
The minute you meet anyone, you can make them crave you almost immediately.
You give others the chance to lose control with you... spiraling into carnal bliss.
A dangerous lover, you both fascinate and scare those you attract. What Is Your Seduction Style?
You Are Boston
Both modern and old school, you never forget your roots.
Well educated and a little snobby, you demand the best.
And quite frankly, you think you are the best.
Famous people from the Boston area: Conan O'Brien, Ben Affleck, New Kids on the Block What American City Are You?
Your Fortune Is
Man who drop watch in toilet bound to have shitty time. The Wacky Fortune Cookie Generator
Your Fortune Is
An optimist is a girl who regards a bulge as a curve. The Wacky Fortune Cookie Generator
You Were a Rabbit
You are fast thinking and tend to live by your wits.
Getting over fears is important to you, as is strengthening intuition. What Animal Were You In a Past Life?
Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect
Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it.
You have the confidence to make the first move.
And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best.
Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing! Are You a Good Kisser?
You Are 84% Grown Up, 16% Kid
Your emotional maturity is fully developed, and you have an excellent grasp on your emotions.
In fact, you are so emotionally mature - you should consider being a therapist! How Emotionally Mature Are You?
You Are a Mermaid
You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.
While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.
Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.
You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else. What Mythological Creature Are You?
You Are 76% Brutally Honest
Most of the time, you tell it like it is. Even if it's hard for people to hear.
Sometimes you hold back though, because you never want your honesty to be hurtful. How Brutally Honest Are You?
Your Aura is Blue
Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life.
You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships.
The purpose of your life: showing love to other people
Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah
Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor What Color Is Your Aura?.. Home | Browse | Search | Invite | Film | Mail | Blog | Favorites | Forum | Groups | Events | Videos | Music | Comedy | Classifieds
You Were Born Under:
You've got a ton of energy - and need plenty of room to roam.
You tend to follow your whims, and it's hard for you to stick to one thing.
Specific jobs, loves, and friends are always changing and never a part of your life for long.
Very intuitive, you tend to know what people are thinking before they say a word.
You are most compatible with a Dog or Tiger. What Year Were You Born Under?