This is me.
What you see is what you get I’m afraid.
I’m really random and I speak before I think. If you say something innocent, there’s quite a high chance that I’ll twist it to make it dirty. And if no one gets the innuendo well, I'll probably just laugh anyway; cause I'm pretty simple minded like that.
First impressions aren't everything. As most of the people who know me fairly well will agree, I don’t make the greatest ones! People judge you from what they see and I’ll admit that I do that too, but that's something I'm trying to change. People aren't always who you think they are.
There are always people you would class as friends. People who you think you can trust. You can confide in these people, tell them things you wouldn't even dream of telling other people; and yet these 'friends' will just stab you in the back as soon as you turn away, acting as if nothing is wrong when they're face to face with you. I have these people in my life and it has caused quite a lot of shit recently. I never want to be like this. And I'm trying hard not to become like it.
I’ll be the first person to admit that I’ve changed a lot over the past year or so. Even though some of the changes aren’t for the better, I’m learning to live with my mistakes and learn from them. I drink way too much and I'll admit that my liver will be dead by the time I'm 20. And I aint even joking on that one. I smoke. End of. If you don't like it, get over it. I know it's bad for me, but hey. Okay, so I drink too much, I smoke, I'm simple and at times I can be a complete bitch ... but come on, who isn't?! It doesn’t change who I am. I’m still me.
I love my friends and they really do mean the world to me. I’m closer to mates I’ve only known for a few months than I am with family who I’ve known all my life. I actually couldn’t live without them. They are my world. They are there when I need someone to turn to, my pillar when I need some support and a shoulder when I’m crying. I don’t need to tell them who they are, cause they already know. They are there for the good times too. And most of all, they are there to reminisce the good times with.
I used to have friends who stuck by me through everything. Every day of my life they were there for me. But now these friends seem to be drifting away and there’s nothing you can do about it. Thinking about why they’re going away won’t help. You just have to work on getting them back. ‘Never frown, because you don’t know who is falling in love with your smile’.
Friends aren't everything in life though. There's family too. But then, there's this guy:
This is Adam.
I fucking love this guy.
His first impression of me wasn't fantastic.
But there was something about him the first time I met him.
I never once thought it would be possible for me to be with someone like him.
But I am.
I love every bone in his body and I enjoy every minute we spend together.
"Once in your life you find someone who will turn your world around, pick you up when you're feeling down."
Nothing can change what he means to me.
And nothing will take me away from him.
If you've sat and read all this you must have been pretty damn bored tbh. But it means you've been on my profile for a while. So take a look around at what's left and feel free to add/message me. If you wanna chat, get on the good old MSN:
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