Tonya

I want to be able to believe in people. If you get this far then I am 35 years old. Born and raised in Danville, Va. I am married and have 1 wonderful girl. I recently lost my father tragically and it has been very hard for me, but recently I had a friend that said these comments to me Sometimes things happen that hurt, and hurt more because we can't understand them in human essence. People who decide to end life don't do it to hurt others, but it's usually because they can't see past the darkness. Unfortunately they often leave turmoil for others to sort through. Some say it's selfish. But I think it's because they are just so swallowed by internal crap. They often feel it's more selfish to stay here. I hope you are helped with these words, they're out of caring. Heal in your own time, your own way. That did bring a smile to my face. I have met some really great people one that I can actually cry on her shoulder, call her in the middle of the night, does not judge, more people in the world should be more like her. I am not shy at all maybe a little quiet, but give me a drink and I come alive. But after that, I love reading, swimming, movies, having parties and over all I am a very good hearted person. I treat others how I would want to be treated. I try to live like there is not going to be another day. I enjoy meeting new people, sometimes the friends you make are not the best in the world but you can at least say you met somoene you thought was a friend and ended up being one of the worst people you knew on the other end of that they might end up being your best friend. We never know what life has in store for us we just have to go with it and take it for what it is worth. I enjoy staying home very much it is very rewarding. My best friend is a federal marshall, , He is the most honest person other than my husband I know, he tells me the truth no matter how bad it will hurt cause in the long wrong the pain goes away but a lie will remain a lie and continue to hurt. But, if I could have only changed one thing about me that would be to have been a better daughter to my father. Life is way to short and I know from experience not to take things for granted. Just be thankful for what you do have cause you could loose it at any moment like I did my dad.We just bought a new house that we are excited about now if I could only get my husband to do what I ask him to do around here