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..redThis is me...I love taking walks in the rain, and the smell of Michigan basements. I love surprises and spontaneity. I want to travel the world, and live in France for a year. I want to learn to surf, and water ski, and snowboard. I can't wait to go skydiving someday. I would love to learn to cook, and be that girl who always has dinner ready for her man when he comes home from a hard days work. I want to be that girl who looks just as cute in jeans and a sweatshirt as in that perfect 'little black dress'. I love going sledding and making snow men and snow angels. I love hot chocolate and my mama's homemade macaroni and cheese. I could spend an entire day laying in the sun and reading a good book. I want to learn to play the guitar, and mountain bike on rugged trails. I love camping in tents and sleeping bags, and looking up at the stars. I used to hate getting flowers, but somehow this time around it makes me feel like I'm on top of the world. I love dogs and treat mine like my son. More than anything else in the world, I am afraid of falling in love, and at the same time want nothing but just that. I love lots of pillows on my bed, and lots of candles in every room. I love pictures, but somehow always forget to take them. I love to bake cookies, any kind you want. I could eat fresh fruit at every meal for the rest of my life and not get sick of it. I eat chocolate when I'm depressed. I want to dance until I can no longer walk, and perform on stage for as long as I can. I love to color and fly kites and build sand castles. I want to be a kid at heart forever.UPDATE 5/5/08: So I have to say that I feel completely fucking lost lately. I don't know what to do with myself somedays. I am always completely exhausted because I lay awake for hours almost nightly trying to figure out what the hell I did wrong and why I am not where I thought I would at 23. I thought for sure I would be married by now, and not still waiting for 5 more years of college to pass by. I feel like I am stuck here with no way to turn. I have this amazing guy who means the world to me but I'm pretty sure our dreams come nowhere close to meshing. I want to move away from Michigan; I want to have a nice house together with flowers in the front; I want a nice quiet wedding on a beach somewhere with only a few of our close family; I want to have babies and be a mom only half as good as mine. Does anybody else feel completely lost and alone and absolutely depressed about their current place in life, or am I the only one?Myspace Backgrounds
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