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I sit on my bed with a knife in my hand im ready to use it to put it all to an end but then i think of reasons not y should i not do this y shouldnt i pull through its not like i have somebody thats there 4 me im always alone n thats how its always been even though i have friends they donâ€™t really no they dont understand me or c all my sorrow so i look over the reasons stoppin me from doin this and im sad 2 say there arent any on the list nothin keeps me alive but sum how i breathe but that will soon change i will cease 2 b so i put the knife close to my hand about to make the final cut about to cut my wrist but agen i am held back fear had held me back from commitin suicide so i move the blade a bit make a cut n start to cry why cant i do this IM 2 DAMN SCARED thats y so 2nite i still lay down 2 sleep the only thing that has changed are a few additional cuts thats the only thing ive gained and i will have 2 wake up the next mornin ill have to keep on livin ill have 2 keep on sufferin
Sheila Mitchell http://sheila-1987.bebo.com/
You scored as Goth. Your A Goth!

Goth

90%

Rocker, Mosher

65%

Trendy

40%

Skater

30%

Chav, Townie, Rude Boy, Ned, Kev

25%

Emo

25%

Prepy

25%
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When was the last time you cried?: couple of days ago
Have you ever faked sick?: yep
What was the last lie you said?: cant remember...dont really tell lies coz im crap at it lol
Have you ever cried during a movie?: yep
Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?: lol not telling
Have you ever danced in the rain?: yep :M
Have you ever been drunk?: yeh course
Have you ever tried tried drugs?: nope...never have never will
Do you smoke?: yep
What's the farthest you've ever gone on a dare?: lol aint saying
What is your full name?: sheila christine mitchell :S
What is your blood-type?: fuk knos...all i kno is that its red
Have you ever been in a car accident?: yeh.....and its never been my fault!
How old were you when you recieved your first kiss?: about 8 i think...cant really remember!
Who was your first kiss?: andrew
Have you ever had an .. relationship?: nope
Have you ever had phone-sex?: ;-)
Have you ever been rejected by a crush?: nope
What is your favourite sport to play?: erm dono
Have you ever made a prank phone call?: yeh
Have you ever said "I Love you" and not meant it?: nope..whats the point in saying it if u dunt mean it
What's your favourite childhood memory?: not having any responsibilty and not giving a shit!
Is there anything that you have done that you regret?: alot....
What do you want to be when you grow up?: me hopefully:S
What is your political persuassion?: erm i dont have a clue
Have you ever had cybersex?: yeh
Do you believe in g-d?: nope
Do you believe in love at first sight?: yeh
Do you believe in karma?: yeh
Who was your first crush?: oh fuck erm cant remember
Who do yo uhave a crush on?: lol not telling
How would you describe yourself?: as me maybe :|
What are you afraid of?: clowns, spiders, heights, confined spaces, the dark pmsl alot
Are you religious?: nope
What does your screen name mean?: figure it out for urself
What person do you trust the most?: dont trust no1
Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend?: andrew
What is the best compliment you have ever recieved?: erm cant remember...any offers?! lol
What is the meanest thing anyone has said about you?: that im a stupid fat thick blonde slut!:S
What is the longest crush/relationship you have had?: 4ytears on n off
What is your greatest strength?: being me lol
What is your greatest weakness?: pets!
What is your perfect pizza?: anything that tastes gd
What is your first thought when waking up in the morning?: im tired or oh shit im late!
What is your first thought before you go to bed?: im tired!?
What college do you want to go to?: none
Do you get along with your family?: yeh course
Do you play any instruments?: yeh alot
What kind of music do you like?: anything really more into soft rock tho
Do you think you're attractive?: nore than some less than others!
Would you ever get a tattoo?: i already have 5
How many piercings do you have?: 10
Who makes you laugh?: no1 in particular
Who would you want to be tied to for 24hours?: lol haha he knows ;-)
Have you ever seen a dead body?: yeh loads :|
Do you have a celebrity crush?: nope
What is one thing scientists should invent?: something usefull that would benefit evry1...aint decided what that is yet!
Have you ever broken a bone?: nope not broken
What happens after you die?: dont kno...wont kno till i die will i
Do you watch or read the news?: sometimes
What stereotype would you label yourself as being?: ?!?!?!?!?!
Would your friends agree with that stereotypic label?: ?!?!?!?!?!
If yo ucould change your name, what would you change it to?: aint thought about it....
If you could go back in time to one point in your life, where would you go: back to when i was like 5 years old!
If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change?: nothing coz then i wouldnt b me would 1!
Have you ever gone skinny dipping?: nope
Have you ever played strip poker?: no
Would you ever lie to someone to make them feel good about themselves?: depends on wat it is
What do you want your friends to think about you?: the truth
Whats the biggest argument you've ever gotten into?: cant remember...been 2 many
HAve you ever bitten someone?: yeh
When's your birthday?: 19th january
Have you ever stolen anything?: not that i can remember but prob when i was a kid
Do you make wishes on shooting stars?: nope
Whats the most you've ever eaten in one sitting?: dono
If you could go back and change one day, what would it be?: not sayin
Do you remember your dreams?: sometimes
Have you ever been in love?: yeh
Are you a morning person or a night person?: night
Do you have any phobias?: yeh alot...
What's the meanest thing you've ever done to someone?: dono
Have you ever been to the hospital (other then birth?: yeh alot
How many screen names do you have?: 5 i think
Do any medical problems run in your family?: lol yeh tons
Have anyone ever been disowned from your family?: no
Have you ever had a nightmare?: yeh :(
Do you say meaner things to your friends or your enemies?: enemies
Would you ever participate in a threesome?: depends lol
Would you ever pay for a prostititue?: nope
Have you ever mooned or flashed someone?: yeh
Have you ever cheated on your bf/gf?: nope
Have you ever laughed so hard you peed in your pants?: no :S:S:S:|:|
Have you ever written a love letter?: yeh
Have you ever attempted suicide?: yeh
Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: .........
Have you ever been in a fistfight?: yeh
Do you have any hidden talents?: yep :M
What is one thing you want me to know about you?: nothing
What is one question you wouldn't want me to ask?: nothing...aint as if r gonna anser
Do you usually prefer books or movies?: movies
Who is your favourite person to talk to?: depends wha mood im in
Who is always able to cheer you up when you're sad?: not many ppl just a couple
Would you ever have sex before marriage?: lol yeh
Who do you talk to most on the phone?: not sure
Do you have a secret that yo'ure ashamed of?: yep
Do you prefer british or american spelling of words?: british
Have you ever gotten detention?: yeh :@
How do you vent your anger?: alot of diff ways
Have you ever been on a diet?: yep
Would you ever date someone younger than you? Older than you?: yep to both
Is your best friend a virgin?: would b kina hard considering she has a kid but im gonna go for yes! :|:S
What's a rumor someone has spread about you?: duno
What's the kinkiest thing you could ever actually see yourself as doing?: ;-)
What's the meanest thing anyone has ever done to you?: not sure lol
What's the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you?: again wiv the not sure lol
Have you ever been diagnosed with a mental illness?: yeh
Have you ever cut yourself on purpose?: yeh
Have you ever wanted to murder someone?: yep
Have you ever hated someone?: yeh
Do you prefer talking on the phone or ..?: depends who im talking to
Do you consider yourself popular?: kinda
Would you ever tell the person you have a crush on that you like them?: yeh
Have you ever had a crush on an enemy?: yep
Have you ever had a crush on a best friend?: yep
What is your favourite book?: dont read
Do you have a collection of anything?: yeh lots
Are you happy with the person you are becoming?: kinda
Are you a different person now then you were 5 years ago?: yeh alot different
What do you see yourself as being in 5 years from now?: dont know
Are you happy with the life you have?: not at the mo
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My favorite...
...color is black
...animals are dogs
...food is chicken!
...season is summer
...TV show is eastenders
...drink is soft drink irn bru, alcoholic drink erm peach snapps
...song is sweet child o mine or my immortal
...band is guns n roses and bon jovi of course
...holiday is Christmas
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MySpace Code provided by InterestEditor.comHow Could You?When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" -- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a belly rub. My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs" you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day. Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love. She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy. Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a prisoner of love." As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved everything about them and their touch -- because your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would've defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway. There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf. Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family. I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one with "papers." You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed, "No, Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him, and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for all life. You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you. You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too. After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked "How could you?" They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite days ago. At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you that you had changed your mind -- that this was all a bad dream... or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me. When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited. I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day, and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room. A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood. She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured "How could you?" Perhaps because she understood my dogspeak, she said "I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself --a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place. And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her. It was directed at you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of you. I will think of you and wait for you forever. May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty.Get Your Own Voice Player Manage

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You have a sexual IQ of 119
When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends.
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You have sunrise eyes. Sunrise is the color of joy and elation. Your eyes symbolize your general sense of wellness. Your confidence and high self-esteem each and every day make you the person people want to be around. You are a very creative, passionate, and sexual person. You are not afraid to tell people what you think of them, whether good or bad. Some words to describe you: self-assuredness, out-going, busy, cheerful, bright, amiability, courage, successful, creative, personable, happiness, motivational, optimistic, strong, and aware.
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You scored as Eyes full of Pain. People tend to overlook you, which makes you feel less worthy of their attentions. You sometimes wish you could just disapear from the world around you. You have been hurt very badly in the past and you just wish that someone would understand you, and what their cruelty is doing to you.

Eyes full of Pain

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Mysterious

67%

Passion

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Diamond Eyes

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I am 68% Asshole/Bitch.
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Bomb

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Suicide

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Stabbed

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Gunshot

60%

Posion

53%

Eaten

53%

Disease

47%

Natural Causes

40%

Disappear

33%

Accident

27%

Suffocated

Cut Throat

Drowning

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[House] Gryffindor[Mostly Know As] Close to Perfect[Boyfriend] Choose[Best Friend] Practically everyone=[ GRYFFINDOR ] =-HarryPotter- thinks your very nice and pretty and a great quidditch player and has an huge crush-RonaldWeasly- Loves you! but thinks yoour way outta his leauge-HermioneGranger- is a little jealous but likes you-NevilleLongbottom- Is intimadated by you-GinnyWeasley- Acts like she doesnt really like you coz Harry likes you but secretly looks up to you-DeanThomas- thinks you hot-SeamusFinnigan- drools over you-Fred/GeorgeWeasley- think your hot and have great prank ideas but wishes you would join them in pranking some time-ParvatiPatil/LavenderBrown- are probaly your closest friends-OliverWood- loves you and respects you=[ SLYTHERIN ]=-DracoMalfoy- hates you coz your not in Slytherin and he can never have you-BlaiseZabini- doesnt know you but finds you extremly pretty and super hot-Crabbe/Goyle- they eat-PansyParkinson- is soooo jealous of you, and hates the way Malfoy looks at you=[ HUFFLEPUFF ]=-CedricDiggory- Has a crush on you=[ RAVENCLAW ]=-ChoChang- is one of your besties and loves you bits-PadmaPatil- thinks your a great person-LunaLovegood- thinks your nice and kind for listening to her theories even when you don't believe in them=[ TEACHERS ]=-Dumbledore- thinks your an great student and will go far after Hogwarts-Mcgonagol-loves having you in her house and loves teaching you-Sprout- thinks your a nice girl but could focus more in Herbology-Flitwick- tinks your a lovely girl with a talent for Charms-Snape- Hates you
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is it just me or are clowns the scariest things uv ever fukin seen!!

ok so i decided to go to the fair last saturday with my wee bro :S the place was fucking full of clowns and jester dudes! so while im trying to dodge these clowns they kept coming up to me coz i had a...
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