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If you want me to go all philosophical on you, I can tell you right now I have the right not to tell you my life story or even a snippet of it in this little space I’d like to call an “about me” but am I? Sure, how can it hurt? Either you’re going to read this. Or you’re just going to end it here and not be phased with the fact that you just turned down one of my chances of telling you about myself. Either way I still know who I am and that all that matters to me. I’ve come to the conclusion after my sixteen years of living on this planet that you are given endless amounts of chances, chances to prove to yourself and to everyone else anything and everything. As very broad as that one sentence may be, you know for a fact that when you read that you keyed on a few experiences that you encountered or what to encounter. I’ve come to the conclusion, that I look up to no one but myself, and from this day on I will continue to be who I am and who I want to be. I know for a fact that I make it somewhere just like the next person. If you look up to someone, that is so great for you, if that’s how you feel you can make it knowing that someone else has tried, I say go for it :). I know for a fact I have so much pride in the people who actually make a difference and I give those people loads of respect on how they made it somewhere for sure. I think a majority of how you get places is through willpower, if you don’t have will power to do anything I feel like you won’t get anywhere. I know that my dad doesn’t support me through a lot of what I do, but I just take it in and it makes me stronger and it makes me want to achieve something even more, not only to prove him wrong but also so I show myself I’m capable of anything if I put my mind to it. I used to hold myself back with things being afraid of what was to happen if I went through with it, but I’m no longer like that. I’m not going to hold myself back anymore; I don’t feel the reason to. I also feel like, I rather be disliked from something I believe in and for something that makes me different then to be liked for something that I don’t believe in. Yes, I can tell you right now that I’ve been through a lot in my life, and I’ve seen things that to this day I wish I’ve never ever faced, but do I complain about it, and do I ever say that someone out there hasn’t gone through worse? No. I know that my past made me into the person I am today, and honestly I have nothing to do but thank my past for that. I’m human, and so are you, I have flaws and so do you, am I going to pick at you for them? No. no one is perfect, but we all have our ideas of how perfect should be and honestly no one has to live up to your standards, except for yourself. If you’re not happy with yourself no one else can. There is beauty is everything, instead of judging something, sit back for a second you’ll either find the interior or exterior beauty or maybe even both. I can tell you right now I’m deathly afraid of many things but is that going to hold me back from anything? Definitely not. God gave me my fears and my dreams for a reason, and I will use them to my advantage, I won’t let them stop me dead in my tracks. As sad as this might sound, as I look out into this world I feel like the generations are getting worse and worse, more superficial, more angry with a few specks of people who are completely opposite, and honestly it sickens me, I want no part of a world like that. look at us, were having wars over peace, were being completely rude and immature to the people who supported us all along, and were constantly only thinking about ourselves and I refuse to be put in any of those categories. We all need change in this world, I know for a fact when I ancestors landed here they did not wish that our world would come to be something like this. And that is what I’ve decided I want to do, bring this world back to sanity, make a difference, make an impact and save a life. Go ahead, tell me that I’m crazy and there is no way I can do it. let me just tell you now you just gave me even more will power to do just that, I’ll remember to thank you for saying that if I actually do succeed with doing so. It’s been a while now that I’ve wanted to be a psychologist, I still kind of do. I know that my whole life I wanted to be something that would help someone, like I’ve said plenty of times I want to make a impact or difference in someone’s life, I want to make someone feel better about themselves. I always put people before me, especially the ones I care about the most, you may look at it as a flaw but I just see it as me being someone who is very caring, I don’t see a problem with that. I can’t hold myself back anymore, I need to move forward because you can go back with anything, and if you could then time travel would be in progress right now. I’m going to live myself to the fullest without out any regret. I think you should too. If you actually read this, I hope you take what I just said seriously. I know for certain I will be adding to this very soon because I’m constantly thinking, my brain doesn’t get rest, even when I dream. I appericate everything in life, my friends,my family, my future, my past, what I've seen, It is said you dont know what you have until its gone, but i know exactly what I have and I wouldnt have it any other way. I know this is myspace and no one takes it seriously, but I took this seriously, and I take my life seriously. You may think I’m constantly serious after reading this but I can honestly tell you I’m a well rounded person, I have a sense of humor, you can almost always find a smile on my face, and I’m a great person to be around, I can show you a fun time, I’m also very deep, and headstrong but also level headed, which never hurt anybody. Judge me all you want, I know at the end of the day I’m still the same person no matter what.
go ahead, go out there, live your life like you want to no ones stopping you, but yourself.
I want to start making a difference in the word. I want to start doing food drives and giving back in any way I can, I want to put a smile on someone's face who doesnt exactly have what I have, and know that I put it there. Theyre people just like you, they need respect and love just like you. So the next time you decided to throw something out, or you decide that you dont want to put that dollar in that bucket during the christmas season. Think of how theres a little boy or girl who has a family, that needs your help to survive a little longer. That dollar or that piece of food or anything for that matter can be a brand new start to anything!