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O.O [couer]

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About Me

So for the first time in my life, at the age of 18, I figured out how important family is. I know that may sound strange to alot of people, but until i got married i never had any true relatives except my mom, and when she was gone, I thought my life would be some sort of black hole, like there would be a void that would suck me in. Now I've found, that no matter how hard times get, there's always someone there for me, even if they aren't really related to me by law or whatever. I've learned to charish my loved ones, becaue before you know it, they will be gone.....Cursor by www.Soup-Faerie.Com
Waking to the Morning Light
Soft silhouette in the light of dawn,
The scent of your skin still at my nostrils,
Echoing laughter of yesterday,
Lingers on the walls.
Every day’s begun for just one reason ---
To wake to your smile, your touch.
With your elation as my drug,
I am not so often sober,
But wrapped so safely in your skin, I sleep.
Counting all the seconds you’re away,
Longing for darkness to envelop us,
For breathing to slow, rest to come,
So that I may watch your painted eyes close,
On the lovely face of the heart I hold.
But your whispered words, they mean so much,
Each time we’re apart, I remember these,
And I wish you no harm, for without your love, I’m lost,
Swallowed by the world’s illusions,
And then only the wind can cradle my heart.
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My Interests

My family, matthew...the love of my life, and allison my daughter. I love music, and i love video games lol, i love to write, whether it be poetry or stories, it's in my blood to write, i want to go to school for culinary someday, i love long walks on fall days, but i hate winter. I can't wait until my daughter's older so we can bake cookies lol.
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no one really...i think i know enough people
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Music:

Marilyn Manson, Nirvana, The Beatles, My chemical Romance, The Killers, Alice in Chains, GreenDay, New Found Glory, T.S.O.L., BodyJar, Sara M., The Cranberries, Four Non-blondes, Old Metallica, Blind Mellon, Counting Crows, Dave Mathews Band, Misfits, Dead Kennedys, Feable Weiner, some Vast, Alanis Morrisette, Pink Floyd, Stevie Ray Vaughn, Fiona Apple, Pearl Jam, Sublime, Placebo, The Verve, Blink 182, Rasputina, Wumpskut, Marcy's playground, Natalie Imburgulia, Matchbox 20, Goo Goo dolls, Third Eye Blind, Sound Graden, Damien Rice, Natalie Merchant, The All American Rejects, Say Anything, Panic! At the Disco, Bright Eyes, Mae, Snow Patrol, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, The Shins, Thousand Foot Krutch, Tom Petty, Mewithoutyou, 10 YEARS, Blue October, Augustana, Korn, Led Zepplin, Our Lady Peace, The Fray, Baumer... and I'm sure more than that...i just can't think right now.

Movies:

House of Sand and Fog, Rose Red, Red Dragon, Anyting Quinton Terintino! like Pulp Fiction!!!!, Van Helsing, SLC Punk, Happy Gilmore, Billy Madison, American Beauty, Ocean's Eleven, Breakfast At Tiffany's, Garage Days, The Crow, Saw, The Storm of The Century, Hanibal, The Silence of the Lambs, Funny Farm, The Girl with the Pearl Earing, Donnie Darko, the breakfast club, mothman prophisies (spellit?), Igby goes down, Girl Interrupted, Benny and Joon, Party Monster, mom @ 16, Crime and Punishment in Suburbia(one of my very very favorites), The girl in the Cafe, Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind (How happy is the blameless vestal's lot;The world forgetting, by the world forgot.Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind;Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd; -Alexander Pope), girl

Television:

fuck a tv...this is more entertaining...

Books:

Diary, lullaby, I can't Tell you, Dizzy, Go Ask Alice, Perks of being a wallflower, This lullaby, River's End, The Awakening, Eragon, and lots of other books i either never finished or i can't really think of right now... but who cares... i thought about writing a book once... but i thought about all the great books i've read and how no one else i know has read them or even wanted to read them... and about how it's not like music... even if you convince one person to like what you wrote... you're not convincing all their friends too... which is kinda pointless in itself... randomness....

Heroes:

I have to say, to date, that my mother is my biggest hero... she showed me that even when things are hard to handle and when things get really out of hand, that it's possible to be strong and to hold back the tears or the hate or whatever it is.... and then again, she showed me that it was ok to be me and not to be ashamed to cry or show the world what it means to be human rather than a perfect pristine robot... she put up with all my bullshit, and she loved me through it all... as did i love her... and i still love her... and if she were here... i would tell her that... but i'm sure by now she already knows that i never really told her how much i love her, and what a mistake that was.... *9/4/1961-7/17/2006*

My Blog

under the waves

I wish to fall with praying grace, to dive into the endlessness, that is the end. Into the valley, to roll into the vast, into the sky, where the sun it burns, and the light it blinds. Yet it is cool ...
Posted by O.O [couer] on Mon, 07 Jan 2008 10:11:00 PST

so...maybe?

i'm so tired of my life....do i need rescuing?
Posted by O.O [couer] on Mon, 07 Jan 2008 09:10:00 PST

so..allison

well...tomorrow allison will be 8 months, and just her luck, the day after christmas, she ends up going to the hospital...she's had a diaper rash for like 2 or 3 weeks, and it just wouldn't go away......
Posted by O.O [couer] on Thu, 27 Dec 2007 11:14:00 PST

well...what do you think of me now?

I am absolutely to the point of depression...well, maybe not, maybe it's just simple anger....everyone at work is pissing me off....a few of the managers think that they don't have to respect anyone b...
Posted by O.O [couer] on Mon, 03 Dec 2007 08:27:00 PST

...

What do you do when you're drowning? but you have no body with which to die... nor to save yourself ? which would you prefer?
Posted by O.O [couer] on Fri, 12 Oct 2007 04:11:00 PST

so finally

we're finally moving out of this dingy little apartment....god that's going to feel good...but we're going to stay with matt's dad and his step mom....yeah we gotta do chores and help with the groceri...
Posted by O.O [couer] on Mon, 08 Oct 2007 06:02:00 PST

at the end of every rainbow

there's a lie. All I can think is what my psych teacher taught me in freshman year....everyone you meet is fighting their own battle....i am included...the world keeps spinning around me, and everytim...
Posted by O.O [couer] on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 09:45:00 PST

i hope to god

Walked around my good intentions and found that there were none, blame my father for the wasted years, we hardly talked. never thought i would forget this hate, then a phone call made me realize i'm w...
Posted by O.O [couer] on Wed, 12 Sep 2007 08:27:00 PST

lately

lately has been strange....i've been in and out of depression and pms....I'm really hating my doctor and medicaid right now because i can't get this stupid thing out of my arm so i can get something d...
Posted by O.O [couer] on Wed, 08 Aug 2007 07:51:00 PST

at this point

so for some reason for the past few days, i've been missing matt horribly....even though when he gets home i'm here....but still...we don't spend much time together....but we've been trying to do that...
Posted by O.O [couer] on Tue, 07 Aug 2007 11:25:00 PST