My TestimonyI have known the Lord most of my life (since I was eight years old) but never had anyone really teach me his ways. My dad (he raised me) did not attend church. So when I met the Lord it was a profound experience, and one that I will never forget. When I was a little girl, he came to me one night while I was very scared and hurt and comforted me. He lay with me and held me until I fell asleep, and He has never left my side since that night.A stepparent physically and mentally abused me. She had a drinking problem and when she drank, I became her problem. I was never good enough. I could not get through a day without being abused in some way shape or form. This went on for years until she divorced my father (I was 16). I know in my heart if it were not for the protection of Jesus, I would not be alive today.Now after saying that, you would think that I would never have turned away from him. But, I did turn away from Him. I was angry with him for allowing that to happen to me. I was angry with my dad for allowing her to hurt me. I was angry because he didn’t believe me when I tried to tell him what she was doing. I was angry because I could not trust him to protect me. I was angry because my mom left when I was only Two and I felt I must not have been good enough, or pretty enough for her to love me. I withdrew to a place inside myself where no one and nothing could hurt me. If I didn't care or love, I would never get hurt again.
That began a downward spiral life of pure flesh driven self-abuse. I got pregnant at 16, had a baby at 17, another one at 20 and divorced by 21. I started drinking and partying just to numb the pain. Oh, I had a good job and took care of my kids but I had a terrible secret I was hiding on the inside of me. I didn’t care about life; I wanted to die. The one thought that kept me going was that my girls needed me. So, I did everything right as far as the world thinks one should do. I worked hard to take care of my girls physical needs. I love them and they love me, but I never gave myself completely. I was afraid to let my heart feel, because they too would eventually hurt me and leave me. After all, isn’t that what people do? If asked, my girls would say I was a good mom, but I know I could have been so much more if I had allowed Jesus to heal my heart.The wonderful thing is. Through all of that and everything I did to hurt God. I knew He was always there, still loving me. Waiting on me to turn to Him so that He could comfort me as He did on that night many many years ago. He just loved me and let me go until I just couldn't take one more step and then the minute I cried out to Him... He was there...once again I felt His warm embrace and His Love that never dies! PRAISE GOD!!The last three years have been an amazing journey. He has opened many doors. He has worked many miracles through me. He has healed me from a crippling disease where there was no cure, with a life in a wheelchair was all I had to look forward to. He is a good and loving FATHER, and I can not see my life without Him. I know the road I walked was my choice and not His will for my life, nevertheless, He carried me though it and I learned how to Love with all my heart and not just pieces of it. I have seen the mighty hand of GOD move in areas where there was no hope. I have a clear understanding on how children and young adults feel that have been abused and I have compassion for them where if I had not walked that path I would not know how to relate to their pain. He uses me in many ways to bring light and hope to someone, where it appears that no hope is left.I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I am unique and chosen by God. He loves me unconditionally. I am a burden bearer, and He has created me to be a servant to His sheep and has provided me the gifts of the Spirit to show Mercy, Evangelize, teach, counsel and prophesy all in His wonderful name (JESUS CHRIST)I do feel an urgency to share the message of CHRIST, because through CHRIST JESUS all things are possible. I wish that no one perish and our jobs as Christians are to share the good news and bring in as many people as we can to His Kingdom. So, this MYSPACE page is just my little way of planting seed so the harvest will be great and it's to encourage and lift up all my brothers and sisters. After all, we have the same FATHER, and He LOVES US ALL!!"The Spirit sweetly falls like dew, just as still on the grass, and as it comes, it is for a purpose-God's purpose. It may be withered grass, but God calls it to come forth again. And the Spirit of the Lord is right in the midst of you this morning. Though you might have been withered, dried, and barren for a long time, the dew is falling. God is in the midst of us with His Spirit of Revival, and He is saying to you, "All things are possible; only believe," and he will change you!"
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