~ysabelahhhh~

Okay seems like I didn't put enoughtthings in here. Im now realizing Ishould have. My mailbox is literallyover flowing with messages from ya'llso if I don't respond like pronto, bepatient I will .... if its worth aresponse. I do not .... I repeat DO NOT... have AIM, ICQ or any othermessenger service EXCEPT ..YAHOO ... Donot ask me for my fone you will not getit. If I feel like you're worth talkingto I will give it to you... Yes! Imstill single and EXTREMELY HAPPY playinwith ya'll... Next on the agenda ....NO I will not marry, or go get seriouswith anyone... im just here to play...(if guyz can play, so do I...) soPLEASE STOP asking. BUT WE "CAN" chill,go out on a date, play a lil "if u doknow what i mean... LASTLY BUT NOTLEAST .....I will APPROVE ANYONE whorequests that they be added to myFRIENDS LIST. As far ME BEING ON yourLIST , I will get around to requestingas soon as I can. BE PATIENT that boxis overflowing too. OH ONE MORE THING.... IF U REALLY WANTED TO KNOW MORE ABOUT ME...U JUST HAVE TO WORK 4 IT....I NEED SOME LOVIN ! WHO CAN GIVE ME 1?.... IF U WANNA MESS WITH ME JUST"HIT ME WHENEVER... HERE IN MYSPACE! aight!!!BESOS... ;P................................................ ...........................................................m ost ppol dont read profiles... they just kept on adding ppol based from pix... so i decided to share something more about me... the other side of me... probably u wont noticed this on mah page... since u guys dont read! lol... maybe some ppol do!!! --- read... anyway im using this account for couple of years now... from the day i started having this account ive met diff kinds of ppol... but i never realized that i would hurt lots of ppol too... this might sound so cheezy and pretty far from the ysabela that u've known... the ysabela that is bitchy... bossy... damn fucking aggressive... so manipulative... make guys crazy... and do other mean stuff thati usually loved doin ( note: back then )... i do apologize for things that ive done... you guys all know who u are... i feel like m losing mah way... i dont know where to go to... i dont know why i have to do this to mah self... why i never take the risk of having someone "again"... why i never realized what i have back then from now... why do i have to feel this way... why i ever let mah self to hurt the ppol who do really care about me... it seems like i dont know mah self anymore... can anybody out there hear me, see me, feel me!!!... coz it seems like i can't hear, see, feel mah self anymore...theres gotta be a heaven somewhere... can anybody save me from this hell???**** thanks to those guys who have been so patient with me... thanks for bein someone that i know i'll never have... i've got evrything i ever asked for... but it seems like theres somethin missing... alot of shit happened, i cracked!!! its breaking me down... while i watched the world spin around!!! while mah dreams slowly falling down! for something that i dont know... sometimes i feel like im all alone... that i dont exist... i feel left out... mah friends usually asked me y am i always happy... but they dont know what is really behind the happy face!!! i never let anyone in... i dont know how to appreciate what i have... forgive me... please forgive me for all the shit happened... and ppol who i shitted with... coz i know i've done something wrong in this life!!! {i fucked up!!! bigtime!!!}... if ever i can do it all over again... and have one more chance... i'll take the risk... to take all those wrongs to make them right... i dont wanna end up not knowing what ive become... it's hard to xplain... i feel like i dont belong here... always somewhat out of place evrywhere... and always be somwhere on the outside!!! although i tried... its me who keeps on going outside!.................................................. .......................................................... .......................................................... .......................................................... .....................................................XOXOX ..