Ever catch yourself lying to yourself just to make you feel better about who you are and then suddenly STOP and think this is nothing more then mental masturbation (without the payout).
Its all static in relationship and often filled with empty promises and delusional wishes. At best you can have purpose and pursue what is best for yourself and those you love and for that matter all you touch in life. I’m not pessimistic more of a realist (and an optimistic one at that), I see the future through human nature and the basic laws of statistics days, months, or even years ahead. I keep the results secret (even from my self sometimes) if I don’t like the outcome or relax with ease when I know it will all work out, which it most always does.
I play a close hand with an open heart. I’m not judgmental but I see most if not all things for what they really are. Kindness, honesty and being forthright is my religion, but I most certainly fall from grace sometimes. I’m eternally thankful for the people in my life, friends and family mean a lot to me and the concept and execution of trust is the basic binder of any relationship. I have done some really great things in my life and to be fair I have made some pretty shitty decisions also. These things don’t define me because that would be impossible; by definition I’m always evolving and changing either by desire or necessity. These choices and circumstances simply frame my life and feed other peoples need to label. I think deep, I love hard, pursue my passions, and try to be a good person. On a personal note I’m a father of a creative and intelligent bright eyed girl who could not imagine life without. I work as a R&D / QC technician which allows me to program, spill volatile chemicals, create bizarre products and sometimes blow things up, but most of the time it seems to mostly manufacture stress for myself.
If you want a "THRILLING" read, here are some of the projects I've worked on that have made it to patent.
Taggants for products and method of taggant identification
THREE-DIMENSIONAL AUTHENTICATION OF MICROPARTICLE MARK
AUTOMATIC MICROPARTICLE MARK READER
I like to be active and always wish I had more time and energy to be at the gym or doing any activity that makes me sweat. I dig gruesome horror flicks, hard metal and can be often seen clanking a shot in musty bars. In the winter I lust for snowboarding and in the summer I itch to camp. I like to cook and create but wouldn’t be caught dead watching Martha Stewart.
Most friends I have I’ve known for most of my life and have earned my loyalty no matter what kind of douchebaggery they pull. If you made it to the end of this longwinded, meaningless, and narcissistic mini bio. Go get a stretch and a snack. You’ve earned it.... MySpace Codes ..
