Jason Gochnaur is the love of my life, my second half, my everything...and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him!
We went out drinking, celebrating something.
I looked at you and said that "I'm forever yours."
You looked at me and said, "Oh, the idea of being in love."
The idea.
The idea of being forever yours.
You won't be leaving these arms ever
I promise you that"
I'm Bridgette. I hang out with my best friends pretty much every day of my life..and I wouldn't have it any other way.
I am 19 years. I am a sophmore at West Chester University and I LOVE it. I have an amazing boyfriend who finally treats me the way I deserve. I'm in love. I love weekends with him, and nothing is better than waking up right next to him. My life is pretty much perfect right now.
I have just started to accept that you can’t always get what you want.So you have to just grab a hold of what you can get and hold onto it for as long as you can, even if you’d much rather have someone else. I'm a girl full of ideas and things that will someday make someone happy. I may not be rich, or beautiful, or the best at anything, but I do know this. I'm a crazy girl who loves with all her heart, that puts everything she has into everything, who would [and did] love even the worst person. I'm the girl who most guys would love to think about being with but never really are, I'm that girl that loves to laugh more than anything else. I'm the girl who drives some guys crazy, but is loved by many because I am me, and I'm unique and genuine, and I think that counts for something.I've learned that sometimes there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay. Sometimes change may not be what we want. Sometimes change is what we really need. And sometimes saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do, but sometimes it's saying 'hello again' that breaks you down and makes you the most vulnerable person you'll ever know. Sometimes change is too much to bear, but most of the time change is the only thing saving your life. Sometimes, Faith isn't faith until it's all you're holding on to and maybe we have to break everything to make something better out of ourselves. That which does not kill us makes us stronger, right? Well, I'm not dead yet.
First and foremost, I am flawed. I let people get the best of me. I am too forgiving. I am not afraid to hurt your feelings. I don't like when I'm wrong. I don't really like it when I'm right either. I do not intentionally try to hurt people. I am honest. I do not like being lied to, but I put up with it because I am weak. I do not understand how people hurt the people they say they love, or why someone is willing to listen to someone who could care less about them, but not to someone who only wants the best for them. I am one of the most loyal people you will ever meet. If I don't like you, you will know it. I'm not going to pretend to like you. I am outgoing when I want to be. I love music. I love my family. I love my friends. I have absolutely no respect for anyone who would ever sleep with someone knowing they are in a realtionship. It's uncalled for. It's slutty. I understand people use that in a way to feel better about themselves, but in all honesty, they are pathetic.
I've learned a lot in my short life, some of it the easy way, and others not so easy. Sometimes people are the strongest when they have no one to hold them up. And in life, when you come upon something new or challenging, just know it's going to be ok. It's ok to want someone you can't have. It's ok to keep friendshipes when you don't want them or want something more. It's ok to cry when you hurt, and it's ok to stay mad at someone who hurt you. That's just how it works. Sometimes things don't work out how you want them to, and a lot of times, it seems like they never will, but it's ok, that's how it's supposed to go. It's all about learning how to deal with the bumpy parts in the road and wating til they're smooth again. It's all about forgiving and forgetting, its all about waiting and wishing. That's just how life is. I've learned that a best friend will pick a girlfriend over you, and no matter how much you love someone, there's always that possiblity that you could hurt them. I've learned you should never take anyone you love for granted, because one day, they will no longer be with you.
Life takes your dreams and turns them upside down; friends talk about you when you're not around. People make promises they just can’t keep, and I've come to realize that talk is cheap. Too often we don't realize what we have until it’s gone. Too often we wait to long to say "I’m sorry. I was wrong" sometimes it seems we hurt the ones we hold dearest to our hearts and we allow foolish things to tear our lives apart. Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. Maybe you have to let go of who you were to become who you will be. But I wish everyone didn't have such high expectations of me because it's bad enough I let myself down, I don't need to let everyone else down as well. One thing I truly know…know in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, know it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, know it deep in my empty chest, is how love gives someone the power to break you. And I, well, I've been broken beyond repair. Once you care about a person, it is impossibly to be logical about them anymore It’s weird...How you know the end of something great is coming, but you want to just hold on, just for one more second just so it can hurt a little more…I wait for the days where I will forget who you are. When the taste of your name sounds old and worn. I wait for the days when I won’t remember why I needed you so bad. So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.
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