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" pHILLIp is... "

People will talk bad about you and say untrue things just to have something to talk about.. -Shaun

About Me


05/02/07
The Truth is.. You wouldn't even recognize me anymore. I've changed clothes.. My skins a different shade of blue.. My personality is far from what it used to be. Things that were most important to me yesterday slipped into the waste bin outside my door. My walls are growing.. My heart is racing.. I'm a new boy. and eventually? I'll have a New Name altogether.
But the Best Part of it all? When all of you Bodies finally see the truth and realize I have changed.. You will be nothing but decrepit Skeletons shoved in my closet. You will scream and cry to be let free and I will lay on my bed laughing hard because you WILL BE TOO LATE... YOU WILL BE TOO LATE.
04/21/07
Like a collage I am ever changing. When people abandon me on the side of the road, I hitch hike.. knowing another car will gladly pick me up. I'd show you the stab wounds on my back, but it hurts so much I can't even lift my shirt. If you are naive then you might say I wear my heart on my sleeve.. if you're smart you'll say I don't have one.. But if you stick around long enough you'll see my heart just goes unnoticed. I used to love being on the front page news of the gossip channel, but now I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR IT.

My Interests



"Part of me is afraid to get close to people because I'm afraid that they're going to leave."
-Marilyn Manson

I'd like to meet:


A few guys and gals to hang out with over the summer..

Movies:


JESUS CHRIST SUPERSTAR.

Jesus?? In spandex? Singing and dancing around? Sweating and getting whipping? Screaming.. Crying.. and just wanting to be Loved? Dieing in the final hour because of shit that everyone else did? Wow. It's like the story of my life..

DUMBO.

"Wow." Only Disney can create such a pathetic character and have everyone mesmorized thinking he is cute. He is so desperate for friends that the only ones he can find are RATS. How depressing..

Television:


I will be scheduling my life around BIG BROTHER 8 coming on soon. I live, breathe, and die for that show.

Heroes:


These are My Real Heros. People who went down in history for what they believed in. Whether people thought they were innocent angels or an abomination to humanity... They will NEVER be forgotten for what they have contributed to the human race and my own personal life. That means more to me than life itself... To Be Remembered.
. . .
"A friend is one who has the same enemies as you have."
-Abraham Lincoln
"People will try to peck you to death like ducks. Most people don't have the 'kill you courage' to just come out and do it. They will take a little piece of your knee. Yeah.. They will take the flans off your nostrils... and the little bit of lobe off your ear.. hoping that you didn't even notice it."
-Maya Angelou
"They might not need me; but they might. I'll let my head be just in sight; a smile as small as mine might be precisely their necessity."
-Emily Dickinson
"No man is worth his salt who is not ready at all times to risk his well-being, to risk his body, to risk his life, in a great cause."
-Theodore Roosevelt
"I used to have to lay down and get my ass whipped till I couldn't walk. Tell me about some pain. Yeah."
-Charles Manson
"I'm tough, I'm ambitious, and I know exactly what I want. If that makes me a bitch, okay."
-Madonna
"Being born is like being kidnapped. And then sold into slavery."
-Andy Warhol
"Marriage. A word which should be pronounced: mirage."
-Herbert Spencer
"I would like to be remembered as a person who wanted to be free... so other people would be also free."
-Rosa Parks
"Surround yourself with only people who are going to lift you higher."
-Oprah Winfrey
"With a sad heart I say bye to you and wave.. Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made.."
-Blue October
"Nobody knows what you're thinking or feeling, unless you say it."
-Mister Rogers
"When you're taught to love everyone, to love your enemies, then what value does that place on love?"
-Marilyn Manson
"Great liars are also great magicians."
-Adolf Hitler
"We must combine the toughness of the serpent and the softness of the dove, a tough mind and a tender heart."
-Martin Luther King
"It'd be easy if you get mad, But three fingers point back to you."
-Jimmy Eat World
"All the adversity I've had in my life, all my troubles and obstacles, have strengthened me... You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you."
-Walt Disney

My Blog

to the people i once surrounded myself with..

(to the people i once surrounded myself with.. this one is for you.) dear family- you once told me that friends come and go, but family will stay by your side forever.. i once thought of this as an o...
Posted by " pHILLIp is... " on Mon, 23 Apr 2007 10:14:00 PST

If you want me to be honest..

If you want.. If you want me to be.. If you want me to be honest... Honest. Honest? Honest.. If you want me.. to be honest.. Nelson. I liked you. I liked you more than my favorite color, my ...
Posted by " pHILLIp is... " on Sun, 01 Apr 2007 10:17:00 PST

Confessions of JUNE 2006.

June.   A lot of hatred had been building up in me as the days and weeks kept passing without me. I stumbled in my friendships, relationships with my parents evaporated like puddles, and the...
Posted by " pHILLIp is... " on Mon, 05 Mar 2007 10:17:00 PST

Confessions of MAY 2006.

May.As another horrible semester at FCCJ came to a close, I began to question whether or not I should even go back. I had failed the majority of my classes yet again and I honestly didn't care. I had ...
Posted by " pHILLIp is... " on Wed, 21 Feb 2007 10:00:00 PST

"Air Conditioning Vents."

("This is intermission. The show will start again shortly.") Test Time. Write your name at the top of your papers please. I don't want anyone to fail. Hahaha. . . . I just want to say Thank ...
Posted by " pHILLIp is... " on Thu, 08 Feb 2007 07:26:00 PST

Confessions of APRIL 2006.

April.   It wasn't long after the original Dare Night that we were forced to make another one. After so many requests and fan mail, the letters kept flowing in from people wanting to p...
Posted by " pHILLIp is... " on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 03:43:00 PST

Confessions of MARCH 2006.

March.   History seems to repeat itself quite often in my life. Whenever I get into a rough patch and depression takes over my body, something sparks inside of me and I brutally drag m...
Posted by " pHILLIp is... " on Sat, 27 Jan 2007 10:36:00 PST

Confessions of FEBRUARY 2006.

  February.   Weeks went by with Patrick by my side. He continued to prove me wrong about my previous views from the year before. My promises of never loving again and only o...
Posted by " pHILLIp is... " on Mon, 15 Jan 2007 08:34:00 PST

Confessions of JANUARY 2006.

It has been exactly 1 year since I wrote My "Confessions of 2005" Blog. I went back and read it, simply for my own enjoyment and I realized that 2005 was a mere joke compared to what I ...
Posted by " pHILLIp is... " on Mon, 08 Jan 2007 10:39:00 PST

"Dare Night 3.5" (and) "my FRIENDS"

With your stun guns in hand, every single one of you zapped me endlessly yesterday... Like two gangs of robbers attacking a cop, I got hit with the back lash of all of my FRIENDS scratching...
Posted by " pHILLIp is... " on Sun, 17 Dec 2006 08:31:00 PST