Ryan [So In love With Marco]

Add x Message x Comment To began, my name is Ryan, im gay ad in love with my baby Marco. Everyone/Everything has a moral or story behind their life, quite frankly I don't know where mine is going. I, for sure know my happy ending lives an eternity away. Once I'm ready, I'll do anything to get to it. Until then, I'll settle for what I have. Which at the moment seems to be nothing, or anyone? I give my all to most and get nothing in return, its okay though, loving and caring is something I learned to be from a very special person, maybe one day the rest of the world will catch up. I get stepped on and betrayed by the people I love the most, yet still look forward to another day. Everything and everyone important to me always seems to slip away, with no legit reason as to why or how. It's something I'm learning to deal with, but I still don't think it's fair. Then again nothing seems to go as planned, and life has never been fair. I take reality for what it is. I'm not perfect, I'm not trying to be, nor will I ever be. I don't think I'm better than anyone, don't want too, never will, never have. I do stupid things with no explanation as to why. I drink and "get fucked up" cause it makes me "happy." What a load of bullshit, and I'm not content with it. I've grown up and I know what's right for me. I also know who’s right for me, I just can’t seem to grasp on to him or the concept yet. I get in more drama than you can possibly imagine I don’t even care because every up and down makes life a battle, conquer it. I can assure you I'm not who you expect me to be and I'm a whole different person. My personality varies and I socialize with whom ever, when ever. Not that your opinion matters to me whatsoever. I'm looking for something that will take time to receive, I can wait. Good things in life take time.