Son of Perdition

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Nihil lacrima citius arescit
Tears of Angst
To reach out and and be scorched by the beauty.
In complete unrest, shedding tears of angst.
How I want to hold it and make it my own.
Your darkness, your beauty.
Lest I be destroyed.
Holding the fraility in my heart.
Watching the pieces turn to crimson ash, which are blown in the winds of dismay.
This heart beats none the sooner I touch your gentle lips.
For I can not have this.
This torn beauty.
In complete unrest, shedding tears of angst.
This darkness holds no closure.
No comfort in your glow.
These hands shall hold no greater than the emptiness of time.
Watch my dreams of beauty.
For they crumble unto dust.
In complete unrest, shedding tears of angst.
'04 DeLucia
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The Summary
I am a Modern Satanist. First, I better add that I do not worship Satan. Many Modern Satanists don't even believe in an actual being called Satan, this includes myself. Satan in Modern Satanism is a symbolic metaphor for Man's animal nature as well as many other things. I do not believe in a god as defined by many right-hand religions. I believe that I am my own god. I indulge in the earthly pleasures. I believe in responsibility to the responsible. As a Satanist I learn from my life, I form my own opinions. I let no other tell me what to think or how to act. I am an individual, and I am proud of that!
If you have any questions, please feel free to ask me! Though if you don't come with open-mind don't expect me to put up with you, instead prepare for a verbal attack unlike any other you have previously experienced.
Please, go here for more information: Wikipedia: Satanism
I guess I should mention my name, which is Matt. Also known as Ash in some corners of the internet. Call me either of those, I don't care.
I am a very dark person, thus I enjoy the darker aspects of humanity and nature. I surround myself with others of like-mind, those who also call themselves and show themselves to be dark.
I enjoy the gothic subculture; the music, the art, and the literature. I love dark imagery and people who think as I do about this pathetic existence called life.
One could call me a metalhead, as I do indulge in the various types of metal. I am big into bands like Slayer, Lamb of God, Opeth and Slipknot. I also fucking love Death Metal and Black Metal like Cannibal Corpse, Bloodbath, Rotting Christ, Old Mans Child, Behemoth, Amon Amarth and many others. I fucking love metal.
I love the German language, I can't speak it but I know a few words and phrases, I hope to one day learn it all.
I'm not a mean person, not in the general sense anyway. If someone does something to try an hurt me or those I care about, then yeah I can be mean. I have a huge anger problem though, when I get angry, I get really angry.
Even though the darker things attract me I don't like to sit around alone all the time and spew curses at the walls. I do enjoy fun, and who really doesn't? I drink, I smoke, I kick my feet up and try and relax. Nothing wrong with that is there?
I like to laugh and make others laugh. I think I have a good sense of humor, if not obscure and completely insane at some points. All in good fun, though.
I just wants to have fun in life and enjoy it with friends. I hate pain and I hate to see others that I care about in it. Well emotional pain at least, physical pain can have it's advantages in certain situations.
I am a poet, and yes poetry is art. So therefore I am an artist especially these recent days. I wrote that poem up above about a dark love that I would never have. I am working on a compilation and getting this compilation published.
In Torment in Hell
Seriously, if you want to learn more about who I am, I always love to chat with people who listen. Just send me a message.
"Let me give you a little inside information about God. God likes to watch. He's a prankster. Think about it. He gives man instincts. He gives you this extraordinary gift, and then what does He do, I swear for His own amusement, his own private, cosmic gag reel, He sets the rules in opposition. It's the goof of all time. Look but don't touch. Touch, but don't taste. Taste, don't swallow. Ahaha. And while you're jumpin' from one foot to the next, what is he doing? He's laughin' His sick, fuckin' ass off! He's a tight-ass! He's a SADIST! He's an absentee landlord! Worship that? NEVER!" - John Milton, Devil's Advocate