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~My Fantasy Has Come To An End...~

~For I Have To Leave This Place Once Again...~

About Me

My name is Ali Knox or PFC Knox. I am a soldier for the US Army National Guard. I went to Basic Training at Fort Jackson, South Carolina. I am going to my AIT this coming summer in 2007. I am a student at Collinsville High School and then I am going to go to college at SIUE. I'm going to change myself to where I stick to myself and not bother anyone except when I am at drill. I am a very nice, very funny, honest, reliable, strong, and very loving. I love to be with my friends. And thats about it.
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My Interests

I have very many interests. I am interested n singing, acting, awesome Army shit. I am interested in playing my guitar and beating the hell out of myself with weights. (I promise you its worth it with the body I am getting now!)once on a yellow piece of paper, he wrote a poem and he called it "chops" because that was the name of his dog. and that's what it was about and his teacher gave him an A and a gold star and his mother hung it on the door and read it to his aunts that was the year father tracy took all the kids to the zoo and let them sing on the bus that was the year his little sister was born with tiny toenails and no hair and his mother and father kissed a lot and the girl around the corner sent him a valentine signed with a row of x's and he had to ask his father what the x's meant and his father always tucked him in at night and was always there to do it once on a piece of white paper with blue lines he wrote a poem called "autumn" because that was the name of the season snd that's what it was all about and his teacher gave him an A and asked him to write more clearly and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because of its new paint and the kids told him that father tracy smoked cigars and left butts on the pews and sometimes they would burn holes that was the year his sister got glasses with thick lenses and black frames and the girl around the corner laughed when he asked her to go see santa claus and the kids told him why his mother and father kissed a lot and his father never tucked him in at night and got mad when he cried for him to do it once on a piece of paper torn from his notebook he wrote a poem called "innocence; a question" because that was the question about his girl and that's what is was all about and his professor gave him an A and a strange steady look and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door becaue he never showed her that was the year that father tracy died and he forgot how the end of apostle's creed went and he caught his sister making out on the back porch and his mother and father never kissed or even talked and the girl around the corner wore too much makeup that made him cough when he kissed her but he kissed her anyway because that was the thing to do and at three a.m he tucked himself into bed his father snoring soundly that's why on the back of a brown paper bag he tried another poem and he called it "absolutely nothing" becaue that's what it was really about and he gave himself an A and a slash on each damned wrist and he hung it on the bathroom door because he didn't think he could reach the kitchen

I'd like to meet:

I would really like to meet all those soldiers that are over seas right now and shake their hands and ask them how it is over there. I just would like to know since someday it will be me over there. And I need to know how to stay alive. I am proud to be part of the US Army family. I give my credit and much thanks to my recruiter SGT. Seanz. Thank you SGT. HOOAY!!!"Dont stab your friends in the FUCKING back!!!"
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Music:

Well...Puddle of Mudd, Trapt, System of a Down, Metallica, Hoobastank, 3 Doors Down, Thursday, New Found Glory, The Used, Simple Plan, Good Charlotte, Nickelback, Disturbed, Dashboard Confessional, Smile Empty Soul, All American Rejects, Alien Ant Farm, Avenged Sevenfold, HIM, My Chemical Romance, Taking Back Sunday, Matchbook Romance, Finch, Shadows Fall, Senses Fail, CKY, Story of the Year, Slipknot, Eighteen Visions, Green Day, Hinder, Blink 182, Rancid, AC/DC, Guns n' Roses, Rolling Stones, Fall Out Boy, MXPX, Aerosmith, Hawthorne Heights, Evanescence, Coheed and Cambria, Atreyu, Breaking Benjarmin, The Vandals, AFI, Chevelle, Ozzy Osbourne, Led Zepplin, Black Sabbath, White Stripes, Pink Floyd, Unwritten Law, Sum 41, Minor Threat, Funeral For a Friend, Alkaline Trio, COmeback Kid, Cartel, A change of Pace, POD, Three Eye Blind, ICP, Staind, Tool, Korn, Shinedown, Blue October, Seether, Creed, Sublime, Crossfade...and so many more fucking awesome bands!!!
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Movies:

Rent, Four Brothers, The Break Up, Center Stage, Finding Nemo, The Polar Express, Scarface, And all those fucking awesome war movies that I cant get enough of!!!
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Television:

I spoke to this girl, and I believed what she said, so I fell in love with the girl, said we'd be together to the end. I was in love with this girl, so I believed all her lies, after 7 months passed, no more I love you's only goodbyes. I loved that girl, so I grabbed a knife, but after a year, I soon saved my life. I fell in love with a girl, I made her my world, everything I did, was all for this girl. But as time when on, my feelings have changed, but I kept on trying, to make my feelings rearrange. 19 months passed, and I gave up all hope, I broke up with that girl, the love I had was broke. I fell in love with this girl, she was straight as could be, she said she had feelings, that she wanted to try with me. I was in love with this girl, but a girl was not enough, she riped my heart and threw it out, the pain was a little rough. Im falling in love with this girl, but I just will not try, cause I know if I do, she will only make me cry.  Click banner for article. Click here for code.  
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Books:

I sit here and stare at a picture of you,And wipe my tears away,And thinking of what could have become,But then you said no today.I Love you could not explain how I feel,Cause its not enough to show whats real. I understand how you feel,But I dont know what to do,I know you love him very much,And Im just a shadow behind you.I need a chance to show you Im right,That Ill hold you close all through the night.I wont let you go,Not this fast,I'll give you something,That will always last.Baby...I Love you.
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Heroes:

Myself, my father, my mother, my bestfriend, SGT. Seanz.
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My Blog

Why is this so hard?

The pain I keep on fighting, Just wont go away, The pain just gets stronger, By each and every day. I seem to try and hide my tears, So I stand out in this rain, And as the water rolls down my face,...
Posted by ~My Fantasy Has Come To An End...~ on Wed, 11 Apr 2007 08:17:00 PST

~I Fell In Love With A Girl...~

I spoke to this girl, and I believed what she said, so I fell in love with the girl, said we'd be together to the end. I was in love with this girl, so I believed all her lies, after 7 months passed, ...
Posted by ~My Fantasy Has Come To An End...~ on Mon, 09 Apr 2007 09:35:00 PST

The Greatest Feeling In The World!

Like OMG! I love this feeling! Ok...so to let everyone know...I am not letting anything drag me down again. I am going to go back to the happy Ali again. I am really sorry about these past couple week...
Posted by ~My Fantasy Has Come To An End...~ on Tue, 13 Mar 2007 07:28:00 PST

~Why Does Life Have To Be So Hard?~

I just dont know what to do anymore...i feel like i am falling to pieces before my own eyes and i am to scared to pick them all back up and try to put them together. I am not in love with the girl tha...
Posted by ~My Fantasy Has Come To An End...~ on Thu, 01 Mar 2007 07:08:00 PST

Something...

Its 2 am in the morning, and your falling fast asleep, Why am I the one, Falling at your feet.Why cant I be the one, To hold you close to me, And tell you that I love you, And that will always be...Ju...
Posted by ~My Fantasy Has Come To An End...~ on Sat, 20 Jan 2007 09:18:00 PST

What To Do...

It kills me to think that I dont think that I could live here anymore. I love this place so much and this is the first place that I ever felt like I was at home. Let me sum it up for you. My parents g...
Posted by ~My Fantasy Has Come To An End...~ on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 02:10:00 PST

What has happened to me...?

I try to look at myself in the mirror...but i cant seem to find myself. I feel so lost in this world. I love her so much...but as the days go by...i feel i am hurting her more cause I am leaving soon....
Posted by ~My Fantasy Has Come To An End...~ on Mon, 15 Jan 2007 09:14:00 PST

~Crazy For You~

Ok...so I sat around at Shaneece's house all day thinking about you. I wanted to call you but I was so scared. So stupid me had her call but you didnt answer anyway. I just cant help thinking about yo...
Posted by ~My Fantasy Has Come To An End...~ on Fri, 12 Jan 2007 07:31:00 PST

A little Thing

Everyday I look into the same mirror and look at myself over and over. I wondered why I did the same thing every day one I am looking at the same thing every day. I guess I am trying to look at myself...
Posted by ~My Fantasy Has Come To An End...~ on Mon, 08 Jan 2007 06:06:00 PST