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1 time KiLLAh

Satisfaction is the death of desire............

About Me

ME = I was born in Lemuria and that say's a lot about who I am...I’m Mr. Middle finger to the LAW, Eye for an Eye, I often get rowdy and stay boisterous, yet I’m artful & well versed. Raised with much struggle & strife I‘m still here and prominent. I love those who hate or doubt me, for they are the inspiration I need. I’m an international honor thespian, been acting on stage, commercials, film, both national/local for over a decade. Ask anyone who’s worked with me, I’m an actor’s actor. As well a comedian, martial artist, writer, director, gangster/ racketeer, choreographer, poet, bastard, educator, music enthusiast, ex-convict, comic book geek, gentleman, mommas boy, rebel, who love’s reading and debating philosophical/political issues, as well as rapping and fronting a metal band (One-Time Killer). I love to disrupt conventional thinking with my words and creativity, rather then provoke thought I poke it with a sharp sword. I live life with a sort of ruthless ambition, I like to shock and awe, I’m in touch with my raw emotions. I’m into a lot of aggressive as well as classical thing‘s. I fancy myself a pseudo- psychologist (I analyze everything), when it comes to approaching a lot of things that interest me I like to take the lead, I am also a strong believer in self-education . My only real moral is loyalty, I do have a very open heart though, and love everyone I CAN trust to the fullest. I stand up for my beliefs but I’m always open to understand another’s. I'm not one to swallow my pride and I‘m a pretty nice guy, but you fuck with someone I love I'll be quick to have a glock to your head. I don't drink or smoke my only real vices revolve around making quick money. I’m probably the most unconventional, honest , romantic (if FEMALE) and interesting person you will ever meet. I think humble, free-thinking woman with nice lips, brown eye’s, and who or really passionate for at least one form of art our the greatest creation’s I can ever lay my eye’s upon. I also don’t give a fuck about the law and the status quo, because I’m to busy giving a fuck about my ideas/goals and the ones I love. My goal in life is to be a financially successful actor/rock star/rapper/screenplay writer/director and not necessarily be famous, just want to be able to make a significant impact on people through art. 2nd goal, to be a revolutionary pioneer so when I die people will have my face on their shirts & movies will be made about me. Fuck the opulent White, respect woman who respect themselves, get money, take money, help those who "truly" need it, don’t let fiction dictate your life, be yourself not those around you, know the TRUTH, educate your self, tell conservatives to "shut-up" when needed, don't give a fuck about Black or Hispanic Cops, learn everything derives from ART, know if you live by the gun you will die by it, love and be loyal, don’t deceive yourself because freedom is living without life-lies, don’t be a coward or your better off leaving me the FUCK ALONE! ............................................................ ............................................................ .........................................................___ R.I.P G-DUBB___R.I.P. Ray "SNEEKS" Frolen___R.I.P. ACE BOOGIE___R.I.P. TRIPPY___FREE*CHIZAD!....................................... ............................................................ ................. MY THOUGHT'S I WOULD LIKE TO SHARE....................................................... ................................MY VEIWS ON LOVE = Love inspires, illuminates, designates, creates and leads the way, so when it is vacant you are left lost. The only good thing about heart strings coming undone, is that your heart may not make easy, beautiful music like it used to, but it cause's one to strive for better, in respect to art or artists, it cause's us to work with what we got, what's left, to take the few heart strings and make what music, what art we can from it. It makes us put are pain, sorrow, and angst into whatever, poetry, music, painting, filming what ever art one does, and hopefully the end result is gratifying, and will aid in filling the hole your left with inside yourself. To me the tragedy of life is not that we die, but is rather, what dies inside of us while we live, and when love dies there in lies a great torment. What is love? As far as I can tell, it is passion, admiration, and respect. If you have two, you have enough. If you have all three, you don't have to die to go to heaven...................................................... ....................................... ............................................................ ............................................................ ..........................................MY GIFT & MY CURSE = The truly creative mind in any field is no more than this. A human creature born abnormally, inhumanely sensitive. To them a touch is a blow, a sound is music, a misfortune is a tragedy, a joy is an ecstasy, a friend is family, a lover is a god, and failure is death. Add to this cruelly delicate organism the overpowering necessity to create, CREATE, so that without the creating of music, poetry, books, characters or buildings or something of meaning, their very breath is cut off. They must create, must pour out creation. By some strange, unknown, inward urgency they are not really alive unless they are creating.................................................... ............................................................ ...........................................MY VEIWS ON LIFE = My views on “life” are of extreme romanticism. A feeling that the world is far stranger than we think, that the reality we know is only a small part of the total reality and that the human imagination is the key to this hidden and more inclusive reality, as well, imagination with artistry is the key to showing naturalism that escapes others in life. This position I hold is now completely out of fashion; innless you talk to free thinkers and other well crafted artistic individuals…Because as artist’s all we have is our imagination our hands and our mouths to think, make and speak TRUTH…beautiful and grim truth....................................................... ............................................................ .......................MY VEIWS ON RELIGION = Let me start off by saying as a philosopher and free-thinker I strongly coincide with the idea of where there is doubt there is freedom; a wise man will tell you he knows nothing . But what I do know is ancient cultures did not worship idols. Their god-statues represented ideal states which, when meditated constantly upon, one might aspire to. Science proves there never was a mermaid, blue-skinned Krishna or a virgin birth in physical reality. Yet thought is real, and the domain of thought is the one place where gods inarguably exist, wielding tremendous power. If Aphrodite were a myth and Love only a concept, then would that negate the crimes and kindnesses and songs done in Love's name? If Christ were only ever fiction, a divine Idea, would this invalidate the social change inspired by that idea, make holy wars less terrible, or human betterment less real, less sacred? ............................................................ ............................

My Interests

FAMILY!Acting a fool!Exspanding my mind and helping open others minds.Being over analytical (can't help it)Jazz clubs, open mic's, Metal concerts, Eastside clubbinMaking money in anyway and anyhow from murderville 2 the county I make scrilla ya heard.Kicking it with my brother Nick.Drinking juice.Being an overall badazz.Discussing music with my cousin Mario.Scaring rich gringos with my cousin Fransisco.Filming stuff and making fun of weird and stupid people with my best freind Andy.Making dames wet. (I can't help it)Reading comic books.Reaserching shit I don't understand but am intrigued by.Song writtingPOETRY, I write about what inspires me to strengthen my mind, loyalty,love and soul...Art is resistance and resistance gives birth to change, watch me change the world you fuckz, watch."When you're taught to love everyone, to love your enemies, then what value does that place on love?"...a quote I live by, even though I am one of the most interesting and loyal people one could run into , I bomb on my enemy's and have no love for those who seek my down fall or those who I deem ignorant.

I'd like to meet:

Anyone who has an open mind and has a passion for at least some form of art.. ....

[Marital Status] i'm not married and dont plan on getting married any time soon.
[Shoe size] 12 1/2.
[Parents still together] No, my dad was murdered when i was 4.
[Siblings] I have a Sister and a Brother that I didn't get to ever meet till I was 22.
[Pets] a dog named TOKA, and a ferret named SPAZ.
fAvoRiTeS
[Color] RED, black, gray
[Number] 8
[Animal] hyena
[Drinks] cant go wrong with poweraid
[Soda] vault (which i think is just surge with a new name, remember surge?)
[Book] Any graphic novel worth reading, or anything that's informative to my interest's
[Flower] fuck em
dO yOu...?
[Color your hair?] NO.
[Twirl your hair?] i dont have much hair to twirl.
[Have tattoos?] Yes I do.
[Have Piercings?] yes 4
[Cheat on tests/homework?] when i can, fuck being a goodie 2 shoes.
[Drink/Smoke?] NO,i'm crazy enough as it is.
[Like roller coasters?] hell yes i love hights.
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] i love CHICAGO.
[Want more piercings?] yes, but i'm an actor and casters hate them.
[Like cleaning?] who the fuck likes cleaning, but when i'm bald i do some what resemble mr clean.
[Write in cursive or print?] always print (its easier to read)
[Own a web cam?] i dont even own a decent computer and i shure as hell wouldnt know how to work a web cam.
[Know how to drive?] yes.
[Own a cell phone?] yes, and i love it.
[Ever get off the damn computer?] (Sarcastically )i'm only on the computer about an hour a week.
hAvE yOu eVeR...?
[Been in a fist fight?] more then i can remember
[Considered a life of crime?] I'd say 50% of my life, i've been involved with crime, basicly i like crime, just not when it hurts poor people.
[Considered being a hooker?] No, im'm no slut.
[Lied to someone?] all the fucking time but not to people who have gained my trust.
[Been in love?] Been in love once, i'm still waiting for ms.Right to come along, FEMALES HOLLA!.
[Made out with JUST a friend?] No.
[Been in lust?] im a fucking male, i'm in lust all the time.
[Used someone] i dont think so.
[Been used?] plenty of times.
[Been cheated on?]
[Kicked someone in the nuts?]
[Stolen anything?] yep.
[Held a gun] yep.
&..39;cUrrEntS '
[Current clothing] im naked with chocalte all over my body.
[Current mood] good.
[Current taste] winter fresh gum
[What you currently smell like] green jeans (its a colone)
[Current hair] brown and short
[Current thing I ought to be doing] doing somthing creativly constructive so i can get rich.
[Current cd in stereo] a nina simone live cd
[Last book you read] Ghost rider #87
[Last movie you saw] A Jada Fire Porno
[Last thing you ate] some ribs
[Last person you talked to on the phone] Mario Mathon a.k.a my cusin FAMMO.
[Do drugs?] No, but i do advocate selling them to stupid people for profit.
[Believe there is life on other planets?] most defintly
Remember your first love?] yes
[Still love him/her?] yes as a freind.
[Read the newspaper?] rarely
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] yes
[Believe in miracles?] no more then i believe in the Easter bunny.
[Do well in school?] 50/50
[Wear hats] sometimes.
[Hate yourself?] evrey other day.
[Have an obsession?] females and comic books.
[Collect anything?] comic books and commic book shit,CD's (you guyz rember cd's you would BUY them from a store then unwrap them and put the disk in your CD PLAYER; YEZ I'M ONE OF THE ONLY 14 PEOPLE LEFT WITH AN ACTUAL CD PLAYER, FUCK ALL THAT i-SHIT, I keep it ol'skool ya dig .nput type='hidden' name='question68' value='%5BCollect+anything%3F%5D+'>
[Have a best friend?] ,Andy Morris

[Close friends?] My Cuzzo's Francisco, Mario; Plus Nick, Jon, Truman, Sleet, Prince E, and evryone else I'm down for, they know who they are, all 10 or so of them.
[Like your handwriting?] not really.
[Care about looks] i'm an actor/model I have to care.
Do you lOvE LiFe <3 Evrey other day
[First crush] Rayneshia
[First kiss] Dayshia
[Do you believe in love at first sight?] no. but i do believe in I want to smash you in first sight.
[Do you believe in "the one?"] yeah, i hope i find her.
[Are you a tease?] i've been told i am before.
[Too shy to make the first move?] sometimes.
aRe yOu...?
[Daydreamer] yes, yes, yes, all the time.
[Bitch/Asshole] defintly an asshole.
[sarcastic] its part of being an asshole
[Angel] in a lot of ways yes, i help and take out of pocket when i can.
[Devil] in more ways anyone would know.
[Shy] NEVER!
[Talkative] borderline if i dont really know you, but if your a freind man i could talk to you for hours on how fucked up the world iz.

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Music:

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50's and 60's,Jazz, All that crunk shit that getz over played on the radio and SilverChair, Lupe Fiasco, OPERA, SoundGarden, Don Omar, Michael Jackson (when he was black),Jay-Z, Lionel Richie, G-UNIT, Lloyd Banks (the best the unit gotz),Icepick, Peedi Crakk, Sade, Unloco, Femi Kuti, The Coup, Alicia Keys, Atlantis morissette, Tego Calderon, Korn,A fine frenzy, Pastor Troy, Ne-yo, Ill Nino, Rich boy, E-town concrete, Nina Simone, Daddy Yankee, Anthony Hamilton, Dj Starscream, Papoose, Jeezy, Common, Westside Connect Gang, N.E.R.D., Live, Team Sleep, Dead Prez, PM5K, Bone thugs, Talib Kweli, lauren hill, Dream theatre, 40 Below summer, Slipknot, Candiria, Metallica, the Strokes, Finger Eleven, Demon hunter, Nas, coldplay, A perfect circle, Gnarls Barkley, Falling season, the yeah yeah yeahs, American head charge, Lupe Fiasco, Lil Boosie, Billie Holiday, method man, Camp lo, Pitbull, Yo Gotti, No doubt, Pat Benatar, Pantera, TUPAC!!!, Biggie Smalls, Ludacris, David Banner, M.O.P., Hootie and the blowfish,The Temptations, Nat Cole, Chamillionaire, Tenacious D, Stanley Clarke, Al Green, Justin Timberlake, Prince,Snoop , Dr Dre, NWA, Natalie Imbruglia, PUBLIC ENEMY, Kenny G, Del Tha Funkee Homosapian, Kem, Bad Brains, Lil Jon, One time killer (my band), Meshuggah, Tha Dogg Pound, N.O.R.E., Erika Badu, Victor Wooten, Red hot chili pepers, Stone temple pilot, Ice Cube, The Clipse, Primer 55, old Limp Bizkit (but that last album waz kinda dope), Jamiroquai, Miles Davis, My Chemical Romance, Jimi Hendrix, John Lennon, Immortal Technique, The Union Underground, Gang Starr, Wu Tang Clan (yeah son, WU TANG DUN!), Kittie, Jimmies Chicken shack, Avenged Sevenfold, B-Real, Endo, KRS One, Eric B. &; Rakim, x-Clan, Ras Kass, Insane Clown Posse, UGK, Master P, Three 6 Mafia, Hatebreed, Flaw, Gwar, Bjork, Fugees, Bo Hagon, nonpoint, the doors, Silent civilian, Ray Cash, Mindless Self Indulgence, Lenny Kravitz, Devil Driver, 10 years, Panic at the disco, Phil Collins, m.c. strife, Corinne Bailey Rae, Amphibious assault, Twiztid, Metallica, DipSet, Ol' Dirty Bastard, R.Kelly, Chimaira, Taproot, Esham, Styles P, MF Doom, Nine Inch Nails, Bushwick Bill, Matthew, When november falls,13 days,fallout boy, Blackmarket hero, Nirvana, Freeway, White Zombie, Everlast, STAIND, The blood hound gang, Darklotus, Mushroomhead, Sevendust,Wicked Wisdom, Ice T, Keshia Cole, Insolence, Body count, Eazy E, Redman, Sepultura, Soulfly, Deftones( they fucking RULE!), Incubus, Aesop Rock, Ryan Cabrera, Jonny Cash, One side zero, Weezy, Methods Of Mayhem, Mudvayne, Spineshank, Coal Chamber, Twista, Biohazard, Onyx, crossbreed, Static X, Pearl Jam, Stone sour, Killswitch Engage, HedPE (If you don?t have their very first album you don?t know how much in life your missing), Jadakiss, Beyonce knowles,House Of Pain, Shuvel, P .O. D., Mobb deep, Drowning pool, Black Rob, Subzero, Cypress Hill, Reveille , Brand new, System Of A Down, The Roots, Mxpx, De La Soul, Inspector Deck ,Seal, Mos Def, Eyedea and Abilities , Green Jelly, Supertones, TLC, New found glory, Ruben Stuudered, Fear Factory, T.I., Atmosphere, 8ball MJG the Pharcyde, The clash, Rage Against The Machine (MY FAVRIOTE FUCKING BAND), Cold, Jin, Adema, InFlames, Living Color, Linkin Park, Chino XL, Hawthorne Heights, Factory 81, Otep, Papa Roach (well their first album at least),E 40, Oukast, Run DMC, Shattermask, Tech N9ne, Body head bangerz,Video Drone, Alice in Chains, the old Busta Rhymes, Coolio, Orgy, DMX, Big Punisher, Sticky Fingaz, V-Ice, Getto boys, South African stuff and Some '80s Music and other shit..............................................

Movies:

There Will Be Blood, Higher Learning, Natural Born Killers, The Dead Girl, Blade, American Psycho, She Hate Me, Dirty Work, Heat, A History of Violence, Othello & Hamlet (Kenneth Branagh versions), Gangs of New York, Falling Down, Juice, Pan's Labyrinth,King Kong (1933 version),Mortal Kombat, The Departed, Masters of the Universe, The Fly 1&2, Alien, Training Day, Star Wars: The emperor strikes back, The Glass Shield, Nightmare Before Christmas, Michael Clayton, Batman, Hotel Rwanda, Demolition Man, Gandhi, Crash, The Last King of Scotland, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Claudine, Harold and Kumar go to White Castle, Milo and Otis, Return to OZ, A Raisin in the Sun (the 1961 version), Predator 1&2, American History X, ANY COMIC BOOK MOVIE, and yes, Scarface…

Television:

Watching episodes of cops that have the suspect getting away from those fucking pigs,Human Gaint,late night with Connan O'brian,Oprah, CNN,George Lopez show, Most Shocking, Mad Men, Who wants to be a superhero, BET, My wife and kids,Chriss Angel mind freak, History Channel,VH1,TLC, UPN, Discovery chanel and comedy central. I‘ll watch anything informative to my liking or anything funny. I don’t really watch a lot of tv though, I'd rather be reading, creating, spending time with my freinds or making love to a girlfreind, or just thinking thoughts sometimes as odd as that sounds...

Books:

Many, many play’s, mostly drama’s or dramedy’s; Any play that’s unconventional or avant-garde or that delves into the human condition in regards to struggle or takes a negative view of the human condition. Anything by William Blake. The Picture of Dorian Gray, Of mice and men, Pride of Baghdad, Power of one, Psychological science, Death of satan, Beyond Good and Evil, Jimmy Corrigan smartest kid on Earth,Enders Game, Frankenstein: The Modern Prometheus ,Congo,The Female Brain, Strange Case of Dr Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, Mary Reilly,The Tragical History of Doctor Faustus, Where the red fern grows, Maus 1 & 2, The Autobiography of Malcolm X, Spetsnack, NISA:the life and words of a !Kung woman,Webster’s Dictionary, Race the Reality of Human Differences, The Wadsworth Anthology of Drama, Mugging of Black America, Dante’s Inferno, Getting it Wrong, Holy Bible the king James version, The old man and the sea, Paradise Lost, Marx and Marxism, Larouche and Acts of Crisis, Dr.Dre In The Studio, Why we live here: A look on race and segregation, Palestine,the big red strawberry and the hungry bear,Book of Enoch, White privilege, Irish Experience, EarthX,The Wealth of Nations, MARVEL comics, Elephent man, Watchmen, Image Comics,ANGEL’S the messengers of the divine, Mystery’s of the World, alright I’m tired of typing…and many, many more.....“Learn from me how dangerous is the acquirement of knowledge, and how much happier that man is who believes his native town to be the world, than he who aspires to become greater than his nature will allow.” Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein...

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Heroes:

MYSELF! Zack de la Rocha, All those single momz raising they kidz good without a man to help them, My mother, Spider-man, Anita Lippmin,Aron Lewis, Ice-T, Raphel (the ninja turtle),Wu-Tang Clan, Dr. Doom, Muhammad Ali, M.C. U.D, Deftones, En Sabah Nur , Silver Surfer, Thích Qu?ng Ð?, Maynard James Keenan, Louis Farrakhan, Green Ranger, Friedrich Nietzsche,Erin Gruwell, anyone who is doing their part to open peoples eyes and strive for revolution.

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Posted by 1 time KiLLAh on Wed, 03 Sep 2008 08:46:00 PST

"MISTAKE"

I am a mistake"Experience" is the name everyone gives to their mistakes But me label mine "experience", neverMy mistakes are never foolish, no they are ever so cleaverEnter me, THE MISTAKEI wallow in ...
Posted by 1 time KiLLAh on Tue, 27 May 2008 11:49:00 PST

The song that defines me...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Us6PF4sinU ...
Posted by 1 time KiLLAh on Tue, 06 May 2008 04:03:00 PST

I THINK I FOUND MY DREAM GIRL...

  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JsXK1w0Yrm4   GOING TO GO SEE THEM IN A FEW WEEKZ......
Posted by 1 time KiLLAh on Tue, 29 Apr 2008 03:40:00 PST

I lay my eyes upon the saddest sight...

I lay my eyes upon the saddest sight I ever could this cool spring night. A beautiful fallen Angel distraught and tearful& Her eye’s once magic, now turned crimson red,She was once burning with ...
Posted by 1 time KiLLAh on Tue, 18 Mar 2008 01:40:00 PST

15-year-old Lawrence King was shot and killed for being gay.

On February 12th, 2008, 15-year-old Lawrence King was shot and killed at E.O. Green School in Oxnard, California.A fellow student (aged 14 years old) came into their school's computer lab and shot Law...
Posted by 1 time KiLLAh on Fri, 07 Mar 2008 08:59:00 PST

I, Destiny

Hearts beat&You don't have any memories.No thought before this one.This is awareness. And with it , the oceanic void you've been floating in begins to move. It sweeps you forward, then pulls you back....
Posted by 1 time KiLLAh on Mon, 04 Feb 2008 12:22:00 PST

HEY DICKHEAD, WHY DON’T YOU OPEN UP THE DOOR FOR HER?

NOTE: When referring to Feminism, I am referring to the modern movement from 1980ish on. The radical male bashing type, not the type of feminism that formed to deal the inequality woman had, but the t...
Posted by 1 time KiLLAh on Sun, 20 Jan 2008 03:46:00 PST

Pro-? by Matthew A

http://umsl.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=7312272217&ref =m
Posted by 1 time KiLLAh on Sun, 06 Jan 2008 03:37:00 PST

ALL TO DO WITH sEX, DRUGS, MONEY, APPLES AND MORE...

I rule where ignorance is abundant. I am feverish but powerful and manipulative, with a vengeful grip. I am the sweetest of desires for the walking wounded , for the confused or weak. I move more so ...
Posted by 1 time KiLLAh on Sun, 06 Jan 2008 11:03:00 PST