CRAZYCATATONIC

MySpace GlitterTheres nothing to really say anymore I'm not who I use to be. I can't fight for what I don't even understand and I no longer understand happiness is it real or is it a once in a life time experience? I think I had it already in this lifetime so whats next? I write to feel better and yet somehow I think I tapped into the darker side of me did I raise up someone that should not be or did I finally find myself? Could I really be this person who stares back at me from my mirror? Or am I just letting go of life? I need help! I can't do this anymore I have gone bonkers I put up a front to those I love most I can laugh even if I don't find it funny! I can smile even though my heart is breaking! I'm a fake a phony maybe I'm not even real who knows.