First off theres a couple of major things u need to know about me, and no im not saying it or doing it for attention, if im putting this up here at all i dont care what u have to say about me or what i am or do.
A. I have major depression, and no im not saying that becus i want u all to feel bad for me im saying it cus i just am, so get ovur urselves!
B. Im bi-polor, yupp took this long for me to realize that i have that disorder.even tho i have had it all along.
C. I am told how pretty i am and that im skinny and everythings fine with me, but i never hardly think im pretty or skinny enough, even tho i weigh 117 plds its just not enough for me somtimes, but sumtimes i am conceited.
D. I have had fu
cked up past relationships that i dont know whats up and whats down with relatinships and i never know what to do or say to make it all better, and i always think that sumones lieing to me.
E. I have a great boyfrann but i dont know the right way too treat him cus of those many fucked up relationships. I never do.
F. I serosly think that im a neat freak at heart cus a dirty room for to long will erk the hell out of me.
...other than that my name is heather and im 18 years old. My birthday is March 9th. I am recently getting my GED, and i plan to either be a cosmetologist or cartoonist or a clothes desiner or photographer. I dont have a job or a car, but i plan to soon have a job and a car. Im staying with my boyfrann Jerry, The boys pretty fitt and amazing, he puts up with all my bullshit and trys to help me threw. I want to move out by time im 20, i want my first place to be a trailor or a apartment. Im not a virgin but im not the whore that a lot of ppl make me out to be. Im a easy person to get along with, but i dont befreind easily, nor do i trust anyone easily. Im hated by few and loved by many. I like to play in the rain, im not scared too get my clothes dirty. I do smoke but im trying to quit. I have a few freinds that i keep close, they mean the world to me, as well as my boyfrann. Those few i keep close would be Brittany Sightler, Ian Harrison, Jessica Stout, Jerry Smyth, Hannah Ward, and Heidi Ward. yes soo fucking what can i say i love being around my sisters..there fun and intertaining and they make my life a lil better...! Im a pretty fucked up indiviual and i look normal and i may seem normal untill u get to know me, i am fasinated by blood and gore and vampires and zombies and bats and witchs and ghosts, and anything to do with paranormal.True Stories:Michael Keith Ward aka my dadMy dad had hunigtons disease which is a diseas that slowly effects the braincells and the body, [ no its not contagiose] i always stayed mad at him constantly, and things i regret everyday..my last words to my dad was that i hated him and i wasnt evurr coming bak ovur his hosue, later that day he shot hisself in the head..i have to deal with that everyday. HE was wonderful and i took advantage of it, everyone says how much they hate there parents but u will never know how much sumone means to u untill there not around no more, there wasnt one time that i acually went ovurr to his house to see him, i had always went over there to hangout with my franns, and if it werent for my cousing Chelsea Harrell i would of pr0baly killed myself that night i found out about him killing himself, it was to much for me to bear.and Carrie Helton aka my memamy mema was a good women. she was full of God and always went to church and was reading the bible to me. She never saw the bad in anyone. I was really close to her, i was about 13 when she passed away, she had a stroke but that wasnt what killed her, she ended up vomiting in her sleep and it went down the wrong tube and she passed that night, this was another one were if it wernt for my couseing chelsea harrell i woldnt of made it threw, this is when i took a whole new spin on life and it wont for the possitive. Bud
you will be missed and it was fun. Your baby is doing great and everyone that knew you loves and misses u. All u had to do is hangout with him once and u had no choice but to have fun, hes just a naturally fun person to be around.and even though i really didnt like him at first cus of jessica i grew to like him cus i knew he was happy with her and she was happy with him, and thts how it works.
First Name: Heather
Middle Name: Dawn
Birthday: March 9 1990
Eyes: brown
Hair: blond
Fav color: black
Day/Night: night
Fave Food: mexican meh,TACOSSSS!!!!!!
FRIENDS AND LIFE
Do you ever wish you had another name? YUP
Do you like anyone? yea
Which one of your friends acts the most like you? ian
Who's the loudest? olivia hah!
Who have you known the longest of your friends? jenna
Who's the shyest:
Are you close to any family members? yupp
When you cried the most: about a yr or 3 ago...
What's the best feeling in the world: love
Worst Feeling: rejection
FINISH EACH SENTENCE:
Let's walk on the: beach
Let's run through: the rain
Let's look at the: porn
What a nice: bong
Where did all the: money go?
Why can't you: wait?
Silly, little: goose
Tell me: a secret
HAVE YOU:
Ran away from home:
Pictured your crush naked: yea :D
Skipped school: yea
Broken someone's heart: i think. and i feel bad about it
Been in love: yeapppers
Cried when someone died: yea duh
Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yea...:( and it sucked .
Done something embarrassing: yea
Done a drug: hahaha who hasnt?
Cried in school: yea.
RANDOM
Your Good Luck Charm: necklace
Person You Hate Most: copsss
Best Thing That Has Happened: ummm jerry :D
Ice Cream: yes plsss
Makes you smile: really jerry
Do You Have A Crush On Someone: yeaaa
HAVE YOU EVER
Fallen for your best friend?: yea duh everyone knows that one,
Made out with JUST a friend?: yea
Kissed two people in the same day?: haha yea :D
Been rejected: . yea
Been in love?: yea
Been used?: yea too much
Done something you regret?: yea soo much
Cheated on someone?: yea used too b pretty bad at it
Been called a tease: yea
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
You touched?: jerry
You talked to on the phone?: brittany
You hugged?: jerry
You instant messaged?: ellie
You kissed?: jerry
You yelled at?: jerry
Who text messaged you?: jeffrey
Who broke your heart?: ian or mark
Who told you they loved you?: jerry
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!People that i siese to admit thanks to for helping me out and sticking with me threw sum hard times and sumtimes not wanting to talk to at all are.. brittany sightler,jerry smyth,ian harrison,jessica stout,megan tailor,mark meeks,ryan sheppard,paige greene,my grandma Vickie and my grandma Kay,jessica wall(back in the day),angel peterson(back in the day),chelsea anderson,her bf jeremy(back when),timothy cox,mike rollins,my mom,my sisters hannah and heidi ward,chelsea harrell,old friends thats helped me pull threw back in the days. jenna spruill [my best friend since diapers me and her have been threw hell and back togeher, we have had rough times and fun times, we have been each others inspiration,although we never talk much anymore i know shes still there for me and i know im still here for her]
kyle stevens [this guy is pretty awsome and back in the day when he first moved here he has helped me go threw a lot and he has seen changes and we also have had rough times and easy times,even though we never talk anymore really hes special too]
david maners [i was there when he came out and i was his freind and we dated soo many times, i have had soo much fun with this boy and hes been threw just as much as me and maybe more, hes a great person to talk to and be able to trust that he wont tell anyone anything u tell him, we never talk at all anymore but back in the day we were close and i miss that but thigns change]
Bud you will be missed and your still loved, but he also has his share of helping me threw sum hard time back in the day when i was dating jessica, he helped me get ovurr feelings that i couldnt help or even escape and tll this day i still will admit that he has helped me out]
...these are still sum pretty amazing and talented people, and i woudlnt give meeting them up for anytinng in the world cus they helped shape and mold who i am today.
