8/10/78- 8/23/08
it hits you at the most random moments, when your ordering indian food, or shampooing your hair, you'll step back and remember shes gone. why did she leave me? how could she possibly leave me at 14 when all i need is her? i dont even know how to explain because i feel like my whole life is changed because she just had to leave me..it wasnt her time, she didnt want to go, she had her whole life infront of her..why and who would want to take one of the funniest strong beautiful people i have ever met..i am glad though that i can look back at all the time i had with her and say "thats the lady that raised me, thats my mom" sometimes when everythings fucked up i just wish she would be here to crawl in bed with and cry, she'll never be here again to comfort me, or to make me tea when im sick, she'll never be able to tell me how much she loved me, and i'll never be able to tell her how much i miss her. now that shes gone i look at everything and see nothing. everything that everyone cares about is so stupid, when you get a bad grade, you always get a second chance, if you lose your job, just get another one, if you break up with the love of your life, sooner or later another one will come along, but when someones gone, thats it..no second chances, no re-dos, just nothing. & thats how i feel right now, i feel like she left me and now im nothing. can this really be happening to me right now? its to much to even grasp my mind against, i look in the mirror and see her, everything around me and my whole entire life has been based and influenced around her, now what happens? where do i go from here...in loving memory of my mommy angelina, we all miss you down here