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About Me

Noong nangangapa lang ako sa dilim, takot na takot ako. Ilang beses rin akong natisod at nasugatan kasi lakad ako ng lakad galaw ako ng galaw wala naman akong nakikita. Isinisigaw ko ang pangalan mo, pero wala ka hindi ka dumarating. Gusto kitang habulin pero hindi ko alam kung saan ka na nagpunta. Masakit. Mahirap. Akala ko tuluyan mo na kong iniwan. Akala ko wala na akong halaga. Kapag nasa dilim ka --- walang makita at walang malinaw na mahagap, nakatitisod at nakagagalos talaga. At dadagdag ng dadagdag ang mga masasakit na sugat, na lalong humahapdi sa bawat patak ng luha na nag-uunahang kumawala.Mabuti na lang, sa kasisigaw ko ng pangalan mo narinig mo rin ako. Pero hindi ka sumigaw pabalik. Impit bulong na lang ang narinig ko, at muntik ko pang hindi narinig.Ang hindi ko alam...Nasa dilim ka rin pala...Itinapon tayong dalawa sa isang kawalan na balot ng nakapanlulumong itim. Hindi ko lang alam kung nasan ka, pero kagaya ko--- may dilim ka ring pinipilit talunin nangangapa, natitisod, at nasusugatan ka rin. Marahil mas malalim pa nga ang mga sugat mo. Hiyang- hiya ako sa sarili ko dahil pumayag akong isipin kong iniwan mo ako. Yun pala, nawawala ka rin. Patawarin mo ako.Nalito ako --- hahanapin at hahabulin ba kita gayong hindi ko naman alam kung san ako pupunta pero dahil nga gumagalaw ka rin, bagamat nasa dilim, baka lalo lang tayong hindi magpang-abot. O pipirmi ba ako, at hihintaying mahanap mo, habang hinihilom ng oras at nakapanghahapding luha ang mga sugat nating dalawa?Pareho nating hindi alam kung paano magagapi ang dilim. At baka nga hindi talaga natin siya kayang talunin. Hindi ko kaya, hindi mo kaya. Kahit gaano natin pilitin. Mahirap talaga... Masakit... Nakakalito...Ngayon tama na sa akin ang narinig kong binanggit mo ang pangalan ko. Kahit na gaano kahina ang impit na yaon. Hindi mo alam kung gaano kahalaga na nalaman kong kahit na nasa dilim, kahit na mahirap hinahanap mo rin ako. At kahit kailan ay hindi mo ako iniwan pinipilit mo lang rin na makakita at malayang makagalaw bilang IKAW, na hindi ngayon pinahihintulutan ng dilim.Isa lang ang alam ko, isa lang ang malinaw. Hindi ako naniniwalang itinadhanang maghari ang dilim sa matagal na panahon. Magliliwanag rin. Hindi ko alam kung sabay itong sisinag sa atin, o mauuna ito sa iyo, o sa akin.Kung sabay ang pagliwanag ng mundo sa atin, mabuti. Kung mauuna ito sa iyo, hanapin mo ako. Pinili kong pumirmi at hintayin ka, at labanan ang sakit. Sana, sa panahong yaon, tuluyan nang hinilom ng mga luha ang mga sugat natin. Hihintayin kita. Kahit anong mangyari. Titiisin ko ang dilim. Dahil mahal kita. Kung una ang pagsinag sa akin, sa unang sandali pa lang na makita at maramdaman ko ang liwanag, hahanapin kaagad kita. At sasagipin kita sa dilim na matagal na bumilanggo sa atin.Maghintay lang tayo.Magliliwanag rin.Makagagalaw ka rin bilang ikaw, at ako bilang ako, dahil wala na ang dilim.At kung akala ng dilim ay natalo niya tayo, mali siyaMas lalo lang niya tayong pinatatag, at mas lalo niyang pinatibay ang pag- ibig nating kailanmay hindi niya nagawang magapi.

My Blog

Predictable by Good Charlotte

Something isn't right, I can feel it again, feel it again. This isn't the first time, That you left me waiting. Sad excuses and false hopes high, I saw this coming, still I don't know why, I le...
Posted by on Fri, 11 Feb 2005 08:46:00 GMT

Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day

I walk a lonely road The only one that I have ever known Don't know where it goes But it's home to me and I walk alone I walk this empty street On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams Where the city...
Posted by on Tue, 08 Feb 2005 08:39:00 GMT

LAST LOVE SONG by 17:28 feat. Heart Evangelista

oh yeah& am i trying too hard keep this love alive? you dont seem to care about this love that we had i called you last night but you were not there i didnt hear from you went on t...
Posted by on Thu, 26 Aug 2004 18:23:00 GMT

THE REASON by HoobasTank

I'm not a perfect person As many things I wish I didn't do But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've fo...
Posted by on Sun, 20 Jun 2004 11:37:00 GMT

My Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne

So much for my happy ending Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh... Let's talk this over It's not like we're dead Was it something I did? Was it something You said? Don't leave me hanging In a city so dead H...
Posted by on Sun, 20 Jun 2004 11:01:00 GMT

Out Of Control by HOOBASTANK

I've done everything as you say I've followed your rules without question I thought it would help me see things clearly But instead of helping me to see I look around and it's like I'm blinded ...
Posted by on Tue, 01 Jun 2004 09:06:00 GMT

Deflection

DEFLECTION everytime i point my hatred towards you four times pain i feel inside and everytime i think the pain you've caused me forty more times i wish you're still on my side can't you see....
Posted by on Wed, 07 Apr 2004 15:42:00 GMT

i hate that person in you that is the same as me

rage and fury is what you should feel everytime you don't keep it real you seem like a prisoner, shielded to everyone just because of that filthy son of a gun cant you see its not right damn y...
Posted by on Sun, 28 Mar 2004 23:23:00 GMT

the art of letting go by mikaila

Put away the pictures. Put away the memories. I put over and over Through my tears I've held them till I'm blind They kept my hope alive As if somehow that I'd keep you here Once you believed i...
Posted by on Sun, 28 Mar 2004 23:20:00 GMT

I Cant Cry Hard Enough by Susan Ashton

I'm gonna live my life... Like everyday's the last. Without a simple good-bye... It all goes by so fast. And now that you're gone... I can't cry hard enough. No...I can't cry hard enough... F...
Posted by on Thu, 11 Mar 2004 10:48:00 GMT