Eliot

Well right now I'm wandering around in china. Since i can't hardly talk to anyone the internet and email has suddenly become important to me. Somehow I ended up missing some of the people I left back in America and have this desire to tell about what I'm doing and hear how others are. I guess it doesn't really matter what I write here, some how I feel like I'm putting too much stress on these words. Like I have to really introduce myself in this context. I'm not used to being viewed in this manner. Somehow it makes me feel vulnerable. Whatever, right? I am prone to smelling the roses, I walk slow when I have no destination. I always make my mind up at the last possible moment. I love the sun. I love breezes. I hesitate sometimes. I act impulsive sometimes too. When I play a game and I'm winning I sometimes try to make the other person feel bad about themselves. Usually it makes them try harder and I end up defeated. But I take no great pain in loosing games. I take pleasure when I win though. I like to read sometimes, I like movies more...sometimes. I can get fixated on things. But usually I'm fixated on nothing imperticular. I used to read too much about politics and the economy. But I think I'm better off keeping them at a distance. I don't like the multiple choice religion selector. I suppose Athiest is the closest, but there's more to my beliefs than not having faith in a god. What am I looking for right now? Probably pleasure and excitment. But we each find those in our own ways. I also want to get over the insecurites I know I have. Challenge them, show why my dellusions are imaginary. hmmm, I suppose that's an adequate introduction of sorts. Didn't think I had it in me.