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God Sent Conspirator Joshwaa~

Proceeding through life like a cat without whiskers perpetually caught behind the refrigerator.

About Me

Im Josh Lazard.
Im a dying breed of men.
Im a little crazy sometimes.
I'm in love
I like to sing
I feel awkward making faces
Im Shy of Girls
I can make Awkward Moments happen fast
I Have a complicated Personality
Sometimes, when I think of the future.. I get scared.
I'm Adopted
I have unusual sleep patterns
I'm begining to question my mental stability
I've grown up trying to not be like most guys
My Dad's are my heroes
I block out some emotions, if you haven't noticed, you will.
Humans = Shit
I'm afraid of spiders
I love my friends
I meow.. a lot
I'm easy to get along with
I'm Laid back
About 75% of the time, Im angry. for no reason.
Catie's my everything

"Josh-
You are my sunshine. You are my Poohbear. You mean so much to me and I hope we stay together for a long time
I love you so very much and you mean the world to me
Everytime we're appart I cant wait until the next time I get to see you.
-Catie<3"
As you can see. I've met my girl. so step off.


"A poor choice of words, in wanting to tell you anything. But words don't come with ease. They're forever my hurt."

My Interests

I'm in love with a girl named Catie.
9-30-07

When you said "I hope you never leave me" I thought to myself "my life is starting, together with her"

I'd like to meet:

Some Nice People..
People Who Won't Judge Me Right Off..
People Who I can Communicate With, Without The Awkward One Word Answers..
People Who We Can Exchange Our Past Stories, Talk About Life..
Nice People...

These men are lyrical geniuses
Cedric Bixler-Zavala

Claudio Paul Sanchez

Music:

I'll Listen to basically anything from Classic, to Rap. You name it, I probably listened to it.

Movies:

A Scanner Darkly, Vanilla Sky, Boondock Saints, Green Street Hooligans, Eurotrip, Supertroopers, Four Brothers, Larry the Cableguy: Health Inspector, Seven, Butterfly Effect, Starwars, Matrix Trilogy, Pulp Fiction, Hostel, Sin City, Dawn Of The Dead, Day Of The Dead, Evil Dead, A Clockwork Orange, Fight Club.... the list goes on and on.

Television:

Music Videos, Adult Swim, Scrubs, whatever's on.

Books:

JTHM. God's Debris. Brave New World. Forever... Scrambled Eggs At Midnight.

Heroes:

Catie
Anthony
Jacob
Lennon
Seth
Rachel
Chris
Brandon D.
James
Without you all.. I wouldn't know what to do with myself.

My Blog

Sometimes I hate who I’ve become

I gained the reputation for being the socially awkward kid.who is creepy and makes creepy comments.who became so corrupt and filled with an endless rage.who got into pot smoking and alcohol.who had li...
Posted by God Sent Conspirator Joshwaa~ on Sun, 08 Jun 2008 11:24:00 PST

Introducing Something New!

Something that can make you happy.make music sound wonderful.You'll make friends alike who share this interest.If you like raves, techno, and bizzare clothings.and lack hygiene but love promi...
Posted by God Sent Conspirator Joshwaa~ on Fri, 06 Jun 2008 10:58:00 PST

I've spent all my days in the back of my mind.

I am a man of few words. but when I speak it's usually to the point.I am a man who hides mixed emotions. just to convience others.I am growing further apart from my parents. and this house.My room use...
Posted by God Sent Conspirator Joshwaa~ on Sun, 11 May 2008 03:48:00 PST

To a man I never really knew.

You met me once before. when I was little.I never remembered far back so it never occurred to me.but dad always told me about you.I always wondered about you.Did you ever wonder about me?You even know...
Posted by God Sent Conspirator Joshwaa~ on Thu, 20 Mar 2008 09:14:00 PST

In this rush of ages

do we ever stop to think about our younger years?do we ever fully enjoy them? Sometimes we get so excited to be a certain age, that you just want the x amount of years to before it to go by quickly, a...
Posted by God Sent Conspirator Joshwaa~ on Sun, 03 Feb 2008 10:45:00 PST

Tag.

TAG: Here's how you play. Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird, random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose 10 people to be tagged, listing their ...
Posted by God Sent Conspirator Joshwaa~ on Fri, 18 Jan 2008 06:06:00 PST

Pyschology Project.

This is part of a pyschology Journal I have to do.Thought I'd share some.Love: I spent the day with Catie yesturday.We had a semi-serious convsersation about our wants, and the kind of people we are/c...
Posted by God Sent Conspirator Joshwaa~ on Thu, 17 Jan 2008 04:43:00 PST

games and fat preggo bitches.

Aight.. So me and Seth are chllin in this house. there's some other guys. but they aren't important.and it's not even out house.Anyways, one day we're chillin, and this old guy tells us about these sp...
Posted by God Sent Conspirator Joshwaa~ on Sat, 05 Jan 2008 01:05:00 PST

bad bad baaaaddd dreammm

Alright, so Im working on my little white truck. right?And recently I had gotten this little small weiner dog.he was my favorite. and I love him.An...
Posted by God Sent Conspirator Joshwaa~ on Thu, 03 Jan 2008 07:34:00 PST

Hey. 2008, you seem like you’re early.

Forgive any of the following errors, Im a little drunk...2008 already?It seems like 2007 didn't even last that long.I'm not sure Im ready for 2008...Like... I don't know what to expect this year...Usu...
Posted by God Sent Conspirator Joshwaa~ on Tue, 01 Jan 2008 01:42:00 PST