OK. Lets give this a shot . I haven't got a background , may incorporate one soon, though plethora's of colours and masses of text don't tend to amalgamate too well.
I spend way too much time on the Internet, this site is one of the culprits . I , like many others am studying at sixth form hoping to make something of myself and be the best I can, and perhaps 'realise my potential' and find a job that is me. More than a career, I want a platform, where I can be heard and hopefully make a difference, I'm not sure I could find a job acceptable if it meant exploiting others to earn my wage. The injustice that goes on in front of our eyes may never be compensated for, but I don't want to become part of the problem.
Perhaps, my view of my future is too romantic and idealistic. I guess time will tell.
I’d say the last two or so years have sculpted the man that stands before you, socialising isn't my forte, of course, I have some good friends, but trusting people is an issue, my best friends are the ones I can be myself in front of and share my esoteric glee's with.
School work and the pursuit of further intelligence are things of pivotal importance to me - As apposed to my disdainful academic past. For years I have faced an uphill struggle against loneliness and solitude, said struggle has recently took a turn for the worse. I’m yet to recuperate from the tumultuous events of the last couple of years and the profound effect they’ve had on me. I need to be awoken from this self-effacing way of life. Confidence or lack thereof is now my main nemesis, a while back I was the epitome of confidence: brash , loud and had arrogance to boot, but now a days you will find me sitting alone blasting Hard Rock into my ear drums.
Recently I have found my solace in running, every where and anywhere, as well as my daily run at night, it helps me to relieve some stress, as well as keep the demons of my obsessive weight issues at bay, running has served me well thus far; have lost almost two stone in weight by doing so, though that doesn’t stop me believing I could lose more, calorie counting and ridiculous exercise is no way to live, but someone’s got to do it -
Needless to say I miss good food, but the risk of letting my self go haunts me enough to detach me from my temptations .
Music is something I take very, very seriously. Some times when I hear the radio friendly mass-produced drivel that's common place today it feels like a direct slap in the face. Modern society in general enrages me for the most part, but we won’t get side-tracked. So yes music , listening to music is the one thing that drives me and gives me the fuel to continue, when nothing else will. My favourite band are called Alter Bridge I've watched them live and met them 7 times now, obsessed?, perhaps. My other favourite band is Rage Against The Machine, I think they do a good job in speaking out for the voiceless, seen them once too.
Sorry if I have bored you I realise that by now you will be either ready to pull the trigger or grab a box of Kleenex, sorry!!
Thanks for reading and I hope to hear from you very soon!
Peace and Love.
