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I wonder about the tangled web we weave. If we take into consideration the hearts that will be broken, of those we deceive. Be truthful or dare to deceive. You will lose in the end. Honesty will get you true love and true friends. The lessons in life will teach us what we need to know but, before we act. stop, look and listen. Then make the right decision we feel best. Not to harm but to teach for we hold a persons heart within our reach.----------------------- THE WAYS OF LIFE...It’s time to make some changes in my profile now, most of you have read about my experience through life. Yes I have been married 3 times, they have not been the best times of my life, but there have been some good times. I have been single now for 4 years and I lead a very lonely life, I don’t show it when around other people. As you all know my daughter is married to my 3rd husband, I always hear the questions, why, how did that happen, how do I deal with it, why would they do such a thing, especially to your own mother and wife? The only answers I can give are, it was meant to be this way, one can’t make someone love them if their heart is in another place. Many have told me I should just turn my back on my own daughter and walk away, well I can’t do that, she is my blood, born of my flesh and lives with in my heart. No matter what my children are mine, they were given to me from God to love with everything I have to give. I have a son also who I am very proud of, he has come a long way from being abused when I was married to his father, both my kids have. I put them through hell for 22 years, I was raised the old school ways, my parents taught me that your kids come before anything else. But my mother, oh how I miss her! had the answers to anything I needed to know. She was the rock, the living book, the one who would do for anyone what she could. After she died, part of me went with her to her grave. I felt I had lost everything that day, her death was the beginning of my destruction path that I have lead for over 12 years. The family is no longer close like we once were, it seems all we do is fight and get mad over sometimes stupid things. We lost the one person that held us all together, August 13th will be 12 years since she left us, we all have a hard time getting over her loss, we still cry and wish we had just 1 more time with her, if only that could be, just 1 more hug and I love you mom would be the best gift we can ask for. Especially my sister Kathy who took care of her all those years, she was there when the rest of us couldn’t be. Kathy does not know how much I love her for doing all she could for mom. A lot of times I run to her when I need someone to talk to, because part of mom lives with in her soul. My heart is so broken, I let things slide by because of my family values and that old saying blood is thicker than water. This I know is true, but we forget about the dirt that flows in some of that blood, it’s like an evil spirit that takes over and we who try to do what’s right suffer from that dirty blood that flows through those veins. Mom would be so ashamed of what has become of some of her family now, I know I am, and even though they do not care, I still love with the love mom taught me to have for humanity. I have a large family and we all came from the same blood line, not 1 of us is any better or worse than the next 1. My greatest wish is that we could all reunite as we once were. My 2nd wish is that I could find that 1 person to love me as much as I would him, I would give anything to have love that other women throw away. Is there such a love out there that man nor beast can tear apart? Or is just the kind that only exist in fairy tail books? What ever happened to forever, can someone explain this to me? I want the family values back and the forever kind of love we use to have and talk abouthref="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3LnBpY29vZ GxlLmNvbS8=">Image Hosting.. <img style="border:0px;"