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people think I've got it all together
with the show of my sweet, sweet smile
but do they know if I've been happy ever...
pull up a chair 'cause this may take a while...
Okay, so here's the thingI've got my bad days
and some are even worse
I can be a blessing
and you know, I can be a curseI tremble at rejection
I'm scared to be alone
sometimes I may be selfish...this is the real me
am I the girl that you want me to be
this is the real me
with flaws and fears of intimacy
this is the real meCan you face it
Can you feel it
Can you take it
Can you deal with
The real me...So now you see that I am far from perfect
I will fall and I will make mistakes
but I am here and this has taken courage...
will you abandon me or will you stay...I know that I'm demanding
and sometimes insecure
I think I've got the answers
but then I'm not so sureI sometimes need attention
a little more than I should,
but there is a part of me
that give the whole world if I couldnow that I've gone and let you in,
and I no longer will pretend,
will you please still be my friend
(The Real Me by Jaci Velasquez)..
Music can be a tool to come to grips with your relationship with God and your relationships with others. Not everyone is really good with words or emotions and I feel like that’s what Music does; it puts words to my emotions so that I can work through them and go on to the next place with God.†(- Sara Groves 2002)Will I give what costs me nothing when I bring my sacrifice?
From glass alabaster she poured out the depths of her soul…
Broken and battered my confidence shattered, but Your still here. The things that I cling to just seem to bring me right back to my fears… as if the nails and the spear in Your side were not quite enough to provide the victory I need in my life.
Questions swirling round my head, got a heavy heart like a chunk of lead, my hopes hangin by a thread and I feel like I’m loosing the fight. Answers come in a different way, than how I asked when I prayed.
Just when I think I’ve learned what its all about, along comes fear and along comes doubt, rocks my world and knocks me out and I start all over again. Seems round and round in a circle I go, but I’m gaining ground though its hard and slow, compelled by love and all I know.
With all this motivation I still find a hesitation deep in my soul. Despite all my demanding, I still find you understanding.
Through my weakness shine, Show me grace!
That (ever elusive) day is here: Today is the day that I must live the faith- rather the grace- I’ve been talking, hearing and reading about all these years.
~CoMe FreedoM CoMe~
Every morning I have a chance to rise and give my all, Knowing you are near and I am finally free.
As the weeks turn into months, for some reason You must want me here. I can see Your breaking up my fallow ground. You are in the waiting: in this season of such barrenness while my hearts anticipating just how and when You’ll move, that’s when You prove You are in the waiting to make me all You want me to be. Unveil my eyes if I’ve exchanged the truth for lies, so I can see the work You began, You will complete in me. You give me water in the desert. You lift me up on eagles wings though I cry out for an answer…I don’t have to understand the place Your keeping me.
My eyes fear to close; this reckless letting go is hard to bear.
On the edge of all I need still I cling to what I see.
I want to know you better than I do, relieve me from myself, bring me into you, bring me into your holiness, peace, sovereignty, into (Your) freedom
So now I lay it down on Your altar, knowing that what I lose I’ll find. Please receive me though I falter, for all I have is Yours, its no longer mine. May my worship be a fragrance permeating my home, work, mind and being.
With my mouth I will praise, in my weakness, through Your strength, I will obey. This is my offering. I will go where You lead. I will trust what I can not see. This is my offering.
The more I try to make this happen, the less its clear to me. The hope that keeps me moving ,is in Your promises to me, and right now that’s enough, its gonna have to be.
Its hard to live this way, holding on, letting go. I wanna grab a hold of something to give me some security and know that its You I’m hearing, gently helping me to see, when everything I’m praying for might not be Your will for me.
I just showed up for my own life and I’m standing here taking it in and it sure looks bright. I’m going to live my life inspired, look for the holy in the common place, open the windows and feel all that’s honest and real until I’m truly amazed. I’m going to feel all my emotions. I’m going to look you in the eyes I’m going to listen and hear until its finally clear and it changes my life, because THE GLORY OF GOD IS MAN FULLY ALIVE (Jhn. 10:10)
I want to find the beauty of seeing things through.
I believe that I can say; Thank You Lord for every answer You’ve delayed!
Jesus, my passion in life is to know You, may all other goals bow down to this journey of loving You more.
That I would continually feed on and hunger for You and Your Word. That I would grow in wisdom, stature and favor in and through You Abba, Father For I have not received a spirit that makes me a slave again to fear.
