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Kimmy

To live on in the hearts we leave behind is not to die. Thomas Campbell

About Me



..People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within. ~Elizabeth Kulber-Ross~ Salem Obcessed!
.. my chemical romance - cancer
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Add to My Profile | More VideosI am the wife of a wonderful man I just celebrated my 5 year anniversary with on January 31st. I am the mother of a baby who makes me smile every day, and I am absolutely head over heels for my son Logan.... We have two cats, Mia and Jack, fat and lazy, who are spoiled beyond belief. We live in an apartment that is shrinking as the baby grows, and we are gonna have to move before too long...We are very lucky to have a large family who loves us. Logan wants for nothing, and we love him more than words could explain.
glitter-graphics.com Never forget to tell the people you love how much they mean to you, every day, every chance you get. Sometimes forever is not guaranteed. My stepmother Bobbie passed away last year, leaving a profound impact on my life and my heart. Though she will always be missed, I can only say....Rest in Peace Bobbie........(12/9/06)I know we will meet again someday...I love you always.It has almost been a year, and it still feels like yesterday that I held her hand and promised her I would spend more time with her- I promised to visit more, to make up for all the time we missed out on. That was the last time I ever held her hand or saw her smile. I will never get that next time. That was my last time, and though I told her I loved her, I wish I'd had the chance to say it hundreds more times- she left us too soon.To those of you who hold grudges and let anger get in the way of your life, know that it will never do your heart good. I spent years mad at my father for things my mom should have never told me after their divorce, she let her anger cloud her judgement and for it I paid dearly. I lost years of time with my family. Two weeks before Bobbie's death of a massive heart attack I saw her in the hospital, we held hands and talked, my Dad was there and so was Brian. We all shared parts of our lives, stories, things we wanted to do in the future. We didn't know the future is now. When I left that day I promised her we would be a bigger part or their lives. We never got the chance. The day she died we were planning to visit her, but Brian and I both came down with sore throats and decided she didn't need any more issues, as many things were happening to her. I got a call at 6 that evening, and I knew she was gone. I can only hope she is looking down on me now, smiling because I have become so close to my Dad now. I gave birth to my son Logan on July 16th, and I hope she is able to look down on us, wherever she is, and shower us with love and well wishes. I will never have more than this. I will always miss her."To forgive is not to forget, to forgive is really to remember that nobody is perfect; that each of us stumbles when we want so much to stay upright; That each of us says things we wish we had never said; that we can all forget that love is more important."TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Kimberly L. Jupin
Birthday: February 15th in the end of the 7os
Birthplace: Santa Clara, California
Current Location: Downtown San Jose
Eye Color: Blue Green Gray (depends on what I wear. Swear!
Hair Color: Who Knows. Brown-Ish
Height: 5'7"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: Who Knows. Who cares.
The Shoes You Wore Today: Its all about my sketchers
Your Weakness: My nephew Lukas and my damn cats.
Your Fears: Drowning
Your Perfect Pizza: One word- HEaRtBuRn
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Go on a diet. Just start one. I'd be happy just to start one. And go to the gym. At least a few times a week.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: Lol. Lmao. Quit being so lazy people!
Thoughts First Waking Up: Not again!
Your Best Physical Feature: My eyes.
Your Bedtime: 1o:3o on the weekdays. Whenever the hell I want on the weekends. Which is usually still pathetically early unless I hang out with Steve (satan.) Steve is a bartender and a tricky son of a..... but I love him!
Your Most Missed Memory: How can you miss a memory? You mean one I think about less than I used to (therefore I missed it...) or the memory I lost (therefore I miss it) or drunken "memories", which are sometimes so blurry I miss them?(literally)
Pepsi or Coke: diet pepsi. regular pepsi is too sweet.
MacDonalds or Burger King: Its "Mc" McDonalds. Which in itself tells you I eat THERE too often (doh!)
Single or Group Dates: Groups are fun, depends on if there are any drama queens in the group. I just wanna take drama queens and shake em til they quit.... oh.... heheh... sorry.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Yuck
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: Neither..
Do you Smoke: Sometimes
Do you Swear: Way too much.
Do you Sing: Yeah, and I think I have a great voice and good tone. I may be alone in my thinkings but thats what I think.... AND I share my opinion with people whether they want it or not... I am very opinionated.
Do you Shower Daily: I try to.
Have you Been in Love: I am.....
Do you want to go to College: Who wants to go? I mean, I WaNt the degree. But I am no good at homework. When I want it enough, sure.
Do you want to get Married: With all my heart. When the time is right. There's no rush. I found my happily ever after- he's all I need.
Do you belive in yourself: Always. No matter what.
Do you get Motion Sickness: I have.
Do you think you are Attractive: I do. There are parts of me that could use some improvement, but there are definitely a lot of things I like about me.
Are you a Health Freak: (choking back laughter..........)
Do you get along with your Parents:
Do you like Thunderstorms: Love them. Almost got struck by lightening once.
Do you play an Instrument: No. I played the flute briefly in the 5th grade. 'Til I took a swing at my sister with my flute and basically ended that career before it began.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Uh, yeah.
In the past month have you Smoked: Yep.
In the past month have you been on Drugs: Define " on drugs." I was really sick and took a lot of drugs. Uh, I plead the 5th.
In the past month have you gone on a Date: No
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: For Panda Express, come on, its the closest one to us- gimme a break!
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: Nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Yuck
In the past month have you been on Stage: Nope.
In the past month have you been Dumped: Not that I know of.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: No way. There is not a dark enough place for that.....anywhere.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: Nope.
Ever been Drunk: Yep.
Ever been called a Tease: Constantly.
Ever been Beaten up: A couple of times.
Ever Shoplifted: um, the fifth.
How do you want to Die: Well, I don't. But I don't really find the idea of living FOREVER appealing, so..... quickly. However that would be. Painlessly. Preferably while sleeping after a long, happy life.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Alive.
What country would you most like to Visit: Brazil. The rainforests of Brazil. Thanks again Steve.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Green/blue (light eyes)
Favourite Hair Color: Dark/Black
Short or Long Hair: Depends. Clean hair, how 'bout that- not oily.
Height: Tall.
Weight: A confident person is all that truly matters to me, I have had all muscle too- its like lying on concrete.
Best Clothing Style: Alternative. Whatevers cool. Who cares?
Number of Drugs I have taken: I have forgotten- and been truly amazed- at all I have survived. That is all I will say. And RIP to those I knew that were not lucky enough to make it out alive.
Number of CDs I own: I re-buy a lot of cds.
Number of Piercings: I have had, and lost, many. My nose and ears are all that remain.
Number of Tattoos: 7
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Whats the point of regret? Live in the now. I regret not telling my grandfather how much he meant to me before he died of cancer- but I like to believe he knew. Regret does nothing. You learn how to live better.
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Add to My Profile | More VideosMy hobbies include custom jewelry, photography, scrap booking, and anything generally creative. My favorite thing in the world to do (since getting the BEST present ever, my brand new canon digital camera in the beginning of 2oo6) is to go into the woods, into nature, and photograph ANYTHING that strikes me as being a good shot. Wildlife, the trees, people around me, whatever the mood asks for. And with ashamedly no modesty whatsoever I will admit I have been shocked to find that I take some amazing pictures. The start of this year, January 2007, has brought me some unexpected and exciting news, though it took a while for me to get to where I wanted to be, I have found that Brian and I are expecting a baby in September. We have been together 4 years (January 31st, 2oo7) and I think we will make wonderful parents. Update: October 2oo7... Logan Robert Fielding has come into this world, and we have been blessed more times than I can count. His birth and the last 2 months of his life were full of many trying times, emergencies and uncertainty. I am happy to report he has doubled his birth weight and is doing just fine. Brian and I have discovered that every day is a learning experience, and we DO in fact make great parents, though it doesn't always feel that way. Logan adds challenges daily, but also new reasons to smile and grow as people and as parents. Each day we are faced with new things, and each day we are stretched thin and forced to face our demons. But in the end we are so happy and blessed to have this little one, I don't even want to think of what life would be like without him. (Ok, I like to think about how much more sleep I would get, but thats it. I KNOW life would be quieter... but there is a certain peace that settles once he has gone to bed- finally!!!) I love to travel, and have been to Costa Rica (thanks Steve) Maui (Karen and Bren) Mexico (Grandma and Grandpa Fielding) and several other places. I would love to go back to Costa Rica with Steve and take Brian for his first time ever. It seems though, the way things are going, that will be put off for some time yet. MMMMM, gallo pinto. The jungles are the best places in the world to go. If you haven't been to one, go. Then come home and pick out a local charity and donate money to save the rainforests, the killer whales, the polar bears, or the cats and dogs of America, I don't care. It is everyone's responsibility. Have you heard of the 12 year old who helped start building rope bridges in Costa Rica to save spider monkeys who were being electrocuted because of power lines? Everyone can make a difference. You just have to want to. I can't wait to take Logan to the rainforest for the first time and show him the wonders of the world. I love being a Mom, and while I treasure every moment of his little-ness, I can't wait to show him nature and everything we have to fight for to preserve in the world for future generations.

I'd like to meet:

Anyone who is down to have fun, not psychotic, just generally good people. I love drama free friendships.... Addicts need not apply. Too many people I know have died due to drugs and I have to say..... drugs suck. I'd like to meet people who like to stay in, but also those who like to go out and explore the world, to try new things. Creative types. Positive people who have good values and like to travel, must love adventure.... 'never a dull moment' people are my favorite kind of people, always suggesting something new. I'd really like to meet John Cusack, I think he would be cool to hang out with. I have met a few celebrities through work and have found most of them to be charming, sweet, down to earth people.
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Music:

Blue October is my current favorite, followed closely by NIN. (trent is a GOD)I have many others, classics really, that closely follow suit, like the Refreshments, Tool, Diffuser, Sarah McLaghlan, Enigma, A Perfect Circle, Good Charlotte, Pink, Jimmy Eat World, Stone Sour, Bush, Missy Elliot, Eminem, Nelly Furtado, Enya, Bloodhound Gang, Jewel, She wants revenge,Lit,The prodigy, Eve six, Kelly Clarkson, Cake and Faith Evans. .... Too many to name!!! I love Classic bands too like the Eagles, Bread, America, Chicago, Jimmy Buffett, The allman Brothers, CCR, The Beatles, Pink Floyd, how could I name them all?

Movies:

Cars, 5o First Dates, Boys on the Side, 28 Days, Pirates of the Caribbean, (one and two)Ice Age (also one and Two) Thank You For Smoking ,Eulogy, Raising Helen, Curious George, Tank Girl, Secondhand Lions, The Rundown, Equilibrium, Premonition, Forces of Nature, Miss Congeniality (I LOVE Sandra Bullock) Evil Dead (one and two) Army of Darkness (I also love Bruce Campbell) Dead Calm, Demon Night, The Phantom (I also love Billy Zane, but his is purely physical pure unadulterated lust...)Night at The Museum... Oh, and Having Seen this recently, 1408 is hands down one of the scariest movies I have ever seen. The Descent scared the hell out of me too.

Television:

UFC, baby! That being said.... I love fights. I never knew I could get into that kind of stuff but hey, here we are. We like South Park on occasion, we LOVE Scrubs, Friends, That 7os show, I love a Baby Story, Bringing home Baby, Jon and Kate + 8.... (those poor, poor people!!!) The Jeff Corwin Show, I am completely in love with Jeff Corwin (don't tell Brian... he gets jealous!) We watch The Simpsons, Pimp my Ride, Trick my truck. I love ER, Judging Amy (old days) and Montel Williams is awesome. He always has good topics. He is not ashamed to show emotion, and I think he is a wonderful person. I also love ANY of the Growing up animal stories on Animal Planet. We love Animal Precinct... many of them are re-runs for us, so we are always excited to see new episodes. I loved Caught in The Moment before the just stopped showing it. I love Emergency Vets and E-Vet interns, Code Blue on the discovery health channel, and also Trauma: Life in The E.R.... so many to name, those, too, are just a few. Since I have to pump breast milk every few hours, I have started to watch Sunrise Earth on Animal Planet at 4 and 5 am. It has no words, just the world in all its glory as the day begins. There are beautiful scenes, and it is so calming and tranquil. That is my favorite time of day to pump for that very reason. Steve Irwin will be forever missed.

Books:

Patricia Cornwell, Clan of the Cave Bear series, anything by Mary Higgins Clark or Jane Clark. James Patterson is awesome. I like medical examiner and scientific medicine books. Lately I have been reading some Steven King, Insomnia was one of my favorites. Its a long ass book I will never have time to read again, but if you have ever looked into reading a cool head trip book, this is the one for you, my friend!

Heroes:

My Grandma is my hero. She has come to the end of the road with her Cancer, and she has decided to face her life's end at home. Our family is taking it quite well, taking her side and working together to make her death as happy as possible. I think we are ok as a family now, and I know we will carry on when she is finally at peace. Also Bobbie, my step mother who passed away in December of 2oo6. She loved us so much, and would have given anything for her family. She never complained when she lost her legs to diabetes, only asked God, 'whats next?' She threw herself into volunteer work and only once after her father passed away did she break down and confide in me. Her father lived a block away from them, and they visited one another every day. The very next email I got from her, she was back to her usual self, back into her volunteer work and helping the homeless. I vow today to be like her, instead of feeling sorry for myself I vow to find someone less fortunate and help others. She would love that, as I loved her, with all my heart. She will be terribly missed.
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Celebrities on the swings

So Friday was the first time Logan has ever been on the swings. It was the cutest thing. He was all smiles. He was laughing and kicking his feet and enjoying it, my cute little man. Out of the corner ...
Posted by Kimmy on Tue, 22 Jan 2008 12:27:00 PST

My Grandma, My Friend

Her cancer is back and a new storm is raging in me ~*~ I realize she cannot fight, she just wants to be free ~*~ So though inside my voice screams "no" I try to hold my tongue ~*~ I sit here now, my h...
Posted by Kimmy on Thu, 13 Dec 2007 06:49:00 PST

The Swaying of The Shelves

The world began to sway~ upon this fateful night~ I felt panic give way~ And turn into pure fright~ I rushed to see my babe~ That rocked within his bed~ Only Mom and Dad were afraid~ Only I lost my he...
Posted by Kimmy on Wed, 31 Oct 2007 10:02:00 PST

A League Not So Much My Own..

Help is on the way. I have tried the postpartum support group and found that while I like the women in the group, I left feeling more depressed and in need of help than when I went in. So, this aftern...
Posted by Kimmy on Wed, 31 Oct 2007 06:40:00 PST

Reflections of Me

~   Thinking, reflecting   ~*~   And somehow connecting   ~*~   These pieces that used to be me   ~*~   Hoping and reading &n...
Posted by Kimmy on Mon, 29 Oct 2007 10:33:00 PST

The most Amazing Thing

So last night our son slept virtually the whole night! We had to take him out for a drive to Fremont because he was cranky... as yesterday's doctor's appointment he received 4 vaccinations and he has ...
Posted by Kimmy on Sat, 27 Oct 2007 09:59:00 PST

Whats important Today

And now there's more to hold us back* From this world's happiness we lack* More problems, piled up so high* I often sit and wonder why* I think I could run away and drive* This year's another 2oo5* F...
Posted by Kimmy on Sat, 20 Oct 2007 02:34:00 PST

Get Back up and Carry on

So small and sick and pale and thin* She lacks comfort in her own skin* Too strong to break, too proud to cry* We hope and pray and wonder why* Her body chose to deceive us all* But through it all she...
Posted by Kimmy on Tue, 16 Oct 2007 06:47:00 PST

The Worst Thing That Could Ever Happen

Last night on L.A Ink as I prepared myself for sleep I saw a woman getting a tattoo of her 2 month old son on the inner arm next to her shoulder. He was a beautiful child, and I couldn't help but smil...
Posted by Kimmy on Thu, 11 Oct 2007 10:21:00 PST

Today...

Today I have grown as a person. I have learned patience is not always present, it is earned with time and given with inner peace. I have realized calm is sometimes not about what surrounds you, but wh...
Posted by Kimmy on Thu, 11 Oct 2007 10:20:00 PST