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under the influence

so how about them dinosaurs

About Me

"i'm nothing like what you think i am... i dance in the middle of the street, & twirl my skirts when i'm nervous. i bite my bottom lip entirely too much.. i'm horribly addicted to chapstick. i'm lonely in a room full of people. i have a heart, a big one at that. i make an effort to smile & laugh everyday even if for no apparent reason. i drink juice & vitamin water about as much as i breath air. & i enjoy books ten times more then i enjoy the company of anyone. i know this doesn't make any sense at all but i like life that way. plus i'm a total sucker.. & the little things are what make my life.

My Interests

dirty boys, ice cream, hot chocolate, naps, blowing bubbles, cuddling, showers, twirling, dancing in the rain, hoodies, spooning, hair color, eskimo kisses, vanilla rasberry chapstick, polka dots, green tea, long drives, scratching, hand holding, cold nights, hot showers, hair pulling, boba, sing-a-longs, mix-tapes, being silly.

I'd like to meet:

..someone to grab spoons & dig a hole to china with.. & then when we get like four feet deep they break out the chopsticks & chinese food & tell me that we're almost there. :) oh yeah & dinosaurs. ♥

Music:

air, at the drive in, ani defranco, alkaline trio, arab on radar, autolux, badly drawn boy, belle and sebastian, black heart procession, botch, cat power, cave in, cursive, david gray, death cab for cutie, deftones, fall out boy, the format, fugazi, lilly allen, moving units, modest mouse, minus the bear, morrissey, no kinfe, pinback, shinny toy guns, the la.. etc. etc.

Movies:

way too many... blue velvet, momento, seven, disney, amelie, made, swingers, igby goes down, goonies, very bad things, pulp fiction.

Television:

cold case files, forensic files.. unsolved mysteries, robert stack scares me though.. american justice haha i'm fxcked up..

Books:

vonnegut, salinger, eliot, sedaris.

Heroes:


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My Blog

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stupid broads amuse me hahah if you don't know the whole story don't open your mouth...  i don't want to hear any shit talking..
Posted by under the influence on Mon, 27 Aug 2007 09:44:00 PST

home

there is no place like home.. except when you don't have one...   jerkface.
Posted by under the influence on Tue, 24 Apr 2007 01:50:00 PST

Nothing Is Forever

....and i'll never utter. those words ever again. they are blank and empty. just like your heart. and you stole that from me. but i dont hate you anymore. cause i can feel your suffering. nothing is f...
Posted by under the influence on Tue, 10 Apr 2007 01:41:00 PST

eh

nothing has been the same since she died.. i'm not the same.. i lost myself in taking care of her. i lost everything.. including her. its hard to work so hard for something & then just see it disa...
Posted by under the influence on Wed, 31 Aug 2005 04:24:00 PST

on the move..

i'm all moved :( it was really hard for me to move out of a houe i lived in for so long but i guess it's good for me.. so now i live in huntington beach. this should be an experience.. we'll see...
Posted by under the influence on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

i'm not giving my all by far.

... i'm so scared of smiling, of letting someone into my life.. it only gets worse from here & i couldn't do that to someone. i don't want to bring anyone into my mess. it's mine & mine alone ...
Posted by under the influence on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

totally over it.

yep i'm completely over it. don't even try to talk your way out of this one.. its rediculous.. whatever. hahah i love people. but in other news... i'm amazing ;)
Posted by under the influence on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

eek

i've been lonely lately.. but i'm not really making any effort to do anything about it? very much unlike me. i'm in love with flowers & fudgesicles. :)
Posted by under the influence on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

laughter is the best medicine.

laugh as much as you can. enjoy all the little simple things. embrace & appreciate all the people around you. i care for someone so much. but i denied it for so long.. i don't really know why but...
Posted by under the influence on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

your childish notions..

i'm terribly sick & tired of hearing "oh i'm so in love" what do you know about love.. what do you know about loving yourself? what do you know about being selfless? do you know your boyfriend is ...
Posted by under the influence on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST