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♥Ontra♥

Sometimes going above and beyond for someone just isn't enough so you shouldn't get mad if they don'

About Me


Whew I felt like it was time for a change lol psyche naw but that page was starting to deteriorate well atleast that's what my mind was telling me.I'm still on the same $hit I was on before focusing on school and getting my life right the way I want it to be.So far everything is cool my love life and my everyday life it's all in tact but how long until everything goes sour? who knows.One thing I noticed about me is from all the hurt and neglect I've experienced it's led me to believe.I will never feel loved or everything that I have or the someone that I have will just up and leave me for some unknown reason.I know I need to stop thinking like that but when you are accustumed to something or your whole life you have been shown nothing but hatred that's what heppens.But I vow to try and accept things as they are if I am meant to be treated like $hit hey I accept it, if I am supposed to be in a fab relationship I won't mess things up just because I think I should.I now realize life and the things that come with it in order for your life to change you have to make things change and that's something that took me almost nineteen years to learn but now I know I'm not letting it go!!!I edited my profile at Freeweblayouts.net , check out these Myspace Layouts!
Capricorn
You are very successful in life and are always planning for the future. You are probably already in a committed relationship and enjoy the intimacy that comes with your lovemaking. You are direct with your lover about what you like and you like it when they are direct with you. You have excellent sex, because you make sure that it’s a custom fit for yourself. Sex matches: Taurus, Virgo, Scorpio
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My Interests



[Marital Status] In a relationship
[Shoe size] 8 in a half
[Parents still together] Hell no
[Siblings] 4 brothers and 3 sisters
[Pets] Nope
FAVORITES
[Color] Blue
[Number] 7
[Animal] I love cats
[Drinks] Ice tea
[Soda] I don't drink soda
[Book] Candylicker
[Flower] A rose
DO YOU
[Color your hair?] I have once
[Twirl your hair?] I have none to twirl
[Have tattoos?] No but I want one, one day
[Have Piercings?] I have my ears pierced
[Cheat on tests/homework?] Sometimes
[Drink/Smoke?] I do both occasionally
[Like roller coasters?] Yes but at the same time I'm scared of them lol
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] All the time
[Want more piercings?] Not that I know of
[Like cleaning?] I love cleaning
[Write in cursive or print?] Print it's much neater
[Own a web cam?] No
[Own a cell phone?] Yes
[Ever get off the damn computer?] Yes it's not my life you know
HAVE U EVER
[Been in a fist fight?] Yes but not many
[Considered a life of crime?]
[Considered being a hooker?] WTF
[Lied to someone?] Yes and still do sometimes
[Been in love?] At times I though I was
[Made out with JUST a friend?] No then they wouldn't be just a friend
[Been in lust?] You can say that
[Used someone] Yes and felt bad for doing it
[Been used?] Yes once before
[Been cheated on?] Plenty of times
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] No but I want to
[Stolen anything?] Yes and got locked up for it too
[Held a gun] No and don't want to
CURRENTS
&..39;[Current clothing] ' Gray Gap sweat pants, and a black wife beater
[Current mood]
[Current taste] Oodles and Noodles
[What you currently smell like] Nivea lotion
[Current hair] Head and Shoulders shampoo
[Current thing I ought to be doing] Nothing important
[Current cd in stereo] A mixed cd
[Last book you read] Candylicker
[Last movie you saw] Polar Express
[Last thing you ate] Oodles and Noodles
[Last person you talked to on the phone] My play mom
[Do drugs?] Just say no
[Believe there is life on other planets?] No but there could be
Remember your first love?] Somewhat
[Still love him/her?] At this point no
[Read the newspaper?] Occasionally
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] I'm gay so what does that mean lol
[Believe in miracles?] Yes all the time
[Do well in school?] Yeah when I'm not goofing around
[Wear hats] Sometimes
[Hate yourself?] At times
[Have an obsession?] I love music
[Collect anything?] Magazines
[Have a best friend?] Yeah a couple
[Close friends?] hmmm maybe I'm not sure
[Like your handwriting?] Love it you would too
[Care about looks] It's what's in right now who wouldn't
LOVE LIFE
[First crush] lil romeo hah
[First kiss] My cousin
[Do you believe in love at first sight?] Yes it's happen to me before
[Do you believe in "the one?"] Yes I think I've found him
[Are you a tease?]
[Too shy to make the first move?] Not anymore
ARE U A
[Daydreamer] Yes
[Bitch/Asshole] When I wanna be
[sarcastic] Depends on the situation
[Angel] All the time
[Devil] In playful ways I am lol
[Shy] Not anymore
[Talkative] Hell yeah that's all I do

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I'd like to meet:



How far are you willing to go for love? Living in a place where no one really understands, Whats going through your mind, Whats going through my heart, Last thing I want is for us to fall apart, Did you know that I love you more then anything, You are the cherry blossom and I am the tree, I dont want the wind to blow you off of me, Tears drop fall but they are only tears, But if you fall it would be my worst nightmare, Your here in my heart and you will remain there, Always and forever, Me and you forever together, We are fighting and arguing, About completely nothing, My friend's tell me it's a misunderstanding, But no matter what goes down, Your the person I want to continue loving, Don't leave me, For a fake angel that flies around during the night sky, Those angels are not from the true heaven above, You want to see how far I would go for love?

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Movies:

Just My Luck Dark Water Silent Hill Polar Express Maid In Manhattan Enough Memoirs Of A Geisha Gothika The Chronicles Of Narnia

Television:

I rarely watch television but when I do I love watching America's Next Top Model So You Think You Can Dance & Project Runway

Books:

Candylicker Addicted Nervous Not With My Son Dutch Dymepiece A Hustler's Wife Tru To The Game The Coldest Winter Ever Sex Lies Murder Fame Sheisty

Heroes:

Honestly I would have to say I am my own hero because anyone you idolize obsess over wannabe like follow in their footsteps whatever the case at the end of the day you still go through life alone and the everyday $hit that comes with it.

My Blog

In The Front!!!

Have you ever noticed that when something is being given away   everyone wants to be in the front in a line to get in a concert or a party everyone wants to be in the front when tickets are ...
Posted by ♥Ontra♥ on Sun, 12 Nov 2006 02:35:00 PST

Insecurity

Being insecure sucks so much but man let me tell you if any of you out there are insecure or just not trusting of your man please start now or you could be in the process of losing something soon and ...
Posted by ♥Ontra♥ on Fri, 27 Oct 2006 07:14:00 PST

Myspace Popularity!!!

Why does mostly everyone on here feel as though this is some type of popularity contest they hit you and everyone else up just to save you as a friend to make their friendslist bigger knowing dam...
Posted by ♥Ontra♥ on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 12:56:00 PST