Bisy Bacson

Balance and goals. These are the things that drive me. The goals are easy to describe; the balance a little more difficult. I strive toward the goals I deem worthy with a zeal not many are able to conjure. I pride myself on the veracity I am able to bring forth when I decide something is worth my time. In the past my mental goal was learning arabic, which I excelled at, and my physical goal was bodybuilding. Through bodybuilding I reached 220 at my largest at approx. 6% bodyfat. My current mental goal is solidifying my personal philosophy of morals/ethics, gaining knowledge on issues I care about like the environment, politics, and researching topics that will aid me in my future studies of life/earth sciences. My current physical goal is mixed martial arts competition. I train very hard for this and am confident I will be successful in the near future. After my 3 years left in the air force my goal will shift from individual learning to instituted learning when I return to oregon to receive an advanced degree. The balance I spoke of earlier really is what defines who I am. I don't care for the balance that most people seek. Balance to most is remaining perched on the fulcrum of life never swaying too far in any one direction. I endeavor to do the opposite. The balance I create for myself consists of reaching the far ends and racing back to the other side before I fall off. I do this by creating an incredibly diverse mixture of beliefs and activities that seem to most people completely sporadic and haphazard. In my mind, they create a full portrait of what life can hold. Masculine and feminine energies are the main dividing line of what I try to do. For example, while bodybuilding and fighting are most recent, I have a background in dance and musical theater. I do not date much. There are many reasons for this but the main is that the goals I have currently set for myself do not mesh with a relationship. I still have large hopes and dreams and in my experience when one's focus shifts from their own goals to another person these aspirations are left by the wayside, something I am not yet willing to do. I believe that with the abilities I command I will conquer many arenas in life. The people I care to keep around me are people that support this in me or who feel the same about themselves. Motivation and drive are the most attractive thing to me, in friends or any other relationship. /center